Blind

Are we blind?

Does being blind mean not being able to see? or does being blind mean not being able to see clearly?

You go to an art gallery to look at this ONE painting thats supposed to be one of the MOST beautiful paintings ever created. When you finally get see the picture you say to yourself thats its a nice picture very pretty, but nothing worth all the hype you heard about. BUT you failed to see the ONE thing that the artist had in mind when he painted the picture and you miss the BEST part of the picture.

Life is like that
We go through all the good things in life but we miss the one thing that really makes life LIVING
I think when it comes to life we're all blind.


“Hatred is blind, as well as love.” Oscar Wilde


Sometimes I see people blinded by reality they seem to think that life lasts forever
that there is nothing more to life than being popular or getting a boyfriend/girlfriend.

There are those blinded to what life is really all about
They work sooo hard to get a good job to make lots of money
all for what? for happiness? but are they really satisfied with what they have?

I don't think so because if they were truly satisfied then i don't think there would be so many divorces in this world
There wouldn't be so many people looking to find different jobs or get promotions
Why aren't we satisfied?

but then i guess that makes me blind too huh?
I mean I used to think like that
but as I go through life I seem to be able to see more and more
but still there are those who never seem to see to open their eyes a little more........

IF there was someone was next to you and he saw what you couldn't see, he sees the awesomeness of the picture. and then he saw your reaction and how its soo not awesome.......
soo he asks you why your not as excited about the picture as he is. and you say "oo its pretty but there seems to be this random black spot in the middle of the painting that ruins it." Then he realizes that you don't see IT. SO he's TRYING with all his might to explain it to you, too make you be ABLE to see what he sees. But you think he's crazy, you think that he's making it all up. Soo as this guy goes on you start to make fun of him......
BUT this guy doesn't quit cuz he KNOWs what he saw and he wants you TO SEE how MAGNIFICENT the picture is.....

I think that if we really took everything in life into consideration ....
even if a blind person can't see
he can still smell, still hear and still taste what is around him...
IF we stop using our "eyes" and start using our other senses
Then maybe we can see what we couldn't see before

And as the person is next to you trying with ALL his might to make you see
more and more people come. Some see THE painting and others don't. Some of the people who don't see the THE painting join you and start cussing at those who do telling them there crazy
but some stop and think and wonder if maybe there is more......
still other people go see the painting and just leave the gallery missing it all.
and then there are those who pretend to see THE picture when they really don't....

BUT everyone WHO DOES see the painting ALL are trying to find a way for ALL those who DON'T see the painting to SEE the painting BECAUSE its SOOO amazing...........and they want everyone to see it as it is.

Limit

It seems I'm always sooo burdened by a lot of things

worship in Koinonia isn't WORSHIP
Charis can't find a teacher supervisor
Koinonia doesn't have enough cell group leaders
PEOPLE ARE DYING everyday without knowing God
People are living everyday not knowing how their lives are meant for sooo much MORE
People are HURTING, CRYING OUT and desperately seeking GOD
but PEOPLE are too blinded, TRAPPED in stupid things that DON'T matter to see .....
PEOPLE ARE LIVING IN LIES, IN ILLUSIONS THAT ARE NOT TRUe that don't bring true satisfaction that only let them down ...

PEOPLE DON'T KNOW THAT GOD LOVES not "God loves" he LOVES them and that the one thing they seek is Him

My heart breaks every time I see another person let down and hurt because of a breakup
My heart hurts every time I see someone put their hope in one PERSON
because i know that their gona be hurt again and because i know that people can't satisfy people

MY heart just stops when I see these things happening to my friends because I LOVE these people SO much.
MY heart cries to hear them neglecting and rejecting the one thing that can FREE them

I worry and I stress day and night
but today I learned something
Lately I've been soo drained by life....
I seem to be empty at the end of each day in fact i seem to be going backward on the meter
I've also been sick (which makes it worse)
and I've also been struggling with my own SINS and my own battles (which we all have)

and I've been praying desperately for all the above. (everyday)
and it seemed like nothing was changing
but somehow SOMETHING inside me would give up something inside me wouldn't lose FAITH so I kept going

I would be reminded that God answers prayers (Matthew 7)

and as i kept praying God spoke to me
He was like telling me why was I so worried and stressed about all these things
What can I possibly do about it?
I CAN'T I'm just a man I dont have the power to change hearts I don't have the power to heal hurts.

