Plugged

I love the silence
after the ipod i couldnt concentrate


We're addicted to noise
always plugged into something.

lunch today was good ..silence

Silence brings out the truth.
awkwardness is the fear of truth.
Why should we feel awkward with silence?
why must there always be noise?
Is it because when there is silence,
that is when we can hear the best?

Plunge

God has blessed me a lot these past few days.
Almost as if to say "I am blessing you so that you can bless others"
For me one of the things that keeps me from serving God to the fullest is the idea that I will be missing out on the "good" times in life because of God.
But God has been reassuring me telling me "Hey watcha talking about, the best times in life are right HERE with ME!"


Yesterday gave me a glimpse into heaven.
Especially the service at ETCBC I could really see the love everyone has for each other there... it was beautiful.
I realized that in Christ every Christian is connected whether they know each other or not.

God is preparing me for the next phase in my life.
What it is? I have no clue, but its coming SOON.
It's gonna be .... an ADVENTURE filled with:

drama, heartbreak, persecution, trials, temptation, struggles, battles, suffering, pain, JOY and LOVE

I know God will bring me through it all.
I'm excited, I'm scared

I just have to be ready to take the the plunge ...into the unknown.
to give up my ideas of what will happen next year and to give it to God.

time is ticking... slowing clicking.....
gotta make a choice.

Story.

Love

everyone has a story to tell

behind the images
behind the pseuds
the facades
the masks
the shadows
the illusions.
the lies.

that we all put up.

A story that is unique, special
A story that is God breathed.
We have the chance to be part of the story of every person we meet
How are we going to change it?

Its hard to look at a person and not judge
But if we can see people simply as Loved by God
Then we can truly be used to change their story and make it a part of His story.
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Today as i was getting a haircut, The hair stylist's assistant scared me.
She had blond highlighted hair, heavy make up and something about her gave me a vibe that she was too cool for me LOL

But then I realized that underneath what:

I thought of her, what she thought of herself
what she looked like, what other people thought she looked like

was what God saw
was who she really is.
was the person I was commanded to Love.

Salt

Season your conversations with salt.
do not babbe like the fool
instead provoke matters that matter.

2 Timothy 2:16
16Avoid godless chatter, because those who indulge in it will become more and more ungodly. 17Their teaching will spread like gangrene.

its hard to not talk about someone behind their back or even not talk about things that are "godless"
but its soo true.

Too Blessed

100$ - income tax return
44$- vacation pay for Buck or Two
treated to dinner! twice in two weeks!
did amazing on tests!
too much.

thank God

Protected

Green light
accelerate.
too fast
black ice
lost control
slam brakes
skid across
hit rail.

safe.
small crack
no license plate
but safe.

hope i can still drive after this

thank God

OWNED

I can feel the life being sucked out of me.
My connection slowly disconnecting.
I'm trying to fight but I can't
Instead of lulls of defeat
and stretches of victory
It has become more frequent
Days even half days of troughs and hills.
The battles are getting more intense
I can feel anticipate when I'm being attacked.
the question is how do i fight back?

lust, pride, sloth, fear, selfishness

Need to pray more but it seems like the opposite in happening.
Losing focus.
Staying focused
Losing focus
Staying focused

"Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken-hearted
The ones that are far beyond my reach
Give me your heart for the ones forgotten
Give me your eyes so I can see "
- Brandon Heath.