To make clear what I have been blogging about:
We as Christians say we are saved that our life is better and full of joy.
Yet nothing distinguishes us.What makes it better?
If anything we are just made into hypocrites.
I am not saying all Christians are like this. I am not saying im not a hypocrite. In fact i am pointing out the fact that this is a flaw within myself.
We say that we follow Christ, therefore if we are in Christ we should produce FRUIT.
"He is the vine and we are the branches"
The fruits of the Spirit are: Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, good, gentleness, faithfulness, self-control
So if we are truly followers of Christ we should be producing these fruits and we should see the fruits in our own lives. The criteria are hard to follow because in essence they are impossible without God.
Its human nature to get angry, frustated etc. when people do things to hurt you.
Its natural to think of ourselves first.
These things are all natural (in our sinful nature of course)
But as Christians what sets us apart is the fact that we go agianst these things
and our lives show essentially the qualities God originally meant for us.
Natural in the sinful way = unnatural in Gods way, which is the intended way
So if your still with me.:
What I see from Christians in my life.... well i dont see much of Christ. I really see people being people, another person of society
NOT people being...well not people of this world.
I understand A little more of what it means to be an Ambassador of Christ, To not belong.
Sometimes when I'm talking to friends at school and there so wrapped up in university stuff well I feel I just don't belong. Its not that university isnt important to me, its that fact that I dont base my life around gettting accepted. People in my grade are so CONSUMED with gettin good grades...its sad
I feel weird because I base my life around what God calls me to do.
I guess its the same for people in different phases of life also. but instead of school its: Work, family, charity etc
Back to my original point: Christians = Not acting like Christ
Whats up with that? I mean Christian means "Follower of Christ"
So if your not following Christ then your not Christian. (duh)
Jesus put God above all his priorities.
But many times we put other things first
In our soceity it has become acceptable to put school ahead of God
"why didnt you come to fellowship" "Homework" -end of convo everything is justified.
That is NOT right.
"Seek Yee first the Kingdom of God"
People think that you only have time for school or God.
Wrong. I can prove it.
Following God INCLUDES school because you do EVERYTHING to GLORIFY GOD which means doing the best in ALL aspects of your life (still working on that)
But that doesnt you dont talk to God because your to busy doing doig hmwk or skip worship cuz of a project. Its not impossible to balance those two things.
I used "School" as an example
But im also talking about not seeing Christ in other aspects of out lives:
In the way we handle our relationships with friends, family etc (its getting better for me) also in our work in EVERYTHING.
Many times we separate God when really we need to INTEGRATE GOD.
Relationships: Dont get easiy angered at your friends when they do something inconsiderate
Forgive.
Just the other day one of my friends got SOOO MAD at my other friend and yes maybe there was a decent reason
but that doent matter because God calls us to Forgive! TO LOVE
My angry friend spent the whole day brooding over this one incident
he didnt talk to us, he just sat with an agery look on his face
He secluded himself when we were hanging out having fun
He let it ruin his day
If ONLY he forgave he couldve had a much better day.
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Yes it seems hopeless like we cant ever be FREE of our sinful nature
but there is God
Here's the thing don't compare your life to the standard of GOD cuz it will seem hopeless.
Rather pray and ask God to change you and he will. Through many experiences
You will be changed. Of course you have to be willing to take that plunge to give God control and LET GO.
When you do you will see incredible changes in your life.
You won't become perfect overnight but you will as God changes you.
The secret is not to aim for perfection because that is impossible
It is not to force yourself NOT to be angry to do it of your own will.
IT is not to be complacent and to live like the world
It is to have that willing heart. To place God first and let him work in your life
If Christians were supposed to be exactly like Christ then we would be screwed
But we aren't, we are following Him the perfect person, learning how to be... PEOPLE God intended us to be
The more we follow Him the more fruit we produce.
and the closer we are to being like Christ.
The questions I ask myself often is:
I'm I producng fruit?
What fruits have I leveled up recently?
If im not gaining exp is it because im not focused on God enough?
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Cry
How we suffer.
From the fruits of our own transgressions.
We seem trapped with no hope of sanctification
cursed to be doomed forever.
Wallowing in pride, anger, hate, lust o countless sins ensnare us
Like gluttonous animals we devour to satisfy out desires.
Few and far between find the way to life.
so few so very few it seems hopeless.
So few persevere
so very few....
Humanity is doomed.
Forgive my ill thoughts.
this is what i see
little hope
We say we are SAVED but are we truly?
Have we taken to heart the commands to redemption?
TO LOVE like the Father loves?
To forgive?
To to let go?
To truly be FREE
Many do not grasp that meaning.
the true implications of FREEDOM
Go beyond mere choice and liberty.
IS this what we have come to?
Where is Salvation?
I cannot see the light because I am no better.
Yet all is not yet lost
There is hope admidst the chaos
There is God.
Faith will bring us through.
From the fruits of our own transgressions.
We seem trapped with no hope of sanctification
cursed to be doomed forever.
Wallowing in pride, anger, hate, lust o countless sins ensnare us
Like gluttonous animals we devour to satisfy out desires.
Few and far between find the way to life.
so few so very few it seems hopeless.
So few persevere
so very few....
Humanity is doomed.
Forgive my ill thoughts.
this is what i see
little hope
We say we are SAVED but are we truly?
Have we taken to heart the commands to redemption?
TO LOVE like the Father loves?
To forgive?
To to let go?
To truly be FREE
Many do not grasp that meaning.
the true implications of FREEDOM
Go beyond mere choice and liberty.
IS this what we have come to?
Where is Salvation?
I cannot see the light because I am no better.
Yet all is not yet lost
There is hope admidst the chaos
There is God.
Faith will bring us through.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Walk the Line
Verse 1:
Stand on the edge of life and death
On the border of illusion and reality
It impossible to tell whats real
Dont got much time to make the choice
PC:
And im screaming dying to know the truth
Can someone tell me, before I lose my mind
Verse 2:
Tread softly, tread lightly
Careful or you might fall off
time is ticking cicking clicking clicking
So whats it gona be? your decision.
PC
Chorus:
I can't see, i can't breath
Darkness covers me
illusions delusions
Can't come to conclusion
What a fool, a tool
a hypocrite at best
broken I stand on the line.
Bridge.
I need you
Set me free
Stand on the edge of life and death
On the border of illusion and reality
It impossible to tell whats real
Dont got much time to make the choice
PC:
And im screaming dying to know the truth
Can someone tell me, before I lose my mind
Verse 2:
Tread softly, tread lightly
Careful or you might fall off
time is ticking cicking clicking clicking
So whats it gona be? your decision.
PC
Chorus:
I can't see, i can't breath
Darkness covers me
illusions delusions
Can't come to conclusion
What a fool, a tool
a hypocrite at best
broken I stand on the line.
Bridge.
I need you
Set me free
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Done
Today it is done.
There is nothing more i can do.
There was really nothing that i could've done
i've come to the realization
that no matter what I do
it is in vain unless God is in it.
So really all i can do is follow His commands.
and let Him use me when He wills.
I can pray and I will pray and I will continue to pray.
From now on:
I choose peace and assurance over
frustration, anger, uncertainty and stress.
I choose faith and love
over doubt and hate
I choose God
over myself.
For:
Who I am?
but a fleeting existence that is quickly forgotten?
Who am I?
but a fool who can't make up his mind.
My hope is that light will triumph in the darkness
that grace and mercy will heal the broken and the lost.
My heart is in agony because of the desolation of my generation.
Father:
bring us back to life.
to love
to joy
Fill us up
May our thirsty Hearts be satisfied
by the water of life.
Use me to show your light.
This is my calling.
and:
Keep me safe. Keey me strong
For I am easily blown away
in an instant.
in a flash
Forgive me now and later and then.
You mercy abounds forever.
thank you,
Amen
There is nothing more i can do.
There was really nothing that i could've done
i've come to the realization
that no matter what I do
it is in vain unless God is in it.
So really all i can do is follow His commands.
and let Him use me when He wills.
I can pray and I will pray and I will continue to pray.
From now on:
I choose peace and assurance over
frustration, anger, uncertainty and stress.
I choose faith and love
over doubt and hate
I choose God
over myself.
For:
Who I am?
but a fleeting existence that is quickly forgotten?
Who am I?
but a fool who can't make up his mind.
My hope is that light will triumph in the darkness
that grace and mercy will heal the broken and the lost.
My heart is in agony because of the desolation of my generation.
Father:
bring us back to life.
to love
to joy
Fill us up
May our thirsty Hearts be satisfied
by the water of life.
Use me to show your light.
This is my calling.
and:
Keep me safe. Keey me strong
For I am easily blown away
in an instant.
in a flash
Forgive me now and later and then.
You mercy abounds forever.
thank you,
Amen
X-MAS
Man:
Its the most wonderful time of the year. I gave away like 20 gifts. That were all were expensive presents that people would like. Not a second thought present like a bookmark or a keychain. Its just non-stop going to parties meeting up with some old friends. I don’t want this to end. I wonder what my friends got me for Christmas? Not that it matters because I got them a way better gift. People are going to love me. I mean I just went to like 20 christmas services and I even helped out at the soup kitchen. Aren’t I such a good person? Man my life is perfect.
Its the most wonderful time of the year. I gave away like 20 gifts. That were all were expensive presents that people would like. Not a second thought present like a bookmark or a keychain. Its just non-stop going to parties meeting up with some old friends. I don’t want this to end. I wonder what my friends got me for Christmas? Not that it matters because I got them a way better gift. People are going to love me. I mean I just went to like 20 christmas services and I even helped out at the soup kitchen. Aren’t I such a good person? Man my life is perfect.
Matthew
Full stage lights, slide of a city background, street noises in the background. Homeless person in a sleeping bag centre stage begging. There is a wreath hanging by one of the chairs.
Sounds Fades and lights fade except for centre light.
Homeless man:
Christmas time, The streets are filled with twice the amount of people buying gifts, and of course I get a little extra change because of the “holiday cheer.” Around this time you get the rich ass snobs going out on the street handing trying to look good. Every year this lady drives down Queen street in a red porche filled with stacks of 20$ bills. Gets out carrying a bag of bills and makes a huge scene making sure everyone sees her. She starts handing out bills. I never take her money. One time after I said no she left it in front of my bag. I didn’t touch it. The wind blew it all the way down there. She ran after it ….. didn’t come back. They come and then leave feeling good self righteous “How important, caring good people they are doing such a great thing for the needy” Then they go back to their lives forgetting us until the next year.
Its not that I don’t want the money. I don’t want charity. Those people who just want to look good or feel like they did something worthwhile, or feel guilty cuz they haven’t done anything “good.” They aren’t sincere.
Does it really matter? I can understand if people want to do something good. But why during Christmas? Why not any other time?
After being on the streets for so long It really seems pointless to me. People go to parties exchange gifts, get wasted. The day after Christmas the same people are on the street returning the gifts they got the other day and then go on to buy something else and …of course no one gifts a crap about me anymore.
Because Christmas is over.
Why? Whats the point of Christmas? An excuse to party, to get together with family? A time for people to do good things and feel good about it? For people to “pretend” to care by giving presents. Did they create Santa Clause for another reason to be “good during the season?
I can understand why We Celebrate New years or Thanksgiving.
But for Christs sake why Christmas?
Sounds Fades and lights fade except for centre light.
Homeless man:
Christmas time, The streets are filled with twice the amount of people buying gifts, and of course I get a little extra change because of the “holiday cheer.” Around this time you get the rich ass snobs going out on the street handing trying to look good. Every year this lady drives down Queen street in a red porche filled with stacks of 20$ bills. Gets out carrying a bag of bills and makes a huge scene making sure everyone sees her. She starts handing out bills. I never take her money. One time after I said no she left it in front of my bag. I didn’t touch it. The wind blew it all the way down there. She ran after it ….. didn’t come back. They come and then leave feeling good self righteous “How important, caring good people they are doing such a great thing for the needy” Then they go back to their lives forgetting us until the next year.
Its not that I don’t want the money. I don’t want charity. Those people who just want to look good or feel like they did something worthwhile, or feel guilty cuz they haven’t done anything “good.” They aren’t sincere.
Does it really matter? I can understand if people want to do something good. But why during Christmas? Why not any other time?
After being on the streets for so long It really seems pointless to me. People go to parties exchange gifts, get wasted. The day after Christmas the same people are on the street returning the gifts they got the other day and then go on to buy something else and …of course no one gifts a crap about me anymore.