LEAVE IT TO HIM he said he didn't ask me to save the nations
1 Peter 5:6-8
6Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

I shouldn't worry about things that I can't DO instead I should focus on the things I CAN do.(the present) When I worry about it it takes my focus away on IMPORTANT things ON REALITY
THE bible says dont worry about tomorrow cuz how is worrying gona change anything? (Matthew 6:25-34)

God was like do your best Its all I ask cuz your only human
Everything else leave it to me and trust theres some things your not gona see right way
and if you need help of course I'm there.

Proverbs 3:4-6
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.


The only thing that I can do is love each person in my life the way Jesus did.
The rest is up to God

Come Home

I think its time to stop and think
I think its time to do whats right
Are you broken?
In need of someone to put you together
I think it's time to leave your sin
I think its time to turn around
Are you empty?
In need of someone to fill you in?

Come home, come home
He has your cloak in his hands
He's waiting for you at the door
To embrace you at your entrance
Come home, come home
The feast inside waiting for you
It won't start
It won't till you home

I think its time to end your search
I think its time to recommit
Your in circles
in need of someone who'll guide you through
I think its time to dry your tears
I think its time to stand up
Your found our Lord Jesus wants to lead you home

words by:
-Joyce Tam

Luke 15:11-31

Filled

There's SOO much to do
There's SOO much to DO

Yesterday I walked into my house @ 4:12 pm
I turned on my computer and spent 3 hours learning how to graph polynomial functions in factored form because Mr. Wozniak doesn't really teach.....well


THEN I worked on the scavenger hunt for Charis
THEN I ate dinner
THEN I worked on my bio assignment
THEN I did my math homework for that day
THEN I practiced for "Break the Walls Down"
THEN I studied for Bio till 10:30 pm

Finally when the lights were out. I sat in silence and I chilled with God, I prayed to my Creator
IT was hard to calm down because it was such a tiring day
I had soo much to say, So much on my heart
I just couldn't stop pouring out my stress my anxieties

but while I was praying I felt PEACE and Joy amidst my worries and trouble.
IT was something soo incredible I stopped talking and just RESTED in the peace and love abd joy that was indescribable
God was just telling me to chill to relax to take it one day at a time to stop doing, to take some time and BE

Even though I was TIRED and DRAINED and just at my limit
When I felt like I should give up and just drop math and bio
I was FILLED with strength to challenge the next day

Psalm 28:7 (New International Version)

The LORD is my strength and my shield;
my heart trusts in him, and I am helped.
My heart leaps for joy
and I will give thanks to him in song.

Not what you Feel~

Sometimes when I pray
Sometimes when I worship

I get the thought that if I don't feel something supernatural then nothing is happening.

God isn't a bunch of emotions you feel
God is a LIVING BREATHING EXISTING BEING

When I am talking to someone I don't have to feel like I'm talking to that person
because I AM talking to that person. NO matter what I feel

Of course there are times when I can feel emotion when I'm talking to someone
but I don't have to feel emotion to converse with them.

I guess for people its hard to comprehend or even imagine anything that is beyond our senses.
So when we're presented with something thats not physical we automatically rely on what we "feel" because its the only thing left that can determine if something exists (in our world) or not.

But thats not true
God exists weather you feel him or not.

By Faith

Hebrews 11

1Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. 2This is what the ancients were commended for.

3By faith we understand that the universe was formed at God's command, so that what is seen was not made out of what was visible. 4By faith Abel offered God a better sacrifice than Cain did. By faith he was commended as a righteous man, when God spoke well of his offerings. And by faith he still speaks, even though he is dead.

5By faith Enoch was taken from this life, so that he did not experience death; he could not be found, because God had taken him away. For before he was taken, he was commended as one who pleased God. 6And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

7By faith Noah, when warned about things not yet seen, in holy fear built an ark to save his family. By his faith he condemned the world and became heir of the righteousness that comes by faith.

