Beautiful

Change my Heart O God

Change my heart oh God
Make it ever true
Change my heart oh God
May I be like You

You are the potter
I am the clay
Mold me and make me
This is what I pray

Change my heart oh God
Make it ever true
Change my heart oh God
May I be like You


The Potters Hand

Beautiful Lord, wonderful Saviour
I know for sure all of my days are
Held in Your hand,
Crafted into Your perfect plan.

You gently call me into Your presence
Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit
Teach me dear Lord
To live all of my life through Your eyes.

I'm captured by Your Holy calling
Set me apart, I know You're drawing
Me to Yourself, lead me Lord I pray.

Take me, mold me, use me, fill me
I give my life to the Potter's hand
Call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me
I give my life to the Potter's hand

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I know its going to be hard
I know its going to hurt.
but really, what else has more purpose?
What else can truly satisfy.

All I can do is trust in you
you have never failed me.

Just so you Know

Father,

I guess I feel just a little stupid. I mean it is right?
Maybe not.

I was foolish to think that the answer was me
That it was I who would change to world...
Just a bit ignorant.

Now I understand that it is all you.
SO I leave it in your hands
May you use me in the most excellent way because you are Everything.
Big or small it makes no difference it is all the same because it is all through you.

So i guess I just pray for them all.

Those that you have put in my life

Those who know you and are struggling with life but find no comfort in you.

Those who have been in my life but aren't really anymore.

Those who are the farthest thing from you.

Wherever they are, Whatever they are facing

May your will be done.
May they find you and be transformed by you and find the JOY, PEACE, FREEDOM and LOVE in knowing you and living for you.

I pray that they will not be deceived but that truth shine into their lives. May they see the truth the wonderful truth.

Make new the broken.
Heal the sick of soul

Apologize

A slip of the tongue, A quick instant
A momentary lapse of judgment

...and irreversible chaos ensues.

I talked who then talked who then talked and talked and talked
until lies multiplied cut, hurt and shamed.

gossip is a dangerous thing
easy to be ensnared, hard to get out of
with painful consequences


I was found out yet I did not apologize
Secretly I thought it would go away, like it all eventually does.
Tension built up, relationships broken and still i did not apologize
All for the pride.

Deep inside I felt like I failed God
I was not a light, instead I worked to spread evil.
How could i call myself Christian?

The attitude is the key.
A Christian is not full of pride, but rather he humbles himself and sincerely apologizes when he does wrong.

He is not self righteous, he knows he is not perfect.
HE strives to be perfect everyday to be a reflection of God's goodness and love.

So i swallowed my pride and apologized with humility.
If i did not i would not be a Christ follower i would have tainted the name of God.

but most of all I would not have loved.
I would rather uphold my pride than release someone of the chance to stop hating.

Be

This moment is special, one of a kind
let the tear drops fill your eyes
Remember the times we had up
Dont let the memories fade away

Breath in, breathe out
Dont let this moment pass you buy
Dont think, just shout
life is so much more

Cuz growing up is not what you thought It'd be
Find me where the ocean meets the sky

Moment

Breathe in, Breathe out

This moment is special.
One of a kind.

remember it, because it is gone.

Life is made up of the small moments strung together.
We always seem to remember the smallest details about life the best.

The time when so and so did....
Remember how ......used to......

Don't waste any of it because before you know it,
the people that you thought would be with you forever are gone.
Going down different paths.
The next time you see them if you ever do .....its not the same.

Like strangers again.

Its bittersweet
Its life.

Scars

we're all full of shit.

show me a person who has overcome.
one who lives a life of Love
Someone who is truly worthy to be called "servant of God"

where is the change?
the renewing of mind.

What really have we done?


its all bad.

the good is bad because the bad
dejustifies the good.

We can't truly love if we sin


God help us all. cuz really
were so screwed.


Forgiven
but the scars remain
never to be the same
Inscribed on the flesh of our souls
Leaving a mark of impurity


Consequences
are still there
something we all fear
Not the judgment of our souls
but the cause of the actions


warped minds
no heart.

Stop and Let it be.

Sometimes we think too much

Quantum physicists believe that matter is not really matter but in essence just thoughts of consciousness

Electrons, protons, neutrons "phase" in and out of "reality" constantly.

Scientists have found ways of making the same object appear at the same time in different spaces.

When you really get into science......its just WOW

So many crazy theories out there

Some beleive that if we think enough we can change the physical world around us.

Proof one.
a japanese scientist took pictures of different crystalizations of water used for different purposes at the molecular level.