Because Christmas is over.
Why? Whats the point of Christmas? An excuse to party, to get together with family? A time for people to do good things and feel good about it? For people to “pretend” to care by giving presents. Did they create Santa Clause for another reason to be “good during the season?
I can understand why We Celebrate New years or Thanksgiving.
But for Christs sake why Christmas?
Monday, December 22, 2008
Hold On
The weather outside has been messing up my emotional levels.
I've been so busy going non-stop through the past 6 days.
Its hard to hear God
Sometimes i feel as if i drifted.
and i have?
but not really?
hmmm
i think its the next level LOL
(seriously)
I've been so busy going non-stop through the past 6 days.
Its hard to hear God
Sometimes i feel as if i drifted.
and i have?
but not really?
hmmm
i think its the next level LOL
(seriously)
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Unnatural
true peace is not attained by quenching the desires of the soul
"follow your heart"
one of the main messages in our society.
but the funny thing is:
half the time we don't even know what we want
or rather we find out that what we wanted wasn`t what we actually wanted.
it falls short of our expectations
and so our heart pursues something else.
"the heart is deceitful above all.."
-bible somewhere
true peace` is found in resisting temptation and pursuing
holiness
still we are all deceived`
"follow your heart"
one of the main messages in our society.
but the funny thing is:
half the time we don't even know what we want
or rather we find out that what we wanted wasn`t what we actually wanted.
it falls short of our expectations
and so our heart pursues something else.
"the heart is deceitful above all.."
-bible somewhere
true peace` is found in resisting temptation and pursuing
holiness
still we are all deceived`
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Vain
O if all were not vain
so very vain
our desires that bring us pain
still we roll around shamed
having no care for our name
degraded like noble creatures chained
by such simple and feinting .....
vices
o if only if only
we worked to rid ourselves
to better ourselves
instead of satisfying ourselves
To imitate Christ with all ourselves
only then would our world change
but one is always there and.....
entices
o if we stood strong
and fought to right wrongs
resisted temptation that enthrongs
our hearts soo restless and longed
for a peace that will never come to song
unless we live on God alone
and draw apart from this world
thrice
for the price of LIFE
for what is there? but Christ?
o how foolish our hearts are
how deceitful
and horrible
the truth of man's soul.
God save us all
it is for vanity that we shall fall
and vanity that we live by
so very vain
our desires that bring us pain
still we roll around shamed
having no care for our name
degraded like noble creatures chained
by such simple and feinting .....
vices
o if only if only
we worked to rid ourselves
to better ourselves
instead of satisfying ourselves
To imitate Christ with all ourselves
only then would our world change
but one is always there and.....
entices
o if we stood strong
and fought to right wrongs
resisted temptation that enthrongs
our hearts soo restless and longed
for a peace that will never come to song
unless we live on God alone
and draw apart from this world
thrice
for the price of LIFE
for what is there? but Christ?
o how foolish our hearts are
how deceitful
and horrible
the truth of man's soul.
God save us all
it is for vanity that we shall fall
and vanity that we live by
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Wisdom
Careful what you ask for.
I asked God to grsnt me wisdom
i read in the bible that Solomon was the best kings ever because he asked for wisdom from God
He was the richest, most powerful and balling guy in the world at that time.
So I prayed to God and asked for wisdom.
and he answered
and blessed me with wisdom beyond my years.
It is a gift and a curse.
Sometimes i wish that i could go back
because "ignorance is bliss"
but
would i be satisfied living a lie?
then agian i would not know that my life was an illusion
Still with my peers its like i cant relate to them anymore
like im a different wavelength a different perspective?
not that im better than them
but its like they wouldnt get it?
its like trying to explian to someone whos lived in a box their whole life that theres the WHOLE world out there
not just the box.
and all they have to do is open it
I asked God to grsnt me wisdom
i read in the bible that Solomon was the best kings ever because he asked for wisdom from God
He was the richest, most powerful and balling guy in the world at that time.
So I prayed to God and asked for wisdom.
and he answered
and blessed me with wisdom beyond my years.
It is a gift and a curse.
Sometimes i wish that i could go back
because "ignorance is bliss"
but
would i be satisfied living a lie?
then agian i would not know that my life was an illusion
Still with my peers its like i cant relate to them anymore
like im a different wavelength a different perspective?
not that im better than them
but its like they wouldnt get it?
its like trying to explian to someone whos lived in a box their whole life that theres the WHOLE world out there
not just the box.
and all they have to do is open it
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Its not over
One victory
lets celebrate
but not for too long
because there is still more work to be done
to further the kingdom
Do not let your hearts become complacent
We have one victory
but the enemy is still not defeated
so we must be alert and ready for his next attack
PRAY
Press on
its not over yet.
lets celebrate
but not for too long
because there is still more work to be done
to further the kingdom
Do not let your hearts become complacent
We have one victory
but the enemy is still not defeated
so we must be alert and ready for his next attack
PRAY
Press on
its not over yet.
Monday, December 8, 2008
Stand
"All fall down" NOT!
We will not fall
United we stand
Though you use our differences to tear us apart
Though you try to use our sin, our pride to strike us down
We stand. because we are united in Christ!
Though we have differences it does not matter God created us unique for a specific purpose
Though temptation is near. The power of Christ will conquer all fear.
We will win this battle for the Glory of our God,
You can't bring us down
Right now i lay my sins
my pride
my self-righteousness
forgive me Father
forgive me those i have wronged
let us fight dear brothers and sisters and pray ernestly continually. the battle is but days away .
Do NOT LOSE HEART
and be aware of the devil's tactics
stay strong
and be united as the body
to further His Kingdom
deliver us from the Evil one
Pour you power upon us
Set our hearts ablaze
In the name of Christ
Amen
We will not fall
United we stand
Though you use our differences to tear us apart
Though you try to use our sin, our pride to strike us down
We stand. because we are united in Christ!
Though we have differences it does not matter God created us unique for a specific purpose
Though temptation is near. The power of Christ will conquer all fear.
We will win this battle for the Glory of our God,
You can't bring us down
Right now i lay my sins
my pride
my self-righteousness
forgive me Father
forgive me those i have wronged
let us fight dear brothers and sisters and pray ernestly continually. the battle is but days away .
Do NOT LOSE HEART
and be aware of the devil's tactics
stay strong
and be united as the body
to further His Kingdom
deliver us from the Evil one
Pour you power upon us
Set our hearts ablaze
In the name of Christ
Amen
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Focus
It starts slowly.
One thing then more and more and more; until your so far away
you can't find your way way back.
and then....begins the process of getting back, going back.
Sometimes when your so far away you don't want to go home.
When your so far, no ones there to support you and your left ..all alone.
Still you refuse to go back. Why?
Even when your home, there is always the lie: "outside is....better go outside go go go" constantly pounding in your heart. STOP NO its a LIE
We are all deceived.
Its easy to lose focus.
The longer your out the harder it is to get back.
Its SO easy to lose sight of truth.
"The truth will set you free"
So chained, you don't even know, you don't even FEEL chained,trapped
God help us all.
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Fantasy Reality
Isn't it idoltary? still.
Wouldn't it be nice to live a lie.
Still a part of me
Knows it should not be
Yet the other part is dying for the lie.
Why can't dreams come true?
One thing then more and more and more; until your so far away
you can't find your way way back.
and then....begins the process of getting back, going back.
Sometimes when your so far away you don't want to go home.
When your so far, no ones there to support you and your left ..all alone.
Still you refuse to go back. Why?
Even when your home, there is always the lie: "outside is....better go outside go go go" constantly pounding in your heart. STOP NO its a LIE
We are all deceived.
Its easy to lose focus.
The longer your out the harder it is to get back.
Its SO easy to lose sight of truth.
"The truth will set you free"
So chained, you don't even know, you don't even FEEL chained,trapped
God help us all.
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Fantasy Reality
Isn't it idoltary? still.
Wouldn't it be nice to live a lie.
Still a part of me
Knows it should not be
Yet the other part is dying for the lie.
Why can't dreams come true?
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Its going to be ok
Sometimes you need to trust.
You need to stop thinking:
"What else can I do?"
"Why isn't it getting better?"
"How is going to end?"
"What if this happens or that happens?"
"When will it stop?"
When you have done all you can
or even when you have not done all you can.
Past two Sunday Sermons= learned a lot
Intrusion: God has intruded so many times in my life and he just keeps on going
but its the BEST thing that has ever happened to me.
because for once in my life I feel ALIVE
Assurance: Many times the assurance is there but I didn't see it
But now after looking back I am able to see the assurances that God has given to me
in the past. So this time around I'm able to be assured. Its like my eyes can see a bit
more than before.
Greater things are coming. Greater things are just around the corner. I can feel it. I can see the assurance of it.
I feel that God is saying:
"The miracles you have seen are JUST THE BEGINNING. I will pour out my power and glory in this church 10 times over and you will see that I am truly God you of little faith."
The time is coming
When? I dunno
but I do know it will be right on time
because God's time is the best time.
You need to stop thinking:
"What else can I do?"
"Why isn't it getting better?"
"How is going to end?"
"What if this happens or that happens?"
"When will it stop?"
When you have done all you can
or even when you have not done all you can.
Past two Sunday Sermons= learned a lot
Intrusion: God has intruded so many times in my life and he just keeps on going
but its the BEST thing that has ever happened to me.
because for once in my life I feel ALIVE
Assurance: Many times the assurance is there but I didn't see it
But now after looking back I am able to see the assurances that God has given to me
in the past. So this time around I'm able to be assured. Its like my eyes can see a bit
more than before.
Greater things are coming. Greater things are just around the corner. I can feel it. I can see the assurance of it.
I feel that God is saying:
"The miracles you have seen are JUST THE BEGINNING. I will pour out my power and glory in this church 10 times over and you will see that I am truly God you of little faith."
The time is coming
When? I dunno
but I do know it will be right on time
because God's time is the best time.
Monday, November 24, 2008
Cut Away
One of the biggest chains are beginning to be cut off.
Mercilessly filed down; link by link.
IT HURTS like You don't want to feel this
because after all it is melded in as part of me.
Little by little as it is being hacked way
Little by little I can move a bit more
I thought I was free..but that was just an illusion
Because now that half of the chain is gone... I can MOVE SO much more
The other half.... is still to come
The first half well I think that was the easier part....
Now comes the hard part.
I can't go back now
Lets do this God
Mercilessly filed down; link by link.
IT HURTS like You don't want to feel this
because after all it is melded in as part of me.
Little by little as it is being hacked way
Little by little I can move a bit more
I thought I was free..but that was just an illusion
Because now that half of the chain is gone... I can MOVE SO much more
The other half.... is still to come
The first half well I think that was the easier part....
Now comes the hard part.
I can't go back now
Lets do this God
2 Corinthians 6: 3-133
We put no stumbling block in anyone's path, so that our ministry will not be discredited. 4Rather, as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way: in great endurance; in troubles, hardships and distresses; 5in beatings, imprisonments and riots; in hard work, sleepless nights and hunger; 6in purity, understanding, patience and kindness; in the Holy Spirit and in sincere love; 7in truthful speech and in the power of God; with weapons of righteousness in the right hand and in the left; 8through glory and dishonor, bad report and good report; genuine, yet regarded as impostors; 9known, yet regarded as unknown; dying, and yet we live on; beaten, and yet not killed; 10sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; poor, yet making many rich; having nothing, and yet possessing everything.
11We have spoken freely to you, Corinthians, and opened wide our hearts to you. 12We are not withholding our affection from you, but you are withholding yours from us. 13As a fair exchange—I speak as to my children—open wide your hearts also.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Reconnect To Reality (TC theme)
Reconnect to reality
When I think of this I definitely have " Christians" in mind. Those people who just don't get it. Who don't see the reality of what KNOWING God is about.