8By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going. 9By faith he made his home in the promised land like a stranger in a foreign country; he lived in tents, as did Isaac and Jacob, who were heirs with him of the same promise. 10For he was looking forward to the city with foundations, whose architect and builder is God.

11By faith Abraham, even though he was past age—and Sarah herself was barren—was enabled to become a father because he^[a]considered him faithful who had made the promise. 12And so from this one man, and he as good as dead, came descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and as countless as the sand on the seashore.

13All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth. 14People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. 15If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had opportunity to return. 16Instead, they were longing for a better country—a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them.

17By faith Abraham, when God tested him, offered Isaac as a sacrifice. He who had received the promises was about to sacrifice his one and only son, 18even though God had said to him, "It is through Isaac that your offspring^[b] will be reckoned."^[c] 19Abraham reasoned that God could raise the dead, and figuratively speaking, he did receive Isaac back from death.

20By faith Isaac blessed Jacob and Esau in regard to their future.

21By faith Jacob, when he was dying, blessed each of Joseph's sons, and worshiped as he leaned on the top of his staff.

22By faith Joseph, when his end was near, spoke about the exodus of the Israelites from Egypt and gave instructions about his bones.

23By faith Moses' parents hid him for three months after he was born, because they saw he was no ordinary child, and they were not afraid of the king's edict.

24By faith Moses, when he had grown up, refused to be known as the son of Pharaoh's daughter. 25He chose to be mistreated along with the people of God rather than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a short time. 26He regarded disgrace for the sake of Christ as of greater value than the treasures of Egypt, because he was looking ahead to his reward. 27By faith he left Egypt, not fearing the king's anger; he persevered because he saw him who is invisible. 28By faith he kept the Passover and the sprinkling of blood, so that the destroyer of the firstborn would not touch the firstborn of Israel.

29By faith the people passed through the Red Sea^[d] as on dry land; but when the Egyptians tried to do so, they were drowned.

30By faith the walls of Jericho fell, after the people had marched around them for seven days.

31By faith the prostitute Rahab, because she welcomed the spies, was not killed with those who were disobedient.^[e]

32And what more shall I say? I do not have time to tell about Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jephthah, David, Samuel and the prophets, 33who through faith conquered kingdoms, administered justice, and gained what was promised; who shut the mouths of lions, 34quenched the fury of the flames, and escaped the edge of the sword; whose weakness was turned to strength; and who became powerful in battle and routed foreign armies. 35Women received back their dead, raised to life again. Others were tortured and refused to be released, so that they might gain a better resurrection. 36Some faced jeers and flogging, while still others were chained and put in prison. 37They were stoned^[f]; they were sawed in two; they were put to death by the sword. They went about in sheepskins and goatskins, destitute, persecuted and mistreated— 38the world was not worthy of them. They wandered in deserts and mountains, and in caves and holes in the ground.

39These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised. 40God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect.

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There comes a point when logic and reasoning fail
There comes a point where you have to look at everything in its entirety and judge for yourself



Sometimes you just need a little faith.

Praise

when I feel far and distant praise your name
when I'm lost and confused praise your name

When it seems like nothing is going right in my life
When I am in the darkest hour
When life seems to choke the "life" out of me
When I am weary, angry, sad, happy, joyful

PRAISE YOUR NAME


When troubles come
When war erupts
when tragedies occur
when disaster strikes

PRAISE YOUR NAME

When I am eating
When I am learning
When I am alone
When I am with friends


PRAISE YOUR NAME

When You feel far
When your are near

In the morning
In the evening


Hallelujah
HOSANNA (he saves)


because you are our creator
because you love us
because you are in control
because you are holy

because you are our GOD

Noise

CALM yourself in silence
turn off your music
turn off your TV
turn off your thoughts
get off the phone
sign off msn

Just stop.....
and listen to the silence

in the world we live in, there never seems to be a moment where we can rest
we're constantly surround by soo many distractions soo many "noises"
we seem to be entertained every second of our lives

We get home we:
turn on the computer
turn on the TV
turn on the Radio
Call someone up
Read a book

We never just sit in silence I mean that seems stupid doesn't it? or is it?

we can't seem to survive without having our attention fixated on SOMETHING
and when were not entertained we're bored.... and being bored is negative? is it?