Beautiful.

http://www.life-enthusiast.com/twilight/research_emoto.htm

two.
there have been accounts of people in extreme circumstances who have lifted objects soo heavy that it would be IMPOSSIBLE for them according to the laws of physics to lift.

three
a group of volunteers all over the world meditated in washington to reduce the crime rate by the summer time of that year

......results showed that the crime rate did indeed go down by 25%

http://www.whatthebleep.com/dcstudy/

Therefore the suggestion is:
If we can make ourselves beleive that we are not bound to the laws of nature then we can do anything (like the matrix)

Chance?
did the crime rate happen to go down?
did the random crystallizations of water happen to be in a comprehensible form to humans?
IS there a scientific way to explain all of this?

or all these just lies?
What is truth how do we know the truth?
If our senses are wrong, if our feelings are just chemical impulses.......

actually.
neuroscientists have looked in everypart of the brain to find what they call "an observer" or consiceness
but have found nothing.

but then agian i only know this from a documentary.......


Maybe the answer doesn't lie within all these facts, proofs, statics, experiments .

Many are skeptical that we can really know.
but i believe that there is an absolute truth that exists outside of how i perceive things.

Although i cannot grasp the full truth through my limited understanding i can at least eliminate the not truths.

lets stop trying to analyze every small detail of life
maybe the reality is the reality were supposed to know.
or else we would experience something else.


Sometimes we just need to KISS
"keep it simple stupid"

To just enjoy the small things in life.

THere are SOO many GOOD things.

(What is good?
GOOD is everything that causes no harm to anyone or anything.

it is an immutable truth or form -plato
trancending the physical.)

Today I went to a classical music concert.
IT was beautiful

I think there were times when people were crying.
The music just had something that made you go WOW
it brought people together
it had this MYSTERIOUS power

and the whole time i was thinking
"this is too great, too amazing for chance to have created us to create this"

GOD is here.


lets just have faith.
something the world needs a little more of.

we say that we have advanced beyond the need for ignorant religions
because we now understand science

but i say
now that we know science we need religion more than ever.

tell me:
Why are our societies degrading morally far more than in the past?
Why are we more confused than we were before?
.....if we are so "enlightened"

Have we gone backwards?

Forms, Attraction and the Cave.

Last night I watched:
"He's just not that into you"


HILARIOUS.

Brought out some of the more comical truths in the courting process.
At the same it was also able to bring out the big question:

"What is love?"

The movie twisted the classic situation of marital unfaithfulness. It suggessted that cheating is jusifyable and even right if there is no longer love or if was no love to begin with in your marriage.

More importantly it raised the idea that Love just happens, you either have it with someone or you don't.
"the one exception" or the one person that you have the "spark with"
that seems to be the way our society sees love.

However, This but an image of love not TRUE love.

In Plato's Allegory of the cave.
There is a man chained to the floor facing the back wall.
He cannot turn around. Behind him and a stone wall and behind the stone wall is a giant bondfire. For some odd reason another person holds objects over the stone wall in front of the fire so that shawdows are cast along the back wall. The person chained to the floor can only make sense of the world through the shadows are projected.

He see's but images of what reality is. HE therefore does not grasp full knowledge.
The chained man is but an ignorant fool who thinks he is wise.

For example if a cone cylinder were to be held up to the fire, from the side it would appear to be a triangle but from the bottom it would be a circle. The man chained who does not understand the concept of 3D would assumed that the shawdows of the triangle and circle are too COMPLETELY different things. hen in reality they are one.

In our heads we build an "image" of the perfect person that we would want to be with.
Alot of times these images come from the media.
We strive to find someone who will fit this image.
We assume that our image is true.

but if we are the allegory of the cave
then how can we KNOW for sure.

The sophoists believes that since we are soo limited so we cannot know.
Therefore the truth is only in the mind of the person.

Plato believes that we are capaable of TRUELY knowing.
That things are what they are they exist even with out our judgement.


........start of philosophy paper.........

Lust of Love

done but unfulfilled
rather a degraded mind
of a pedophile
no it is not here

yet again deceived
the deepest longings
if separated; soul and body
is not lust but love

connected they flow in a seamless circle.

rotting

the mind to the soul to the body

backwards we go.belittling love and straight to lust
when it is as simple as the reverse.
so broken we go on never learning from our mistakes.

love is not lust
simple we say yet the way we live says otherwise

it is a lie dear friends.
we all have been wronged
cheated in fact of Good
and given crap instead

yet we still dig in the crap for good

Like Water

Openness is the key to truth
truth is the way to freedom
freedom is the road to joy
joy is a character of good.
Good is summoned up in Love

trust is the start.

distrust is the start

Fear is the key to deceit
deceit the way to loneliness
loneliness the road to suffering
suffering the character of sin
Sin summoned up in disobedience.