Today I was hanging out with some of my peers after service and they were complaining about how they didn't want to go to Sunday School because its so boring. They were saying things like "I already sat through a service blah blah I don't want to listen to another boring lecture from the pastor." So I said to them "don't go if you don't want to, its not like people are forcing you to go"
I heard one person say "Yea w/e we can just sit in the back and talk anyways"
Eventually the group of 5 people went but they came in like 30 minutes late. They went cuz they FELT GUILTY WTF is that? They went because they didn't want the pastor to TELL THEIR parents. THEY went because they didn't want the PASTOR to be mad at them! AND the whole time I'm thinking YOU DONT GET IT DO YOU? Its not about what people think or your parents its ABOUT GOD. GOD DONT WANT YOU GOING CU YOU FEEL GUILTY. HE WANTS YOU TO GO BECAUSE YOU LOVE HIM AND YOU WANT TO BE WITH HIM
Isn't that soo messed? Like seriously you don't go to church because you feel its like an obligation you go to church because you WANT TO LEARN AND MEET with God. You go to meet with other believers to encourage and pray for one another. I got soo pissed off cuz the whack thing is .....half of those people were leaders of our fellowship.
So i ask the question: Do these people really KNOW the reality of KNOWING GOD? Because if they did they would't have such a **** attitude because GOD IS SOOO AMAZING..... and if they do....then yooo those kids are WHACKED up. Thats the reality of this theme
THE REALITY of KNOWING GOD.
not just REconnecting cuz you can't reconnect when you haven't been connected
In Christ
Evangel
When I think of this I definitely have " Christians" in mind. Those people who just don't get it. Who don't see the reality of what KNOWING God is about.
Today I was hanging out with some of my peers after service and they were complaining about how they didn't want to go to Sunday School because its so boring. They were saying things like "I already sat through a service blah blah I don't want to listen to another boring lecture from the pastor." So I said to them "don't go if you don't want to, its not like people are forcing you to go"
I heard one person say "Yea w/e we can just sit in the back and talk anyways"
Eventually the group of 5 people went but they came in like 30 minutes late. They went cuz they FELT GUILTY WTF is that? They went because they didn't want the pastor to TELL THEIR parents. THEY went because they didn't want the PASTOR to be mad at them! AND the whole time I'm thinking YOU DONT GET IT DO YOU? Its not about what people think or your parents its ABOUT GOD. GOD DONT WANT YOU GOING CU YOU FEEL GUILTY. HE WANTS YOU TO GO BECAUSE YOU LOVE HIM AND YOU WANT TO BE WITH HIM
Isn't that soo messed? Like seriously you don't go to church because you feel its like an obligation you go to church because you WANT TO LEARN AND MEET with God. You go to meet with other believers to encourage and pray for one another. I got soo pissed off cuz the whack thing is .....half of those people were leaders of our fellowship.
So i ask the question: Do these people really KNOW the reality of KNOWING GOD? Because if they did they would't have such a **** attitude because GOD IS SOOO AMAZING..... and if they do....then yooo those kids are WHACKED up. Thats the reality of this theme
THE REALITY of KNOWING GOD.
not just REconnecting cuz you can't reconnect when you haven't been connected
In Christ
Evangel
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Pain
Let it rain
Let it pour down
and wash away my sadness
drench me and take it away.
and when the sun shines again
I will be clean and beautiful
The light will glisten against my soaked body
and I will glow.
In the warmth I will find rest
In the warmth I will dry and the days of wetness will be but a distant memory
Let it pour down
and wash away my sadness
drench me and take it away.
and when the sun shines again
I will be clean and beautiful
The light will glisten against my soaked body
and I will glow.
In the warmth I will find rest
In the warmth I will dry and the days of wetness will be but a distant memory
Friday, November 21, 2008
EFW
I did not think cuz I always thought that this was the way it was gonna be.
Still a part of me hoped that maybe.
I guess I didn't realize until it was too late
But really would I have done anything different?
NO
Because I know that there are greater things; I made my choice
Right now it hurts after all I am only human I have feelings too.
So many times I debated and questioned myself is it REAL?
And now I know the answer: IT IS REAL.
I think I understand just a little of how God feels.
and i know that he is GOOD
but it hurts
Two parts of myself.
One screams YES LORD
the other screams in AGONY
yet another is waiting patiently
and the other is questioning why this is happening.
TRUST and FAITH are put to the test.
I really care about you and so I leave you in God's hands
because he knows better.
I also leave myself in God's hands because really I have nothing if I don't keep going.
If I give up.....but no I won't
Even though I am weak He gives me strength to Love.
I SCREAM in PAIN
YET I am at peace.
Still a part of me hoped that maybe.
I guess I didn't realize until it was too late
But really would I have done anything different?
NO
Because I know that there are greater things; I made my choice
Right now it hurts after all I am only human I have feelings too.
So many times I debated and questioned myself is it REAL?
And now I know the answer: IT IS REAL.
I think I understand just a little of how God feels.
and i know that he is GOOD
but it hurts
Two parts of myself.
One screams YES LORD
the other screams in AGONY
yet another is waiting patiently
and the other is questioning why this is happening.
TRUST and FAITH are put to the test.
I really care about you and so I leave you in God's hands
because he knows better.
I also leave myself in God's hands because really I have nothing if I don't keep going.
If I give up.....but no I won't
Even though I am weak He gives me strength to Love.
I SCREAM in PAIN
YET I am at peace.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Nowhere but Everywhere
Sometimes it seems like God has no place is some parts of life.
Its hard to see how God is part of those things. Its hard to follow intangible commands.
Love your neighbor
but really HOW can we love
how do we love?
Little acts of kindness?
What makes God's love sooo much more than humanistic love?
Really there's a fine line?
or is there?
Sometimes people can be caring and understanding
and other times soo cruel.
Today was piano solo day................ and I didn't really do too well on mine.
I was really upset and sad. It seems like something so stupid to be sad over but I am human.
I guess I practiced so hard and my performance fell short of my expectations. I am quite the perfectionist when it comes to art that matters to me.
I don't know what happened i was just really emo and yea it sort of made me mad that I couldn't help being sad acting sad. ( I didn't want to look weak)
But one thing that stuck out to me was the way my friends really showed that they cared for me. They clearly knew I was upset and they actually tried to and managed to make me feel better.
The weird thing is it never occurred that they cared about how I felt 0.o
(damn i sound like a girl)
At the same time my friends are also the people who sit around and make fun of this one kid in my piano class. They say some really nasty things. Things that make me sad LOL.
I think in my mind I sort of create a false image of what people who don't know God are like.
I always think of ME giving giving giving God's Love. I forget that in essence humans were created to love. Its something that is supposed to be natural. I mean we're always looking to find our "true love" "soul mate" We want to start a family so we can love and share our love. We hear expressions like having a kid is the greatest joy in life and then we hear the parents complaining about the whining kid. But even through that there is this JOY in loving a child.
I was watching gossip girl and I think it was really able to portray what the love of family SHOULD be like.
So we do have this knowledge, expectation of what love is. Yet so many of us fall short of that ideal.
As I was thinking about the question of "Where is God in all of this?"
I sort of realized: God is in all creation. God shows himself through the wonders of the world. We take for granted the smallest things which actually are soo complicated it just blows me away. PEOPLE were created in the IMAGE of GOD.
I'm not saying that we are God but we can see a little but of God through us.
BUT the problem is SIN.
SIN is what taints who were created to be its what clouds the "Godliness in us"
Its what covers up what God wanted us to see.
Something that was once soo simple to see is now covered in dirt. It becomes hard to make out what it originally was.
Like painting covered in dirt.
The more we sin the more we get covered in dirt. The harder it is to see good things. The things God had in store for us.
In the world today we can see soo many GOOD things and we can see soo many BAD things.
Some of the things the artist had in mind can still be seen CLEARLY
some of those things are a little clouded.
Some of those things are covered in black altogether.
Let me use LOVE as an example:
Love exists but some of the love is twisted in ways that well make it a little disturbing
Unrequited Love (Love is supposed to go both ways but sometimes.... well its sad)
Conditional Love (I'll only love you as long as......) of course we say we love them forever but please the amount of couples who actually last 10 years like less and less
Animal love (you know what i mean not like having a pet but like those people who marry animals and have sex with them)
Gay Love ( a hard issue to explain in this blog maybe i will later or i could do another blog on it)
Love that was once good turned bad
Fathers rapping their daughter while the mother does nothing (saw it on House)
Children stealing for their parents
Parents loving one child more than the other (happens a lot it really does screw up a kids self image)
Kids killing their parents
HATE is love but messed up to the worst level
because really you can't hate if you haven't loved because you simply wouldn't care about a person enough to hate them if you haven't love. (i stole it from Rachel Hon what a smart girl)
I can go on all day. not just with love but with other things like The environment, Music, sports, Fear, science, EVERYTHING
But hopefully you get the point of
God is EVERYWHERE
but SIN is what clouds Him from being seen.....
SIN= UNNATURAL, messes up life.
as Christians we are the ones who show "The light"
The way it supposed to be.
LOVE in the way that God wanted
and the idea is that people will sorta of see that the way its supposed to be is really the way they want it to be because its whats supposed to be natural.
Its hard to see how God is part of those things. Its hard to follow intangible commands.
Love your neighbor
but really HOW can we love
how do we love?
Little acts of kindness?
What makes God's love sooo much more than humanistic love?
Really there's a fine line?
or is there?
Sometimes people can be caring and understanding
and other times soo cruel.
Today was piano solo day................ and I didn't really do too well on mine.
I was really upset and sad. It seems like something so stupid to be sad over but I am human.
I guess I practiced so hard and my performance fell short of my expectations. I am quite the perfectionist when it comes to art that matters to me.
I don't know what happened i was just really emo and yea it sort of made me mad that I couldn't help being sad acting sad. ( I didn't want to look weak)
But one thing that stuck out to me was the way my friends really showed that they cared for me. They clearly knew I was upset and they actually tried to and managed to make me feel better.
The weird thing is it never occurred that they cared about how I felt 0.o
(damn i sound like a girl)
At the same time my friends are also the people who sit around and make fun of this one kid in my piano class. They say some really nasty things. Things that make me sad LOL.
I think in my mind I sort of create a false image of what people who don't know God are like.
I always think of ME giving giving giving God's Love. I forget that in essence humans were created to love. Its something that is supposed to be natural. I mean we're always looking to find our "true love" "soul mate" We want to start a family so we can love and share our love. We hear expressions like having a kid is the greatest joy in life and then we hear the parents complaining about the whining kid. But even through that there is this JOY in loving a child.
I was watching gossip girl and I think it was really able to portray what the love of family SHOULD be like.
So we do have this knowledge, expectation of what love is. Yet so many of us fall short of that ideal.
As I was thinking about the question of "Where is God in all of this?"
I sort of realized: God is in all creation. God shows himself through the wonders of the world. We take for granted the smallest things which actually are soo complicated it just blows me away. PEOPLE were created in the IMAGE of GOD.
I'm not saying that we are God but we can see a little but of God through us.
BUT the problem is SIN.
SIN is what taints who were created to be its what clouds the "Godliness in us"
Its what covers up what God wanted us to see.
Something that was once soo simple to see is now covered in dirt. It becomes hard to make out what it originally was.
Like painting covered in dirt.
The more we sin the more we get covered in dirt. The harder it is to see good things. The things God had in store for us.
In the world today we can see soo many GOOD things and we can see soo many BAD things.
Some of the things the artist had in mind can still be seen CLEARLY
some of those things are a little clouded.
Some of those things are covered in black altogether.
Let me use LOVE as an example:
Love exists but some of the love is twisted in ways that well make it a little disturbing
Unrequited Love (Love is supposed to go both ways but sometimes.... well its sad)
Conditional Love (I'll only love you as long as......) of course we say we love them forever but please the amount of couples who actually last 10 years like less and less
Animal love (you know what i mean not like having a pet but like those people who marry animals and have sex with them)
Gay Love ( a hard issue to explain in this blog maybe i will later or i could do another blog on it)
Love that was once good turned bad
Fathers rapping their daughter while the mother does nothing (saw it on House)
Children stealing for their parents
Parents loving one child more than the other (happens a lot it really does screw up a kids self image)
Kids killing their parents
HATE is love but messed up to the worst level
because really you can't hate if you haven't loved because you simply wouldn't care about a person enough to hate them if you haven't love. (i stole it from Rachel Hon what a smart girl)
I can go on all day. not just with love but with other things like The environment, Music, sports, Fear, science, EVERYTHING
But hopefully you get the point of
God is EVERYWHERE
but SIN is what clouds Him from being seen.....
SIN= UNNATURAL, messes up life.
as Christians we are the ones who show "The light"
The way it supposed to be.