Sometimes its not just media
but other things like work
Homework, housework, work work, volunteer work, church work, hobby work

we seem to work work work study study study
we never take time to STOP

among all this "busyness" have you even stopped to think even for a moment what the point of it is? i mean we all seem to work soo hard for something.... only to get even more work and be twice as busy

Doesn't it seem a bit wrong? a bit unnatural? I mean how did people in the past SURVIVE with out our technological advances we have today?

A lot of times we complain about how we can't seem to "feel God" or "hear him speak"
We say that we've tried and tried but nothing seems to happen he's not "there"

Could it be that there's just soo much noise that his voice is lost amidst all distractions?
When was the last time you sat in silence
Not just silence but "silence" with no distractions?
Just sat in the MOMENT NOT thinking about the past or the future but being in the present
where GOD is
where ETERNITY meets TIME

in the bible it says:

1 Kings 19:11-14 (New International Version)

11 The LORD said, "Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the LORD, for the LORD is about to pass by."
Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the LORD, but the LORD was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake. 12 After the earthquake came a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper. 13 When Elijah heard it, he pulled his cloak over his face and went out and stood at the mouth of the cave.
Then a voice said to him, "What are you doing here, Elijah?

See God wasn't in the POWERFUL WIND or the EARTHQUAKE or even the fire
God came in a gentle whisper.............

SO take time right NOW to be in SILENCE
WE were not beings created to just work we were also created to rest and be in the company of God.

NOT just 5 minutes
NOT just 10 minutes
NOt just 20 minutes
BUT take enough time to CALM yourself be in the MOMENT and LISTEN to GOD
maybe you don't know his voice because you've never heard it........

and when you've calmed down from all the stress of life
start to think about things that really matter
don't focus on just the short term BUT REALLY THINK REFLECT on this life
why are we here? whats the point of everything I'm doing now?
ASK GOD and talk to him and he will answer
SEEK and you will find

Matthew 7:6-11

7"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. 9"Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him

FOR Christians we have the AMAZING ability to connect with GOD
because Jesus died for our sins we can come to GOd the father personally.

Even if you don't know what you believe or what to think still take time TO THINK to really ask
questions.....sometimes its hard to think when all we do is DO.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WinhYMtZjMA

Loneliness

We, humans are relational beings
I mean relationships are extremely important to us.
We have like a bajillion different names for types of different relationships with ppl

friends, best friends, acquaintances, enemies, mother, father, aunt, uncle, grandma, grandpa, brother, sister, sibling, boss, employer, coach, teammate, classmate, peer , teacher, sensei, soul mate, band mate, workout buddy, wife, husband, lover, boyfriend, girlfriend, captain, cousin, mistress, son, daughter, student, Elder, pastor, councilor, employee,

ETC, I think you get the point

When you get into Chinese relationships it gets even more specific you have specific names for each of your aunts and uncles and your grandparents on each side of your family.
It gets pretty confusing

its OBVIOUS relationships are important to us BUILT into us
THEY EFFECT EVERY ASPECT of our lives.

When a relationship is not going well it effects other aspects of our lives
School, Health, performance etc.

Soo why out of all the lifeforms out there do we humans have this other thing called relationships? and why is it s0o important to us?
I mean it doesn't make sense according to survival of the fittest having a relationsip is BAD it should get you killed. looking out for others? plz... in this world to survive you have to look after yourself

Could there be something more?

WHY DO WE HAVE SUCH A HUGE URGE TO CONNECT?
WHAT IS IT IN US?

But even with the huge amount of relationships we have.. we still have a feeling called loneliness

Loneliness- alone; solitary; without company; companionless.

why do we still feel lonely when were constantly surrounded by other ppl?
why do we keep searching for a better deeper relationship?