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words are dumb.they cause more trouble than benefit
we shouldn't need to talk
the world would be much easier if we could just project our feelings to each other.

but most of the time we don't take the time to try to feel or UNDERSTAND where other people are coming from. we don't understand their words their character their
essence.

so we think they are: stupid, wrong.
maybe we should think the opposite.
maybe we're wrong, maybe we're stupid.

but really it don't matter if we can LOVE.
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F A R
away yet soclose

sometimes
all the time
it comes back agian

back <---PuSHED

S T I L L
dwelling on my

S2

when i think i have
i lose it all in a

FlaSHhhhhhh

then it comes back
tell me:
what do i have?
Do i have or do i not
is it real or is it thought
how do i know.

PEACE?
NO: trust

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THE ARTS

illusions cast by man to taint reality
false fantasies

the music moves and deceives a temporary cover
the pictures are all lies expressions from a warped view
the stories can not be truth

mere shadows.
void of meaning.

man knows little o soo little.
do not gain knowledge
do not seek wisdom

from him
for he is a fool who thinks he is wise.
mere shadows.
void of meaning.
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Like water
my thoughts are ever changing shifting

some are solid
some are flowing
some are both.
some are scattered
some are all

it IS what you think it to be

but not really.
it is what i think it to be

but not really in your head

so there is one absolute meaning
and all else is wrong.

Life Drainer.

Marvelous, wonderful my life drainer
boredom is quenched, thoughts doused
The great entertainer more to trust

tick tick tick.

Bedazzled, entranced my life tamer
body benched, soul gouged
The late in flamer more to lust

click click click

Flash, Bang my life changer
time wrenched, mind aroused
The fate deranger more to must

Click tick click tick click tick
beep
Gone.

Screw the Drama

I believe that a life centered around Christ means the absence of drama
because.... when you are focused on God nothing else matters.

You give up your pride, humble yourself and apologize to those you have wronged.

You understand that you don't always have to be right because most of the time it doesn't matter.

You don't get angry with people's flaws instead you are patient and see them as people loved by God.
Know that you are also flawed

but God does not see the: thief, liar, murdered, rapeist, rebel in you.
so do not judge others. we all have a different story and circumstance.

You forgive those who have wronged you as God forgives

You don't feel sad because of romantic rejections because you trust that God's plan is better than what you think you want/need.

You are completely selfless.

Always giving never taking so that God's work can be done.


be honest . 100% in life.

in action
in character
in words

does it feel weird when people see who you really are?
don't feel weird be proud because you are God's creation PERFECT

instead feel weird when your not yourself when you mask God's glory.
let others see the TRUTH in your life not a mask of sin
so that others can see Christ in your life

Virtue

"Virtue is knowledge. "
- Socrates

the person who commits wrong is ignorant of the truth
it is not the lack of reasoning but rather the reasoning is incomplete from lack of knowledge.

A thief steals because he believes that what he steals will bring him satisfaction
he does not KNOW that it is a lie

If one understood that up held morals is the most excellent way he would not give into vice.
but man is deceived by the physical.

The question now is what is moral?
Socrates was on the right track

he was also a practicing gay.

The Value of Philosophy

"The man who has no tincture of philosophy goes through life imprisoned in the prejudices derived from common sense, from the habitual beliefs of his age or his nation, and from convictions which have grown up in his mind without the co-operation or consent of his deliberate reason."

The person who does not "seek wisdom" has a narrow understanding of the world believing all he has been told and all that he senses. In a way he is trapped because he does not question his existence but passively accepts everything as "truth." In fact he has been brianwashed to an extent in that he did not willfully want these ideas to be implanted into him he just did not know.

"To such a man the world tends to become definite, finite, obvious; common objects rouse no questions, and unfamiliar possibilities are contemptuously rejected"

He is in fact not trully living at all everything is normal and MUST stay normal in his view.

-Bertrand Russel. "The Value of Philosophy"
www.skepdic.com/russell.html
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Philosophy means "love of wisdom"
The discussion of unanswerable questions.
Does God exist?
How do you know the difference between right and wrong?
Are are actions free or determined?

Some people say that philsophy is pointless.
what can you possibly gain from trying to figure out the impossible questions?

but i leave it at this:
1 Corinthians 3:19
For the wisdom of this world is foolishness in God's sight. As it is written: "He catches the wise in their craftiness" ;

1 Corinthians 1:20
Where is the wise man? Where is the scholar? Where is the philosopher of this age? Has not God made foolish the wisdom of the world?

1 Corinthians 1:25
For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength.

Philosophy attmempts to look at things
from a point of view "free from self"
but rather from the point of view of the whole universe.

"If the study of philosophy has any value at all for others than students of philosophy, it must be only indirectly, through its effects upon the lives of those who study it. It is in these effects, therefore, if anywhere, that the value of philosophy must be primarily sought."
The point is how the big picture can affect the individual and thus effect the great good of mankind.

but in the end its God

Think:
If you walk towards a wall at exactly one half the pace you did before when will you reach the wall?

Mathemeticians can now prove that 1+1=0.

think.