LOVE in the way that God wanted
and the idea is that people will sorta of see that the way its supposed to be is really the way they want it to be because its whats supposed to be natural.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Obsession
Hours tick by and still I'm here
thinking of this one thing that I fear
longing comes while unaware
again I'm stuck in a cycle of despair
Freedom is something I should have attained
but seems that I'm actually chained to this one thing
though not a sin; an unhealthily obsession to my life
Life not mine, I should shine but still in line ....obsessed
Cut the chain, no more pain. May you reign .... a test?
Still holding Im eroding my life its folding I .... confessed
STOP its driving my insane, this is NOT a GAME
Consumed by these thoughts
I know : This a part of me
Its ugly
but its the truth
not a twisted reality
thinking of this one thing that I fear
longing comes while unaware
again I'm stuck in a cycle of despair
Freedom is something I should have attained
but seems that I'm actually chained to this one thing
though not a sin; an unhealthily obsession to my life
Life not mine, I should shine but still in line ....obsessed
Cut the chain, no more pain. May you reign .... a test?
Still holding Im eroding my life its folding I .... confessed
STOP its driving my insane, this is NOT a GAME
Consumed by these thoughts
I know : This a part of me
Its ugly
but its the truth
not a twisted reality
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Fire
Hebrew 12:28-30
28Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe, 29for our "God is a consuming fire."
Consuming Fire
it only takes a small spark to get a fire started
once that fire has taken place and starts burning it produces LIGHT and WARMTH
I believe that the spark has already started to take hold.
Yet there are soo many things that can put it out.
Let the fire spread
May this generation be the one where miracles are seen
Where lives are changed
People see and hear
and understand
but sometimes I gotta ask
Where is the fire that once burned soo brightly?
fire can't burn without something TO burn.
it needs fuel, a medium
WE Christians are the medium that God chooses to use
If there are so many of us then why isn't this WHOLE WORLD consumed in God?
Why isn't the fire catching on?
Is it because we're wet?
that is the only explanation
too drenched in sin
drenched in selfishness
soaked in fame
soaked in pleasure
Imagine if we could just get a small fire going?
If we could dry ourselves?
What amazing things could happen? can happen?
Will happen?
I see a Church that is burning so brightly it attracts people like bugs to a bond fire.
A church that prays, that shares, that burns everything it touches.
wouldn't that be AMAZING?
"Set our hearts on fire"
28Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe, 29for our "God is a consuming fire."
Consuming Fire
it only takes a small spark to get a fire started
once that fire has taken place and starts burning it produces LIGHT and WARMTH
I believe that the spark has already started to take hold.
Yet there are soo many things that can put it out.
Let the fire spread
May this generation be the one where miracles are seen
Where lives are changed
People see and hear
and understand
but sometimes I gotta ask
Where is the fire that once burned soo brightly?
fire can't burn without something TO burn.
it needs fuel, a medium
WE Christians are the medium that God chooses to use
If there are so many of us then why isn't this WHOLE WORLD consumed in God?
Why isn't the fire catching on?
Is it because we're wet?
that is the only explanation
too drenched in sin
drenched in selfishness
soaked in fame
soaked in pleasure
Imagine if we could just get a small fire going?
If we could dry ourselves?
What amazing things could happen? can happen?
Will happen?
I see a Church that is burning so brightly it attracts people like bugs to a bond fire.
A church that prays, that shares, that burns everything it touches.
wouldn't that be AMAZING?
"Set our hearts on fire"
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Tried
Today was a struggle.
I'm so used to God just making everything easy?
All I have to do and trust and He makes amazing things happen.
I knew that it wasn't always gonna be that easy
I was hoping that it would last a little longer.
but its seems that I am once again being pushed to change to grow.
When I talk about God so many times it just flows out of me like a waterfall
and I can feel God speaking through me.
Today as I was sharing, every word was a struggle to get out. Maybe it's because I didn't prayer enough or prepare better. But I don't think that was it because I did pray. I sorta felt this was coming. God was saying...."ok...its time to take off the training wheels"
Even though there were awkward silences and times when it seemed like people didn't get it. I still held on to to promise that God was there and that he was in control. When we started to get into groups I didn't know what to expect. I felt like I had failed, yet I still had faith that God is good. We started to share first about small things and as we were sharing this girl in my group really opened up and started to cry and talk about her struggles and pains. In that moment I knew that this was part of God's plan. I didn't know what to do so I just prayed for that girl. It wasn't a deeply moving or spiritual prayer. It was a clumsy stuttery prayer. Through this girl I was shown how God loves everyone.......and how I have just been treating people as objects more than anything. I saw that every person is loved by someone and most importantly God.
Sometimes God doesn't work in ways you expect he humbles you but his work is still done.
I always knew that. I am still believing that God is in control.
I know that harder things are coming.
I just pray that I can overcome these obstacles
I'm so used to God just making everything easy?
All I have to do and trust and He makes amazing things happen.
I knew that it wasn't always gonna be that easy
I was hoping that it would last a little longer.
but its seems that I am once again being pushed to change to grow.
When I talk about God so many times it just flows out of me like a waterfall
and I can feel God speaking through me.
Today as I was sharing, every word was a struggle to get out. Maybe it's because I didn't prayer enough or prepare better. But I don't think that was it because I did pray. I sorta felt this was coming. God was saying...."ok...its time to take off the training wheels"
Even though there were awkward silences and times when it seemed like people didn't get it. I still held on to to promise that God was there and that he was in control. When we started to get into groups I didn't know what to expect. I felt like I had failed, yet I still had faith that God is good. We started to share first about small things and as we were sharing this girl in my group really opened up and started to cry and talk about her struggles and pains. In that moment I knew that this was part of God's plan. I didn't know what to do so I just prayed for that girl. It wasn't a deeply moving or spiritual prayer. It was a clumsy stuttery prayer. Through this girl I was shown how God loves everyone.......and how I have just been treating people as objects more than anything. I saw that every person is loved by someone and most importantly God.
Sometimes God doesn't work in ways you expect he humbles you but his work is still done.
I always knew that. I am still believing that God is in control.
I know that harder things are coming.
I just pray that I can overcome these obstacles
Faith
Who can have faith?
Really truly believe
What is faith?
"believing in that which we cannot see, certain of what we hope for"
Sometimes with faith alone amazing things can happen.
Faith has a power that surpasses all reason and logic
Some say faith is foolish why trust in something that you cannot see?
but I say why put your trust in something that will not last. That is uncertain?
because when you have faith you are 100% certain that it is true; that it will happen.
of course this raises the question of if what you put your faith in is real.
We all put our faith in something/someone.
Whether it be ourselves, others, money, power, pleasure, relationships, God, humanity, logic, knowledge
it is a fact of life
We believe that these things will bring us meaning, purpose, happiness, fulfillment
but as we grow older and learn, gradually we see that in somethings our faith was placed wrongly.
As we see the mistakes we have made we move on and find something else to put our faith in.
It repeats until we find THE TRUTH.
Soon faith becomes reality or illusion
and it is no longer faith but truth
of course there can only be one truth.
Still faith is needed because not all is revealed only some
Really truly believe
What is faith?
"believing in that which we cannot see, certain of what we hope for"
Sometimes with faith alone amazing things can happen.
Faith has a power that surpasses all reason and logic
Some say faith is foolish why trust in something that you cannot see?
but I say why put your trust in something that will not last. That is uncertain?
because when you have faith you are 100% certain that it is true; that it will happen.
of course this raises the question of if what you put your faith in is real.
We all put our faith in something/someone.
Whether it be ourselves, others, money, power, pleasure, relationships, God, humanity, logic, knowledge
it is a fact of life
We believe that these things will bring us meaning, purpose, happiness, fulfillment
but as we grow older and learn, gradually we see that in somethings our faith was placed wrongly.
As we see the mistakes we have made we move on and find something else to put our faith in.
It repeats until we find THE TRUTH.
Soon faith becomes reality or illusion
and it is no longer faith but truth
of course there can only be one truth.
Still faith is needed because not all is revealed only some
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Learning to Love
A lot of people look up to you they see you as role model to be followed.
In some respects they are right.
So full of energy you are able to make friends easily. You bring life and colour to an otherwise boring conversation. People see you as a confident, unselfish, caring person.
You are able to pull people in with your charisma, to make them feel special and loved. A gift many dream of having. Your peers respect you. They value your opinions and advice you have to offer.
They hear you speak of God of how amazing he is and they see the JOY that is seen in your life as you talk and socialize with them.........
Don't abuse your gifts.
"He who is given much, much will also be demanded"
But they don't see what I see.
Sometimes I see .....things that are not so good
Instead of a person full of confidence
I see a cunning actor wearing a caring mask
Instead of one full of insight i see
a spoiled kid to sheltered from the real world to be able to empathize with the lost
At times you can be very selfish
At times brutally ....cold hearted
At times very... immature
At times clueless on how to handle your relationships
but who I'm I to judge?
we all have our dark moments. our flaws...
Yet I am finding it hard to put up with you.
I sorta wanna just be angry because really you are not being fair
You are being very stupid....grow up.
Be real
Love is NOT an easy thing to do....
Many times we get distorted images of what love is.
Love is not a "feeling"
it doesn't just happen
it takes time to develop
Love is (or part of it is) caring for someone unconditionally.
not easy to do
Love is best portrayed in Christ
HE loved and he tells us tells ME to love
so I am learning to love
not only you
but everyone else in my life
big and small
Today I was reminded again how much love is needed in this world.
I was reminded that there are so many people out there who need love.
People who are hurting, in pain but hiding.
and I am reminded that God loves all of these people.
it blows me away.....
SO even though I feel like everything but showing love
I can love because God loves his love lover overflows into my life.
This is proof that God exists.
I am learning to love.......
1 Corinthians 13
In some respects they are right.
So full of energy you are able to make friends easily. You bring life and colour to an otherwise boring conversation. People see you as a confident, unselfish, caring person.
You are able to pull people in with your charisma, to make them feel special and loved. A gift many dream of having. Your peers respect you. They value your opinions and advice you have to offer.
They hear you speak of God of how amazing he is and they see the JOY that is seen in your life as you talk and socialize with them.........
Don't abuse your gifts.
"He who is given much, much will also be demanded"
But they don't see what I see.
Sometimes I see .....things that are not so good
Instead of a person full of confidence
I see a cunning actor wearing a caring mask
Instead of one full of insight i see
a spoiled kid to sheltered from the real world to be able to empathize with the lost
At times you can be very selfish
At times brutally ....cold hearted
At times very... immature
At times clueless on how to handle your relationships
but who I'm I to judge?
we all have our dark moments. our flaws...
Yet I am finding it hard to put up with you.
I sorta wanna just be angry because really you are not being fair
You are being very stupid....grow up.
Be real
Love is NOT an easy thing to do....
Many times we get distorted images of what love is.
Love is not a "feeling"
it doesn't just happen
it takes time to develop
Love is (or part of it is) caring for someone unconditionally.
not easy to do
Love is best portrayed in Christ
HE loved and he tells us tells ME to love
so I am learning to love
not only you
but everyone else in my life
big and small
Today I was reminded again how much love is needed in this world.
I was reminded that there are so many people out there who need love.
People who are hurting, in pain but hiding.
and I am reminded that God loves all of these people.
it blows me away.....
SO even though I feel like everything but showing love
I can love because God loves his love lover overflows into my life.
This is proof that God exists.
I am learning to love.......
1 Corinthians 13
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Pray
Pray when times are good, when times are bad
pray when you don't feel like praying
pray when you want to pray
pray continuously unceasingly
pray when things don't seem to be happening
pray when things are happening
Pray when God can be seen
Pray when he can't be seen
In all circumstances pray
Pray for those:
Who can't pray for themselves
for those who don't know how to pray
for those to weak to pray...
pray for those who are hurting
pray for those who are sad
pray for those who are rich
pray those who are poor
Pray for the happy
Pray for the broken
Pray for whats on your heart.
Pray for who's on your heart, your mind
you PRAISE, you cry out
Pray with faith
with expectation
with belief that God is GOOD that he is in control
pray with all your being
Pray with anger
Pray with sadness
Pray as you are....
come as you are
Only through prayer can lives be changed
Only through prayer can miracles happen
Only in God is the impossible possible.