Clearly its not enough, theres something else
If this was just all there was wouldn't we be satisfied with what we see? the reality we live in now?
How can we want something more if this is all there is?

Then there MUST be something more than what we see and that something is the thing we are searching for.

We, as humans are relational beings we were created to have relationships with other ppl
but most importantly we were created to have a RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD
and in finding that relationship is when were finally satisfied because thats what we we're created for

When we have that relationship with GOD our relationship with other ppl get better and we understand ourselves better and can be more like ourselves not having to pretend to be something were not. ITS FREEDOM TRUE FREEEDOM
ITS HAPPINESS, ITS JOY

I can't express how amazing it is, amazing can't even describe it

I can testify to this truth. GOd wants to know you no matter who you are or what you've done.
JUST TALK TO HIM SEEK HIM
ASk questions

Illusion vs Reality? or Illusion is Reality?

Illusion- something that deceives by producing a false or misleading impression of reality.

Reality- the state or quality of being real.
resemblance to what is real.


What is real? What is fake?
When people talk about seeing things that aren't "real" we call them hallucinations

It was only on illusion........................

But to that ONE person
It can be REALITY because that is what they see in front of them
So who is right? That ONE person or Everyone else?
how can we define reality?

Lets take Calvin and Hobes (the comic book)
To Calvin, Hobes is very real a friend
To every one else Hobes is just a stuffed animal
but when the reader sees things from Calvin's point of view isn't Hobes more than just a stuffed animal? isn't hobes an actually friend that Calvin plays with? so wouldnt that fact make Hobes Calvin's friend?

In that aspect isn't hobes real?
but then the rest of the world sees Hobes as "just a stuffed animal"

people make up things that aren't "real because they need them or they can't live with the truth?

How many times do we ourselves catch ourselves in a false DISTORTION of reality?
There are soo many twists to the truth in everything we are presented with:

We give off a fake reality of ourselves in front of other ppl
OR are they showing another aspect to themselves?

Sometimes Even our own feelings deceive us. " I love you" is a line that i think is taken too lightly in today's society. Just because you have a strong attraction to someone doesn't mean that you are "in love" Even if you are close with that person
Many times we get a false image of love from the media....
I mean why the high divorce rate? isn't love supposed to last forever?
Love is something I don't understand too well
but something i do understand about it is this:

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7



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HOW ARE WE ABLE TO TELL WHAT IS REAL?
What is true?

Just because the majority of people see something as reality does that make it reality?

In this world most people believe that "All matter is made of particle too tiny to see called atoms"

HAve they ever seen atoms? NO
Then how do you know its real?

"Technically, you cannot "see" anything smaller than the shortest wavelength of light that you can see it with. The shortest wavelength violet light is 4 x 10^-7 meters. An atom is about 10^-11 meter. So an atom is 4 x 10⁴ or 40,000 x too small to be seen." (http://wiki.answers.com/Q/How_can_you_see_an_atom)

Well you can see the properties of how atoms work
ie. water dissolves sugar because of the polar nature of the molecule
ICe is less dense than water because of the hydrogen bonds created in water


How about things like LOVE, HOPE, FAITH

How do you know these things exist?
Maybe they actually don't exist maybe these are just Illusions we as ppl made up.......

or is it?
We can SEE LOVE
WE can see Hope
WE can SEE Faith in the lives of people

We see how someone still believes in the best even when it seems like there is nothing going for them
We can see how people just believe in things like they are real when there is no physical evidence that it exists
We can also sooo how people are able to sacrifice their good for the good of others despite the fact that we all look out for only ourselves

NOW lets take GOD
there are a lot of godz
soo is GOD just an ILLUSION or is he/she/it a REALITY

if we take the theory that reality is what the majority of ppl believe in...then God does exist

However at one point the whole world believed that the WORLD WAS FLAT
Did it make it Flat?
NO the fact remains that it is indeed a sphere as was proved later on

SO there is only ONE REALITY ONE TRUTH
The question now is:

Out of all the different ideas out there....
Which one is the TRUTH
and what is just an ILLUSION

Love

"Jesus loved the outcasts he loved the ones the world loved to hate"
- Relient K (Failure to Excommunicate)

In our society today we have a lot of hate
Sometimes we hate because someone has wronged us
Sometimes there isn't even a reason, we just hate because everyone else seems to hate that person

Why is it soo much easier to hate than to love?