Pray knowing that you are being heard that you are loved and forgiven
Pray with respect and reverence
Pray with thankfulness and awe
Pray knowing it is a privilege
When its hardest to pray; pray the hardest
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
16Be joyful always; 17pray continually; 18give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.
pray when you don't feel like praying
pray when you want to pray
pray continuously unceasingly
pray when things don't seem to be happening
pray when things are happening
Pray when God can be seen
Pray when he can't be seen
In all circumstances pray
Pray for those:
Who can't pray for themselves
for those who don't know how to pray
for those to weak to pray...
pray for those who are hurting
pray for those who are sad
pray for those who are rich
pray those who are poor
Pray for the happy
Pray for the broken
Pray for whats on your heart.
Pray for who's on your heart, your mind
you PRAISE, you cry out
Pray with faith
with expectation
with belief that God is GOOD that he is in control
pray with all your being
Pray with anger
Pray with sadness
Pray as you are....
come as you are
Only through prayer can lives be changed
Only through prayer can miracles happen
Only in God is the impossible possible.
Pray knowing that you are being heard that you are loved and forgiven
Pray with respect and reverence
Pray with thankfulness and awe
Pray knowing it is a privilege
When its hardest to pray; pray the hardest
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
16Be joyful always; 17pray continually; 18give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Nothing
humble me
I am easily filled with pride.
You have created us equal and yet sometimes I think I'm better than other people
I forget that it was only by grace that I was saved and only through you that I am what I am
The gifts you have given me are AMAZING
and I thank-you for them I would not want to be anything else than who I am.
somtimes i take too much credit for what you have blessed me with.
I can't stop judging every person I come in contact with
I seem to be able to make an endless list of flaws in each person
and also an endless list of good things
but sometimes its hard for me to look at them as just people that You Love.
"This person has this problem"
"This person need to ...."
let me see me as I am.....nothing
reveal to me once again my weaknesses
expose me for who I really am
so that I can be useful to you
so that I can love as you LOVE
I am easily filled with pride.
You have created us equal and yet sometimes I think I'm better than other people
I forget that it was only by grace that I was saved and only through you that I am what I am
The gifts you have given me are AMAZING
and I thank-you for them I would not want to be anything else than who I am.
somtimes i take too much credit for what you have blessed me with.
I can't stop judging every person I come in contact with
I seem to be able to make an endless list of flaws in each person
and also an endless list of good things
but sometimes its hard for me to look at them as just people that You Love.
"This person has this problem"
"This person need to ...."
let me see me as I am.....nothing
reveal to me once again my weaknesses
expose me for who I really am
so that I can be useful to you
so that I can love as you LOVE
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Chosen
Keep me safe
its hard to follow the right path when they all look so similar
its hard to discern whats safe, whats dangerous
Sometimes you don't know fire is dangerous until it burns you....
The whole world seems to be against me
Even I am against me.
Theres something wrong with you if you don't drink
Theres something wrong with you if you don't gamble
Theres something wrong with you if you don't bend the rules a little.
Theres something wrong with you if you feel guilty about doing any of the above.
Sometimes I wonder if really just bending the rules a little bit would hurt.
Everybody else is doing it. They seem to be having fun.....
Whats the point in living such a "pure" life and not enjoying it?
Hard questions to ask. Hard to find answers.
Leviticus 20:26
You are to be holy to me because I, the LORD, am holy, and I have set you apart from the nations to be my own.
Satisfaction.
It's not that I don't want to, It's not that it doesn't feel good.
Its just that I've seen something MORE
I've seen a life thats not bound to .....
A life thats not bound to unspoken rules
A life thats ......FREE
A life that has SOMETHING that I can't explain but it seems amazing!
Its the thing that I know that I've been missing and that I desperately cry out for.
Do you get what I'm saying? Maybe you don't. Maybe you get it a little
Maybe what I'm saying just seems completely insane to you.
its also the fact that it doesn't last. Its temporary. It isn't the answer, its a mask
an aspirin, but the question is still there.
ALONE it comes back QUICKLY tune it out listen to music, watch T.V.| DON'T think abut IT|
Why are we so afraid of it? Why are we scared of silence?
look deep, deeper.... let go
Its like this:
I found something better.
and well its almost impossible for me to show you because what I've found is invisible.
Its indescribable but if i tried to explain it to you, you would thing I'm crazy
I really just want you to SEE it but I can't do that.....
What I can do is show you how this "thing" has changed my life.
Changed it soo much that I don't want to live like everyone else.
Its like I don't really belong anymore.
its not a bad thing
Its the best thing thats ever happened to me
2 Corinthians 5:20
We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ's behalf: Be reconciled to God.
its hard to follow the right path when they all look so similar
its hard to discern whats safe, whats dangerous
Sometimes you don't know fire is dangerous until it burns you....
The whole world seems to be against me
Even I am against me.
Theres something wrong with you if you don't drink
Theres something wrong with you if you don't gamble
Theres something wrong with you if you don't bend the rules a little.
Theres something wrong with you if you feel guilty about doing any of the above.
Sometimes I wonder if really just bending the rules a little bit would hurt.
Everybody else is doing it. They seem to be having fun.....
Whats the point in living such a "pure" life and not enjoying it?
Hard questions to ask. Hard to find answers.
Leviticus 20:26
You are to be holy to me because I, the LORD, am holy, and I have set you apart from the nations to be my own.
Satisfaction.
It's not that I don't want to, It's not that it doesn't feel good.
Its just that I've seen something MORE
I've seen a life thats not bound to .....
A life thats not bound to unspoken rules
A life thats ......FREE
A life that has SOMETHING that I can't explain but it seems amazing!
Its the thing that I know that I've been missing and that I desperately cry out for.
Do you get what I'm saying? Maybe you don't. Maybe you get it a little
Maybe what I'm saying just seems completely insane to you.
its also the fact that it doesn't last. Its temporary. It isn't the answer, its a mask
an aspirin, but the question is still there.
ALONE it comes back QUICKLY tune it out listen to music, watch T.V.| DON'T think abut IT|
Why are we so afraid of it? Why are we scared of silence?
look deep, deeper.... let go
Its like this:
I found something better.
and well its almost impossible for me to show you because what I've found is invisible.
Its indescribable but if i tried to explain it to you, you would thing I'm crazy
I really just want you to SEE it but I can't do that.....
What I can do is show you how this "thing" has changed my life.
Changed it soo much that I don't want to live like everyone else.
Its like I don't really belong anymore.
its not a bad thing
Its the best thing thats ever happened to me
2 Corinthians 5:20
We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ's behalf: Be reconciled to God.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Time
The ever growing... growING, GROWING
change beautiful
fluid;not static
every moment different
enjoy these times
happy, sad, boring, calm, exciting, nothing
each is a part
STOP and take in this moment
breathe.
it will not be there in a year, month,day, minute, or second
you are taking part in a miracle
a wonder too great to be comprehended
OH how COMPLEX
how CHAOTIC
it does not wait
it keeps going constant steady (keep up or you'll be left behind)
IT can separate
IT can reunite
unpredictable
unfathomable
life intertwined within its very fabric
or really is it not but an illusion
for what is time?
can it erode our very being, nature?
it can it can
but really does it destroy our existence
only when I reach the end of this grand ADVENTURE PHENOMENA
will it be revealed
change beautiful
fluid;not static
every moment different
enjoy these times
happy, sad, boring, calm, exciting, nothing
each is a part
STOP and take in this moment
breathe.
it will not be there in a year, month,day, minute, or second
you are taking part in a miracle
a wonder too great to be comprehended
OH how COMPLEX
how CHAOTIC
it does not wait
it keeps going constant steady (keep up or you'll be left behind)
IT can separate
IT can reunite
unpredictable
unfathomable
life intertwined within its very fabric
or really is it not but an illusion
for what is time?
can it erode our very being, nature?
it can it can
but really does it destroy our existence
only when I reach the end of this grand ADVENTURE PHENOMENA
will it be revealed
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Lukewarm
Nations fall and people change
Still they think we're all deranged
Yet still they come back every week
What is it that they truly seek?
Please stop and choose a side
because this is not a free ride
Don't come and fake a smile
When really your in denial
Scoffers scoff
but don't
lie
Don't
FAKE
Don't
Pretend
When really you don't care
When really you don't believe
I would rather you come into church as an
Atheist
Satanist
Buddhist
Rapeist
But please don't come in as a "Christian"
and mock God
don't come in as Christian
and swear while people are praying
laugh when others are sharing
talk about vulgar, obscenities in the sanctuary
its disgusting
If you think God is stupid then don't come to church.
If you don't want to pray and worship then why do you come?
Come back when your really ready to repent and know God.
God is a God of love but he isn't a God who can be played.
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Come if you seek Him with all your heart.
Come if you want to be free from sin
Come if your truly ready to change
Still they think we're all deranged
Yet still they come back every week
What is it that they truly seek?
Please stop and choose a side
because this is not a free ride
Don't come and fake a smile
When really your in denial
Scoffers scoff
but don't
lie
Don't
FAKE
Don't
Pretend
When really you don't care
When really you don't believe
I would rather you come into church as an
Atheist
Satanist
Buddhist
Rapeist
But please don't come in as a "Christian"
and mock God
don't come in as Christian
and swear while people are praying
laugh when others are sharing
talk about vulgar, obscenities in the sanctuary
its disgusting
If you think God is stupid then don't come to church.
If you don't want to pray and worship then why do you come?
Come back when your really ready to repent and know God.
God is a God of love but he isn't a God who can be played.
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Come if you seek Him with all your heart.
Come if you want to be free from sin
Come if your truly ready to change
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Trust
its hard to leave it in God's Hands
when you seem to have a better plan
but I guess thats how God works
He does what He wants
and when you to trust in Him it turns out soo much more than you hoped for or could imagine
not "trust" but when you leave every aspect of w/e your doing to him
and all you do is what you can do... which is not much
but most of all pray for whats in your heart pray continually unceasingly and God will hear your prayer
Only God can change lives, only God can open eye
Worship night was a test a battle in my soul
it was soo hard to trust
when everything seemed to be going wrong
not according to my plan
I wanted a longer prayer time but everyone left
I want these songs to be played
I wanted the music to be played like this
I wanted to share this
I wanted God to work like this
but in the end I knew the truth that God had to be there or nothing would happen
even if the music was amazing or anything else it didn't matter
so I left it God.
at first I could sense a HUGE wall of harden hearts people unwilling to open themselves
People who didn't know GOD who had no clue what fellowship is about
there was a HUGE unseen battle of hearts of wills of soul
and I felt defeated I wanted to cower in fear hide behind the curtains
It seemed like God wasnt there
like he left us to die, to look stupid
but deep inside I knew that I trusted everything to him. The night was his
and if that is what he wanted then soo be it.
I started to pray and we started to pray and cry out to God to reach into the hearts of the lost, the hardened
and he answered, he moved and worked
THANK YOU GOD
I felt it when Evelyn rebuked the fellowship there was POWER in her words it was CRAZY it was so intense I started to cry at the GLORY AND POWER of the HOLY SPIRIT.
and the CONSUMING FIRE SPREAD
still some hearts stayed hard unscathed by the flames.
and I pray for those hearts.
others were broken down and renewed, revived
and I pray for those hearts
and yet others started to see the light to feel the heat
and I pray for those hearts
and of course there were those who just sat and looked in from the outside
and I pray for those hearts
I don't know why God didn't break everyone because he can
but i trust in him
when you seem to have a better plan
but I guess thats how God works
He does what He wants
and when you to trust in Him it turns out soo much more than you hoped for or could imagine
not "trust" but when you leave every aspect of w/e your doing to him
and all you do is what you can do... which is not much
but most of all pray for whats in your heart pray continually unceasingly and God will hear your prayer
Only God can change lives, only God can open eye
Worship night was a test a battle in my soul
it was soo hard to trust
when everything seemed to be going wrong
not according to my plan
I wanted a longer prayer time but everyone left
I want these songs to be played
I wanted the music to be played like this
I wanted to share this
I wanted God to work like this
but in the end I knew the truth that God had to be there or nothing would happen
even if the music was amazing or anything else it didn't matter
so I left it God.
at first I could sense a HUGE wall of harden hearts people unwilling to open themselves
People who didn't know GOD who had no clue what fellowship is about
there was a HUGE unseen battle of hearts of wills of soul
and I felt defeated I wanted to cower in fear hide behind the curtains
It seemed like God wasnt there
like he left us to die, to look stupid
but deep inside I knew that I trusted everything to him. The night was his
and if that is what he wanted then soo be it.