Why do we gotta hate? In a world thats already soo messed up, why screw it up even more?
Does it get us anywhere? does it even make us feel better? does it really do anything in the end but bring pain, hurt and sadness to everyone?
SO why?

Everytime I hear people hating on someone my heart inside cries
cuz that person is still a person.....created by God

The bible says to first love GOd and then love your neighbours as yourself

Who is your neighbour? When the bible says neighbour doesnt that mean everyone?
Especial those that aren't the most popular who some consider loser ..OUTCASTS of the social hierarchy

THe bible doesnt say Love those who are good looking or love those who love you
In fact it says what good is it to love those who love you? Everybody does that.

NO the bible says LOVE YOUR ENEMIES, DO GOOD to those who harm you.

When Jesus came into the world he didn't come and hang out with kings, the rich or the
"cool kids"

NO he did the opposite he befriend people that most everyone else hated.......
Prostitutes, Tax collectors etc.

and you know what? he got a lot of judgement and hate from everyone else.
BUT that didn't matter Jesus LOVED these LOSERS and CHANGED their lives FOREVER.

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The more i get to know God the more I feel his love for humanity especially the "losers"
I'm starting to see through a different perspective.

I think that I'm getting to a point where I'm not afraid to befriend those that people consider less
even if it means that I'll be considered a loser tooo

Cuz really everything else is stupid POINTLESS
BUT doing what GOd commanded me to do...to love isn't

SO i guess what im trying to get at
is...

LEt me love like you do FAther
In everything i do and say maybe it reflect your love for your people
In the name of JEsus Amen

Hope? with change ~ Freedom?(Part 2 read previous post)

HOW? how is the question of the matter.

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he is LOVE an existence that was so0o0o0 filled with LOVE that he had to create to share his AMAZINGNESS and OVERFLOWING LOVE
We were mean't to be part of his love
but we rejected it ........
and decided to pursue our own ..."love"
endlessly searching for meaning that isn't there
for something that doesn't exist being chained to our Illusions of "freedom" what is Freedom"

"The ability to do wharever you please?"
but really don't we want to be free so that we can be happy?
doing what we please doesn't really bring us happiness does it?
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soo How?

Because he loved us he died for us
so that we could live in the way things were supposed to be
BE the beings that he intended us to be
and in doing this
then we find happiness
in doing this
then we find "FREEDOM"

it doesn't happen instantly because of course we're soo immersed in our old way of living
but slowly we change......into something AMAZING better than what we were

When we LET GO we become more of our true selves
When we LET GO we become something that is BEAUTIFUL
When we LET GO MIRACLES happen
WHEN we let GO we find our true purpose
and when we find our purpose we are finally satisfied

Let Go of your pride
Let Go of your Jealousy
Let Go of your Anger
LEt Go of your own desires

because really where do theses things take you?
what do you get from them?
they just chain you up
you become CONSUMED and controlled by something soo stupid
DON'T WASTE YOUR LIFE ON THESE THINGS, YOU CAN DO SOO MUCH BETTER SOO MUCH MORE

aRE YOu ready? to be free?
its easy
all you have to do is ASK
everything has already been taken care of.

"For GOd so loved the Word that he gave his one and only son that whoever believes in him will not perish but have everlasting life" John 3:16

just talk to your CREATOR
and tell him you don't want to do things your way anymore
you want to do things the way it was supposed to be
tell him your SORRY
and that you accept his gift of life that was paid by the death of his son JEsus

The Change Within ~ (The HEart of Humanity)

LATELY
I scare myself
lately I catch myself doing the strangest things

Everytime I start checking out a cute girl something inside me tells me to STOP
EVerytime I feel angered or annoyed something inside me tells me to CHILL
Everytime I feel the rebel urge theres a FIGHT within myself
EVerytime things don't go MY way and I start to get frustrated I am reminded that its not all about me.

YES! this is something weird, absurd,CRAZY MAYBE even alittle bit FOOLISH?
or is it?
BECAUSE LATELY I have been filled with JOY, PEACE, LOVE and just alittle bit more patience
SOME may say that what is happening is IMPOSSIBLE. SOME SAY that what I am feeling is STUPID because IN THIS WORLD NO one really cares about one another they ONLY care about themSELVES

I want a girlfriend because it MAKES ME FEEL GOOD
I want a boyfriend because I feel lonely
I'm only going to be nice to this person because they're COOL and will in turn make ME look good
I'm not going to associate MYSELF with that person because they are "LOSERS" and I will look like TRASH
I'm going to SMOKE because it draws ATTENTION to mySELF and I WANT ATTENTION
IM GOING TO ROB THIS PERSON AND BEAT HIM UP BECAUSE I NEED MONEY


IM GOING TO RAPE THIS GIRL BECAUSE IT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD


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WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY
DO WE, MUST WE bring pain and suffering on ourselves?.............................................

*breathe..............

BECAUSE the fact of the matter is that HUMANS ARE SELFISH
PEople ask IF God is soo GOOD then why do all these bad things happen?
THe truth is bad things happen because of our own sin and selfishness.

How then is it possible that these things are happening to me? In a world that screams selfishness?

I think I'm starting to see something
Something that I couldn't see before:

We were all created by God perfectly to function a certain way,
but SIN came and ruined everything.
With sin we no longer wanted to do the things we were meant to
With sin we turned against the very things that were supposed to be like

Instead of being a creation full of JOY, HAPPINESS, LOVE, GOODNESS, PEACE, HUMILITY, RESPECT, COURAGE, GENTLENESS, and GOD

We chose to go our own way and pursued : LUST, ANGER, HATE, GOSSIP, GREED, BITTERNESS, REVENGE, RAGE, PRIDE, and OURSELVES

We weren't created to be like this, but we chose to do things our own way
Where does that take us? Are we happy the way things are now? Are we satisfied?

...............not really

and yet we keep thinking "if only we have more" MORE MORE MORE MORE MEMEMEMEMEMEMMOREMORE MEMEMEMOREMORE

*****DRUM ROLL PLEASE****
I present to you Ladies and Gentlemen the heart Behind humanity
toooo words


ME
MORE

start of a new beginning

ITS time, time to grow up, the last year of being a "kid" the time to STOP living a lie and start living in truth

No more being unsure, wavering, its DISGUSTING
THe time is here to FIGHT
"The harvest is plenty but the Workers are few"
Who's gona be bold enough to save the lost?
Who's willing to get out of their comfort zone?
WHo's willing to give it ALL EVERYTHING 100% for the sake of ETERNITY?
Who's willing to be nothing, trash a social outcast?
WHo's willing to LOVE with DIVINE love?
WHO WHO WHO?

........Not me
I can't do it Father because I am only human.
but I am willing so send me and use me
give me the strength to do your work
give me the wisdom to see through the darkness of the world
give me the discernment to see what us right and wrong in this cloudy society
give me humility so that your name will be glorified in my life
give me the Spirit so that your power will be made known and undeniably real

May I not fall to Evil because it is soo easy to, but may I be rooted in YOU
Father maybe your will be done in my life
Every person put in my class
Who I sit beside
Who I hang out with
Who I eat lunch with
Every word I SAy
Everything I do
EVEry thought I think
MAY YOUR LOVE BE SHOWN AND YOUR NAME GLORIFIED

I pray for those you have placed in my life for I KNOW that you have put them in my life for a reason.
OPEN DOORS
SOFTEN HEARTS
OPEN EYES
BREAK DOWN WALLS
and work in the lives of these people
Use me to reach these people and to Introduce YOU to them
YOUR LOVE
YOUR POWER
YOUR PEACE
YOUR JOY


Forgive me of my sins because I know they are many
May I continue to be more LIKE you
Thank YOU

In the NAme of JEsus Christ I pray
Amen