I started to pray and we started to pray and cry out to God to reach into the hearts of the lost, the hardened
and he answered, he moved and worked
THANK YOU GOD
I felt it when Evelyn rebuked the fellowship there was POWER in her words it was CRAZY it was so intense I started to cry at the GLORY AND POWER of the HOLY SPIRIT.
and the CONSUMING FIRE SPREAD
still some hearts stayed hard unscathed by the flames.
and I pray for those hearts.
others were broken down and renewed, revived
and I pray for those hearts
and yet others started to see the light to feel the heat
and I pray for those hearts
and of course there were those who just sat and looked in from the outside
and I pray for those hearts
I don't know why God didn't break everyone because he can
but i trust in him
Friday, October 24, 2008
EMo Love Poem (because Evelyn wrote a poem so then i wanted to write i poem because I was bored)
Call my name, quench this pain
This dry soul it needs some rain
Always listening for your voice
These desert thoughts are not my choice
Spinning, Spinning round and round
Waiting to drink in your sound
Stop this cycle set me free
My parched throat is killing me
Its hard to love when all you get
Are empty echoes of self regret
Still onward I will persevere
because true love does not disappear
This dry soul it needs some rain
Always listening for your voice
These desert thoughts are not my choice
Spinning, Spinning round and round
Waiting to drink in your sound
Stop this cycle set me free
My parched throat is killing me
Its hard to love when all you get
Are empty echoes of self regret
Still onward I will persevere
because true love does not disappear
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Christian
I'm not better, maybe I'm a little worse
I feel hurt, pain
I got dramas, girl problems, anger issues
I'm human.
Some people question why I live my life...... soo good? pure?
I don't swear, smoke, drink under aged, have premarital sex, steal, lie, cheat....
But the truth is my life isn't that "pure"
Sometimes when I'm pissed off I swear
When I'm feeling down maybe I'll have a few drinks
When I'm stuck on a test its so easy to look at the paper next to me
My life isn't perfect
BUT I AM striving to make it perfect
WHY?
not because Ill go to heaven
but because i believe thats the way we're supposed to live
The way God wanted us to live
living like that is the beginning of finding my true purpose
in life
being Christian is not about living a perfect or even good life its about
making choice to do all you can to stop sinning to stop doing whats wrong
but most of all its about knowing God
I feel hurt, pain
I got dramas, girl problems, anger issues
I'm human.
Some people question why I live my life...... soo good? pure?
I don't swear, smoke, drink under aged, have premarital sex, steal, lie, cheat....
But the truth is my life isn't that "pure"
Sometimes when I'm pissed off I swear
When I'm feeling down maybe I'll have a few drinks
When I'm stuck on a test its so easy to look at the paper next to me
My life isn't perfect
BUT I AM striving to make it perfect
WHY?
not because Ill go to heaven
but because i believe thats the way we're supposed to live
The way God wanted us to live
living like that is the beginning of finding my true purpose
in life
being Christian is not about living a perfect or even good life its about
making choice to do all you can to stop sinning to stop doing whats wrong
but most of all its about knowing God
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Strong
I am STRONG
strong like a leaf blowing in the wind
strong like a butterfly caught in a net
I am soo strong I can pretend everything is alright
I am soo strong there's nothing wrong with me
I am soo strong I can keep others from seeing my problems
I am soo strong everyone thinks I'm strong
I AM STRONG
Are you strong?
I am weak
weak like ..........
weak like a crippled solider held up by his commander
I am weak I know its not alright theres soo many things that are just going wrong.....
I am weak but I know that I can persevere because God holds me up
I am weak but I am not ashamed to say that I got problems, hurts, struggles
I am weak but I am not weak
Are you weak?
strong like a leaf blowing in the wind
strong like a butterfly caught in a net
I am soo strong I can pretend everything is alright
I am soo strong there's nothing wrong with me
I am soo strong I can keep others from seeing my problems
I am soo strong everyone thinks I'm strong
I AM STRONG
Are you strong?
I am weak
weak like ..........
weak like a crippled solider held up by his commander
I am weak I know its not alright theres soo many things that are just going wrong.....
I am weak but I know that I can persevere because God holds me up
I am weak but I am not ashamed to say that I got problems, hurts, struggles
I am weak but I am not weak
Are you weak?
Friday, October 17, 2008
Relationships
yesterday, today, tomorrow
the same?
different?
TIME
IS A FUNNY thing
its always moving, every second something is happening......changing
We all have our different paths. We don't know what the future will bring.
We meet new people
Forget others
Forge new friendships
Lose Others
Some people don't stay in your life for too long.
Others stay a little longer....
But the fact is: eventually those relationships will end.
and yet we all want to keep those who are dear to us forever.
do we fear death? or really is it LONELINESS that we fear?
"Till death do us part, As long as we both shall live"
.......a line that has lost its meaning in today's society
Its sad........ its not supposed to be like this.
We say we love but really do we love? What is love?
Love is supposed to be FOREVER
But most of the time it doesn't last for even 50 years. and theres always SOMETHING wrong messed about the relationship: he's controlling, she expects me to do everything, he doesn't do enough for me (i can go on all day)
How can it last forever if we die?
I mean when we're dead do we still love? What do you believe?
There are SO many people out there each one DIFFERENT, distinctive
Every person you meet has their own ideas, opinions, personality, body, humor, you name it
Every person you meet impacts your life...
Some in a big way
Others in very little way.....
Its actually AMAZING
Every person is different, in every group of people (ANY) there is a different VYBE of interactions
Each individual brings something new to the group.
Removing just one person will totally change the chemistry.
NOW THINK of all the people in the world and think of the possible combinations
you can have groups of 2,3,10,13,100,100000 and with different ppl well the combinations are ENDLESS
its ART. its CRAZY, It blows my, minddd
it can't just end with DEATH
there has to be more.
Where is God in this?
God is the one being that we can have an eternal relationship with, he created us.
We were created for relationships!
First with GOd
Than with other people
GOD understands who we are 100% at our core
We all want to get closer to ppl but it seems like there isnt a person who is able to understand us completely.
We were created to live forever
ISN't that why we all want to NOT DIE .....we want to keep going
but theres something that messes all that up.
SIN
we all know what it is:
we know whats right, whats wrong
How things are supposed to be.
and we see that its NOT
Killing=bad
rape= bad
stealing= bad
Sin is what HURTS us and yet we still pursue sin
its what screws up our relationships
WITH PEOPLE and WITH GOD
but the problem is were chained by our sin we cant stop and even if we could the damage is done. its too late........
But GOD wants us to have relationships the way its SUPPOSED to be
HE LOVES us
he sent his Son to save us from our sins
so that we can have that restored relationship with him.
BEcause GOD conquered death and sin
we can too if we repent of our sins and turn to GOD
sooooooo we can finally Have the relationship we NEED
the same?
different?
TIME
IS A FUNNY thing
its always moving, every second something is happening......changing
We all have our different paths. We don't know what the future will bring.
We meet new people
Forget others
Forge new friendships
Lose Others
Some people don't stay in your life for too long.
Others stay a little longer....
But the fact is: eventually those relationships will end.
and yet we all want to keep those who are dear to us forever.
do we fear death? or really is it LONELINESS that we fear?
"Till death do us part, As long as we both shall live"
.......a line that has lost its meaning in today's society
Its sad........ its not supposed to be like this.
We say we love but really do we love? What is love?
Love is supposed to be FOREVER
But most of the time it doesn't last for even 50 years. and theres always SOMETHING wrong messed about the relationship: he's controlling, she expects me to do everything, he doesn't do enough for me (i can go on all day)
How can it last forever if we die?
I mean when we're dead do we still love? What do you believe?
There are SO many people out there each one DIFFERENT, distinctive
Every person you meet has their own ideas, opinions, personality, body, humor, you name it
Every person you meet impacts your life...
Some in a big way
Others in very little way.....
Its actually AMAZING
Every person is different, in every group of people (ANY) there is a different VYBE of interactions
Each individual brings something new to the group.
Removing just one person will totally change the chemistry.
NOW THINK of all the people in the world and think of the possible combinations
you can have groups of 2,3,10,13,100,100000 and with different ppl well the combinations are ENDLESS
its ART. its CRAZY, It blows my, minddd
it can't just end with DEATH
there has to be more.
Where is God in this?
God is the one being that we can have an eternal relationship with, he created us.
We were created for relationships!
First with GOd
Than with other people
GOD understands who we are 100% at our core
We all want to get closer to ppl but it seems like there isnt a person who is able to understand us completely.
We were created to live forever
ISN't that why we all want to NOT DIE .....we want to keep going
but theres something that messes all that up.
SIN
we all know what it is:
we know whats right, whats wrong
How things are supposed to be.
and we see that its NOT
Killing=bad
rape= bad
stealing= bad
Sin is what HURTS us and yet we still pursue sin
its what screws up our relationships
WITH PEOPLE and WITH GOD
but the problem is were chained by our sin we cant stop and even if we could the damage is done. its too late........
But GOD wants us to have relationships the way its SUPPOSED to be
HE LOVES us
he sent his Son to save us from our sins
so that we can have that restored relationship with him.
BEcause GOD conquered death and sin
we can too if we repent of our sins and turn to GOD
sooooooo we can finally Have the relationship we NEED
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Waiting
Waiting.
patiently
knowing
that Greater things are coming
all the struggles, tears and prayers
Will be answered,
have not been in vain.
Already I see signs of LIFE RENEWED REVIVED
its coming
Don't know when.
but SOON
this is just the start
its the time, the generation
where God will reveal himself to the nations
Acts 2:16-18
16No, this is what was spoken by the prophet Joel:
17" 'In the last days, God says,
I will pour out my Spirit on all people.
Your sons and daughters will prophesy,
your young men will see visions,
your old men will dream dreams.
18Even on my servants, both men and women,
I will pour out my Spirit in those days,
and they will prophesy
The beginning of the end....
The great finale to the greatest story in existence...
I'm ready to see MIRACLES
too be part of the story.....
To see God heal the broken
To see his name be glorified
Amen
patiently
knowing
that Greater things are coming
all the struggles, tears and prayers
Will be answered,
have not been in vain.
Already I see signs of LIFE RENEWED REVIVED
its coming
Don't know when.
but SOON
this is just the start
its the time, the generation
where God will reveal himself to the nations
Acts 2:16-18
16No, this is what was spoken by the prophet Joel:
17" 'In the last days, God says,
I will pour out my Spirit on all people.
Your sons and daughters will prophesy,
your young men will see visions,
your old men will dream dreams.
18Even on my servants, both men and women,
I will pour out my Spirit in those days,
and they will prophesy
The beginning of the end....
The great finale to the greatest story in existence...
I'm ready to see MIRACLES
too be part of the story.....
To see God heal the broken
To see his name be glorified
Amen
Saturday, October 11, 2008
a World
where people are equal
where people do not judge
where people are real
no lies
no masks
a place where people are who they were created to be like
where they see don't see there uniqueness as "weird" but they see it as something special that only they posses
where no one is trying to be like anyone else
where people put others before themselves
no messed up relationships
no unnecessary hurts
where people accept others as people not as nerds, geeks, ugly, pretty.......
where people see that there isn't a huge difference between us at all
WHERE PEOPLE CAN LOVE UNSELFISHLY
can such a world exist?
we can all picture the "ideal" world
but we can't seem to make it a reality
IF we know what the world SHOULD be like....
AND if we know that the way things in the world are now isn't the way it should be..
or is it? What part of us inside can tell that something is desperately messed up?
rape, stealing, murder? according to science shouldn't these be good things?
Well I mean survival of the fittest, evolution. Theoretically looking after yourself seems to be the thing that keeps you ALIVE, hence the organisms that only looked after themselves and i guess didn't care about the well being of others survived and hence that "gene" got passed on continued to exist
or thats what I learned in biology (someone correct me if I'm wrong).
and yet humans are pretty selfish ppl soo that does make sense
but the thing that doesn't add up is this concept of right and wrong.
the issue of how love can exist
why are we soo damn different?
I mean you don't see the Animal police arresting lions cuz they just killed a deer
If animals eat each other of the same species what makes it soo bad for people to eat each other?
aren't we only several DNA's different from animals?
why don't animals have relationships? do they?
Humans seem to be separated into two parts that contradict each other
Whats the answer to this mystery?
God?
Karma? Life force?
SOMETHING ELSE?
is there a scientific explaination? if there is i would like to know.
where people do not judge
where people are real
no lies
no masks
a place where people are who they were created to be like
where they see don't see there uniqueness as "weird" but they see it as something special that only they posses
where no one is trying to be like anyone else
where people put others before themselves
no messed up relationships
no unnecessary hurts
where people accept others as people not as nerds, geeks, ugly, pretty.......
where people see that there isn't a huge difference between us at all
WHERE PEOPLE CAN LOVE UNSELFISHLY
can such a world exist?
we can all picture the "ideal" world
but we can't seem to make it a reality
IF we know what the world SHOULD be like....
AND if we know that the way things in the world are now isn't the way it should be..
or is it? What part of us inside can tell that something is desperately messed up?
rape, stealing, murder? according to science shouldn't these be good things?
Well I mean survival of the fittest, evolution. Theoretically looking after yourself seems to be the thing that keeps you ALIVE, hence the organisms that only looked after themselves and i guess didn't care about the well being of others survived and hence that "gene" got passed on continued to exist
or thats what I learned in biology (someone correct me if I'm wrong).
and yet humans are pretty selfish ppl soo that does make sense
but the thing that doesn't add up is this concept of right and wrong.
the issue of how love can exist
why are we soo damn different?
I mean you don't see the Animal police arresting lions cuz they just killed a deer
If animals eat each other of the same species what makes it soo bad for people to eat each other?
aren't we only several DNA's different from animals?
why don't animals have relationships? do they?
Humans seem to be separated into two parts that contradict each other
Whats the answer to this mystery?
God?
Karma? Life force?
SOMETHING ELSE?
is there a scientific explaination? if there is i would like to know.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
More
Live in the moment, In this time
Its all the same old rhyme
Just waiting for a moment of relief that doesn't last
more than all the fake
more than all these lies
the meaningless cycle of our lives, the emptiness inside
The thirst for greater things
The urge to be the best
Only realizing you can't make reality fantasy
Love that doesn't last
Peace that never stays
Never Satisfied with what we got so far
None of it ever stays
It all will pass away
tell whats the one thing that can last through death?
Something deep inside me can't stand the thought of this truth.
IF this was all there is then why even go on?.................
Because:
Theres gotta be MORE!
More than all the countless let downs
This can't be all there is
I'm dying here
Falling out of place
My life ,This world is
spinning out of control
Just click the TV on .
and tell me its alright
Cuz everything that I feel
screams theres something more
Beyond the broken hearts
that are burning in the morgue
Just.
OPEN YOUR EYES
Its all the same old rhyme
Just waiting for a moment of relief that doesn't last
more than all the fake
more than all these lies
the meaningless cycle of our lives, the emptiness inside
The thirst for greater things
The urge to be the best
Only realizing you can't make reality fantasy
Love that doesn't last
Peace that never stays
Never Satisfied with what we got so far
None of it ever stays
It all will pass away
tell whats the one thing that can last through death?
Something deep inside me can't stand the thought of this truth.
IF this was all there is then why even go on?.................
Because:
Theres gotta be MORE!
More than all the countless let downs
This can't be all there is
I'm dying here
Falling out of place
My life ,This world is
spinning out of control
Just click the TV on .
and tell me its alright
Cuz everything that I feel
screams theres something more
Beyond the broken hearts
that are burning in the morgue
Just.
OPEN YOUR EYES
Monday, October 6, 2008
Sight
22Be merciful to those who doubt; 23snatch others from the fire and save them; to others show mercy, mixed with fear—hating even the clothing stained by corrupted flesh.
Jude 1:22-23 NIV
Easily said
HARD to do
Where is the line?
How did Jesus do it?
He chilled with prostitutes went and visited people who were "sketch"
He loved them like God loves ALL people
But at the same time he sorta "opened" their hearts to the sin they were living in, to the chains that were holding them down.
and he freed them
and changed their lives
When I see how Jesus changed the life of soo many people personally
When I see how my life has changed
I want to tell people to show them Jesus
but I guess its hard for people to see Jesus in the "crowd"
Zacchaeus wanted to meet Jesus but he couldn't get to him...with the crowd in the way
SO he climbed the tree...
I think everyone secretly wants to meet Jesus. They've been waiting for him their whole lives. They just can't see him
but when they do meet him or even catch a glimpse of him .........
They will want to know him more and know THATS the person they've been looking for....
The problem is finding a tree they can climb to see Him.
I think that thats our job we are "trees" LOL
I wanna be a goood tree
THe question is how do we be trees that can be relied on?
Go easy on those who hesitate in the faith. Go after those who take the wrong way. Be tender with sinners, but not soft to sin. The sin itself stinks to high heaven.
Jude 1:22-23 -The Message
(analogy heard from Tim Woo)
Jude 1:22-23 NIV
Easily said
HARD to do
Where is the line?
How did Jesus do it?
He chilled with prostitutes went and visited people who were "sketch"
He loved them like God loves ALL people
But at the same time he sorta "opened" their hearts to the sin they were living in, to the chains that were holding them down.
and he freed them
and changed their lives
When I see how Jesus changed the life of soo many people personally
When I see how my life has changed
I want to tell people to show them Jesus
but I guess its hard for people to see Jesus in the "crowd"
Zacchaeus wanted to meet Jesus but he couldn't get to him...with the crowd in the way
SO he climbed the tree...
I think everyone secretly wants to meet Jesus. They've been waiting for him their whole lives. They just can't see him
but when they do meet him or even catch a glimpse of him .........
They will want to know him more and know THATS the person they've been looking for....
The problem is finding a tree they can climb to see Him.
I think that thats our job we are "trees" LOL
I wanna be a goood tree
THe question is how do we be trees that can be relied on?
Go easy on those who hesitate in the faith. Go after those who take the wrong way. Be tender with sinners, but not soft to sin. The sin itself stinks to high heaven.
Jude 1:22-23 -The Message
(analogy heard from Tim Woo)
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Defined
I am who other people think I am
I am who I portray myself as to those around me
What I wear
How I talk
Who I'm friends with
Who I'm important to
Who knows me
Who I know
What I have
What I can do
What I do
How I look
How smart I am
I am only worth as much as what I can DO
I am only worth as much as the VALUE PEOPLE PLACE ON ME
THAT is TRUTH in the world we live in.
and its degrading our souls.
There is such a high importance in being accepted by others
We go to GREAT lengths to be accepted by people.
In fact its SOOO damn important that we are willing to compromise our beliefs our values
and we are even ready to step on others to hurt others to BE accepted. We are ready to sacrifice our DIGNITY our pride in fact sometimes our life.
We hear stories of people who commit suicide because they weren't accepted .........
In math class I sit with a bunch of acquaintances that I guess would be the more "popular" group of kidz. And of course we all sit at the back not really paying attention to what the teacher is saying, talking about meaningless stuff. In front of us there are the nerdy Asian guys...you know the classic quiet guys who are so smart they just play DS in class or sleep. Except... theres one guy in the middle that sits right in front of us who looks like a nerdy Asian but...he's not that smart. This one guy is the guy that ALWAYS gets hate, a lot of hate from everyone. Everyday the "acquintainces" "play" with him: they will be nice to him and then somehow be REALLY nasty to him at the same time in a sorta mocking way. Then they'll start laughing in his face and talk crap in front of his face. And you know what? This guy makes a complete fool of himself. He doesn't sit quietly or even try to defend himself. He just LAUGHS along with them. He starts cracking jokes at himself.......and does things that are just humiliating for a normal person to do and say.
and as all these people are laughing I sorta just sit quietly in the back....... and as i see that guy making a fool of himself and laughing. I hear his silent scream: "accept me, love me"
it breaks my heart.
I was watching friends tonight. Basically, the plot revolved around the problem that Monica baked candy for the neighbours and neighbours kept coming back for more and more because it was soo good. At first Monica was flattered soo she kept baking for the neighbours. Eventually it came to a point where it was out of control and the neighbours didn't even care about her they just wanted the candy. And thats when Chandler said something like "The like the neighbours have for the candy is not the the same as the like they have for you" Implying that Monica was of course was confusing how much the neighbours liked her candy to how much they liked her as a person. In response, Monica said something like "you don't know how hard it is to get people to like you."
I guess we all put much of our identity in our RELATIONSHIPS
I know I did and still do
There was a point in my life where I was really down
It seemed like no one cared about me
I felt like TRASH.
I would get JEALOUS, ANGRY, ENVIOUS of the relationships other people were having with each other
I was selfish I wanted them all for MYSELF only me (aren't we all selfish?)
but someone reminded me: My relationships DO NOT define who I am
My identity lies in GOD in Jesus Christ.
What defines YOU? I mean if the above defines you then its sorta a weak foundation to place our identity in. It seems like it could fall apart at any minute second.
Relationships between humans are FRAGILE and soooo restricted.
Don't put your trust in things that are gona fail.
CUz only a relationship with GOD will last forever.
LIFE is short. People die....unexpectedly.
Sometimes I still get a little jealous............
but I think as I get to know God more, the less I become jealous and the more his LOVE for HUMANITY is placed in my heart.
LOVE
I am who I portray myself as to those around me
What I wear
How I talk
Who I'm friends with
Who I'm important to
Who knows me
Who I know
What I have
What I can do
What I do
How I look
How smart I am
I am only worth as much as what I can DO
I am only worth as much as the VALUE PEOPLE PLACE ON ME
THAT is TRUTH in the world we live in.
and its degrading our souls.
There is such a high importance in being accepted by others
We go to GREAT lengths to be accepted by people.
In fact its SOOO damn important that we are willing to compromise our beliefs our values
and we are even ready to step on others to hurt others to BE accepted. We are ready to sacrifice our DIGNITY our pride in fact sometimes our life.
We hear stories of people who commit suicide because they weren't accepted .........
In math class I sit with a bunch of acquaintances that I guess would be the more "popular" group of kidz. And of course we all sit at the back not really paying attention to what the teacher is saying, talking about meaningless stuff. In front of us there are the nerdy Asian guys...you know the classic quiet guys who are so smart they just play DS in class or sleep. Except... theres one guy in the middle that sits right in front of us who looks like a nerdy Asian but...he's not that smart. This one guy is the guy that ALWAYS gets hate, a lot of hate from everyone. Everyday the "acquintainces" "play" with him: they will be nice to him and then somehow be REALLY nasty to him at the same time in a sorta mocking way. Then they'll start laughing in his face and talk crap in front of his face. And you know what? This guy makes a complete fool of himself. He doesn't sit quietly or even try to defend himself. He just LAUGHS along with them. He starts cracking jokes at himself.......and does things that are just humiliating for a normal person to do and say.
and as all these people are laughing I sorta just sit quietly in the back....... and as i see that guy making a fool of himself and laughing. I hear his silent scream: "accept me, love me"
it breaks my heart.
I was watching friends tonight. Basically, the plot revolved around the problem that Monica baked candy for the neighbours and neighbours kept coming back for more and more because it was soo good. At first Monica was flattered soo she kept baking for the neighbours. Eventually it came to a point where it was out of control and the neighbours didn't even care about her they just wanted the candy. And thats when Chandler said something like "The like the neighbours have for the candy is not the the same as the like they have for you" Implying that Monica was of course was confusing how much the neighbours liked her candy to how much they liked her as a person. In response, Monica said something like "you don't know how hard it is to get people to like you."
I guess we all put much of our identity in our RELATIONSHIPS
I know I did and still do
There was a point in my life where I was really down
It seemed like no one cared about me
I felt like TRASH.
I would get JEALOUS, ANGRY, ENVIOUS of the relationships other people were having with each other
I was selfish I wanted them all for MYSELF only me (aren't we all selfish?)
but someone reminded me: My relationships DO NOT define who I am
My identity lies in GOD in Jesus Christ.
What defines YOU? I mean if the above defines you then its sorta a weak foundation to place our identity in. It seems like it could fall apart at any minute second.
Relationships between humans are FRAGILE and soooo restricted.
Don't put your trust in things that are gona fail.
CUz only a relationship with GOD will last forever.
LIFE is short. People die....unexpectedly.
Sometimes I still get a little jealous............
but I think as I get to know God more, the less I become jealous and the more his LOVE for HUMANITY is placed in my heart.
LOVE
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Blind
Are we blind?
Does being blind mean not being able to see? or does being blind mean not being able to see clearly?
You go to an art gallery to look at this ONE painting thats supposed to be one of the MOST beautiful paintings ever created. When you finally get see the picture you say to yourself thats its a nice picture very pretty, but nothing worth all the hype you heard about. BUT you failed to see the ONE thing that the artist had in mind when he painted the picture and you miss the BEST part of the picture.
Life is like that
We go through all the good things in life but we miss the one thing that really makes life LIVING
I think when it comes to life we're all blind.
“Hatred is blind, as well as love.” Oscar Wilde
Sometimes I see people blinded by reality they seem to think that life lasts forever
that there is nothing more to life than being popular or getting a boyfriend/girlfriend.
There are those blinded to what life is really all about
They work sooo hard to get a good job to make lots of money
all for what? for happiness? but are they really satisfied with what they have?
I don't think so because if they were truly satisfied then i don't think there would be so many divorces in this world
There wouldn't be so many people looking to find different jobs or get promotions
Why aren't we satisfied?
but then i guess that makes me blind too huh?
I mean I used to think like that
but as I go through life I seem to be able to see more and more
but still there are those who never seem to see to open their eyes a little more........
IF there was someone was next to you and he saw what you couldn't see, he sees the awesomeness of the picture. and then he saw your reaction and how its soo not awesome.......
soo he asks you why your not as excited about the picture as he is. and you say "oo its pretty but there seems to be this random black spot in the middle of the painting that ruins it." Then he realizes that you don't see IT. SO he's TRYING with all his might to explain it to you, too make you be ABLE to see what he sees. But you think he's crazy, you think that he's making it all up. Soo as this guy goes on you start to make fun of him......
BUT this guy doesn't quit cuz he KNOWs what he saw and he wants you TO SEE how MAGNIFICENT the picture is.....
I think that if we really took everything in life into consideration ....
even if a blind person can't see
he can still smell, still hear and still taste what is around him...
IF we stop using our "eyes" and start using our other senses
Then maybe we can see what we couldn't see before
And as the person is next to you trying with ALL his might to make you see
more and more people come. Some see THE painting and others don't. Some of the people who don't see the THE painting join you and start cussing at those who do telling them there crazy
but some stop and think and wonder if maybe there is more......
still other people go see the painting and just leave the gallery missing it all.
and then there are those who pretend to see THE picture when they really don't....
BUT everyone WHO DOES see the painting ALL are trying to find a way for ALL those who DON'T see the painting to SEE the painting BECAUSE its SOOO amazing...........and they want everyone to see it as it is.
Does being blind mean not being able to see? or does being blind mean not being able to see clearly?
You go to an art gallery to look at this ONE painting thats supposed to be one of the MOST beautiful paintings ever created. When you finally get see the picture you say to yourself thats its a nice picture very pretty, but nothing worth all the hype you heard about. BUT you failed to see the ONE thing that the artist had in mind when he painted the picture and you miss the BEST part of the picture.
Life is like that
We go through all the good things in life but we miss the one thing that really makes life LIVING
I think when it comes to life we're all blind.
“Hatred is blind, as well as love.” Oscar Wilde
Sometimes I see people blinded by reality they seem to think that life lasts forever
that there is nothing more to life than being popular or getting a boyfriend/girlfriend.
There are those blinded to what life is really all about
They work sooo hard to get a good job to make lots of money
all for what? for happiness? but are they really satisfied with what they have?
I don't think so because if they were truly satisfied then i don't think there would be so many divorces in this world
There wouldn't be so many people looking to find different jobs or get promotions
Why aren't we satisfied?
but then i guess that makes me blind too huh?
I mean I used to think like that
but as I go through life I seem to be able to see more and more
but still there are those who never seem to see to open their eyes a little more........
IF there was someone was next to you and he saw what you couldn't see, he sees the awesomeness of the picture. and then he saw your reaction and how its soo not awesome.......
soo he asks you why your not as excited about the picture as he is. and you say "oo its pretty but there seems to be this random black spot in the middle of the painting that ruins it." Then he realizes that you don't see IT. SO he's TRYING with all his might to explain it to you, too make you be ABLE to see what he sees. But you think he's crazy, you think that he's making it all up. Soo as this guy goes on you start to make fun of him......
BUT this guy doesn't quit cuz he KNOWs what he saw and he wants you TO SEE how MAGNIFICENT the picture is.....
I think that if we really took everything in life into consideration ....
even if a blind person can't see
he can still smell, still hear and still taste what is around him...
IF we stop using our "eyes" and start using our other senses
Then maybe we can see what we couldn't see before
And as the person is next to you trying with ALL his might to make you see
more and more people come. Some see THE painting and others don't. Some of the people who don't see the THE painting join you and start cussing at those who do telling them there crazy
but some stop and think and wonder if maybe there is more......
still other people go see the painting and just leave the gallery missing it all.
and then there are those who pretend to see THE picture when they really don't....
BUT everyone WHO DOES see the painting ALL are trying to find a way for ALL those who DON'T see the painting to SEE the painting BECAUSE its SOOO amazing...........and they want everyone to see it as it is.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Limit
It seems I'm always sooo burdened by a lot of things
worship in Koinonia isn't WORSHIP
Charis can't find a teacher supervisor
Koinonia doesn't have enough cell group leaders
PEOPLE ARE DYING everyday without knowing God
People are living everyday not knowing how their lives are meant for sooo much MORE
People are HURTING, CRYING OUT and desperately seeking GOD
but PEOPLE are too blinded, TRAPPED in stupid things that DON'T matter to see .....
PEOPLE ARE LIVING IN LIES, IN ILLUSIONS THAT ARE NOT TRUe that don't bring true satisfaction that only let them down ...
PEOPLE DON'T KNOW THAT GOD LOVES not "God loves" he LOVES them and that the one thing they seek is Him
My heart breaks every time I see another person let down and hurt because of a breakup
My heart hurts every time I see someone put their hope in one PERSON
because i know that their gona be hurt again and because i know that people can't satisfy people
MY heart just stops when I see these things happening to my friends because I LOVE these people SO much.
MY heart cries to hear them neglecting and rejecting the one thing that can FREE them
I worry and I stress day and night
but today I learned something
Lately I've been soo drained by life....
I seem to be empty at the end of each day in fact i seem to be going backward on the meter
I've also been sick (which makes it worse)
and I've also been struggling with my own SINS and my own battles (which we all have)
and I've been praying desperately for all the above. (everyday)
and it seemed like nothing was changing
but somehow SOMETHING inside me would give up something inside me wouldn't lose FAITH so I kept going
I would be reminded that God answers prayers (Matthew 7)
and as i kept praying God spoke to me
He was like telling me why was I so worried and stressed about all these things
What can I possibly do about it?
I CAN'T I'm just a man I dont have the power to change hearts I don't have the power to heal hurts.
LEAVE IT TO HIM he said he didn't ask me to save the nations
1 Peter 5:6-8
6Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
I shouldn't worry about things that I can't DO instead I should focus on the things I CAN do.(the present) When I worry about it it takes my focus away on IMPORTANT things ON REALITY
THE bible says dont worry about tomorrow cuz how is worrying gona change anything? (Matthew 6:25-34)
God was like do your best Its all I ask cuz your only human
Everything else leave it to me and trust theres some things your not gona see right way
and if you need help of course I'm there.
Proverbs 3:4-6
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.
The only thing that I can do is love each person in my life the way Jesus did.
The rest is up to God
worship in Koinonia isn't WORSHIP
Charis can't find a teacher supervisor
Koinonia doesn't have enough cell group leaders
PEOPLE ARE DYING everyday without knowing God
People are living everyday not knowing how their lives are meant for sooo much MORE
People are HURTING, CRYING OUT and desperately seeking GOD
but PEOPLE are too blinded, TRAPPED in stupid things that DON'T matter to see .....
PEOPLE ARE LIVING IN LIES, IN ILLUSIONS THAT ARE NOT TRUe that don't bring true satisfaction that only let them down ...
PEOPLE DON'T KNOW THAT GOD LOVES not "God loves" he LOVES them and that the one thing they seek is Him
My heart breaks every time I see another person let down and hurt because of a breakup
My heart hurts every time I see someone put their hope in one PERSON
because i know that their gona be hurt again and because i know that people can't satisfy people
MY heart just stops when I see these things happening to my friends because I LOVE these people SO much.
MY heart cries to hear them neglecting and rejecting the one thing that can FREE them
I worry and I stress day and night
but today I learned something
Lately I've been soo drained by life....
I seem to be empty at the end of each day in fact i seem to be going backward on the meter
I've also been sick (which makes it worse)
and I've also been struggling with my own SINS and my own battles (which we all have)
and I've been praying desperately for all the above. (everyday)
and it seemed like nothing was changing
but somehow SOMETHING inside me would give up something inside me wouldn't lose FAITH so I kept going
I would be reminded that God answers prayers (Matthew 7)
and as i kept praying God spoke to me
He was like telling me why was I so worried and stressed about all these things
What can I possibly do about it?
I CAN'T I'm just a man I dont have the power to change hearts I don't have the power to heal hurts.
LEAVE IT TO HIM he said he didn't ask me to save the nations
1 Peter 5:6-8
6Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
I shouldn't worry about things that I can't DO instead I should focus on the things I CAN do.(the present) When I worry about it it takes my focus away on IMPORTANT things ON REALITY
THE bible says dont worry about tomorrow cuz how is worrying gona change anything? (Matthew 6:25-34)
God was like do your best Its all I ask cuz your only human
Everything else leave it to me and trust theres some things your not gona see right way
and if you need help of course I'm there.
Proverbs 3:4-6
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.
The only thing that I can do is love each person in my life the way Jesus did.
The rest is up to God
Monday, September 22, 2008
Come Home
I think its time to stop and think
I think its time to do whats right
Are you broken?
In need of someone to put you together
I think it's time to leave your sin
I think its time to turn around
Are you empty?
In need of someone to fill you in?
Come home, come home
He has your cloak in his hands
He's waiting for you at the door
To embrace you at your entrance
Come home, come home
The feast inside waiting for you
It won't start
It won't till you home
I think its time to end your search
I think its time to recommit
Your in circles
in need of someone who'll guide you through
I think its time to dry your tears
I think its time to stand up
Your found our Lord Jesus wants to lead you home
words by:
-Joyce Tam
I think its time to do whats right
Are you broken?
In need of someone to put you together
I think it's time to leave your sin
I think its time to turn around
Are you empty?
In need of someone to fill you in?
Come home, come home
He has your cloak in his hands
He's waiting for you at the door
To embrace you at your entrance
Come home, come home
The feast inside waiting for you
It won't start
It won't till you home
I think its time to end your search
I think its time to recommit
Your in circles
in need of someone who'll guide you through
I think its time to dry your tears
I think its time to stand up
Your found our Lord Jesus wants to lead you home
words by:
-Joyce Tam
Luke 15:11-31
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Filled
There's SOO much to do
There's SOO much to DO
Yesterday I walked into my house @ 4:12 pm
I turned on my computer and spent 3 hours learning how to graph polynomial functions in factored form because Mr. Wozniak doesn't really teach.....well
THEN I worked on the scavenger hunt for Charis
THEN I ate dinner
THEN I worked on my bio assignment
THEN I did my math homework for that day
THEN I practiced for "Break the Walls Down"
THEN I studied for Bio till 10:30 pm
Finally when the lights were out. I sat in silence and I chilled with God, I prayed to my Creator
IT was hard to calm down because it was such a tiring day
I had soo much to say, So much on my heart
I just couldn't stop pouring out my stress my anxieties
but while I was praying I felt PEACE and Joy amidst my worries and trouble.
IT was something soo incredible I stopped talking and just RESTED in the peace and love abd joy that was indescribable
God was just telling me to chill to relax to take it one day at a time to stop doing, to take some time and BE
Even though I was TIRED and DRAINED and just at my limit
When I felt like I should give up and just drop math and bio
I was FILLED with strength to challenge the next day
Psalm 28:7 (New International Version)
There's SOO much to DO
Yesterday I walked into my house @ 4:12 pm
I turned on my computer and spent 3 hours learning how to graph polynomial functions in factored form because Mr. Wozniak doesn't really teach.....well
THEN I worked on the scavenger hunt for Charis
THEN I ate dinner
THEN I worked on my bio assignment
THEN I did my math homework for that day
THEN I practiced for "Break the Walls Down"
THEN I studied for Bio till 10:30 pm
Finally when the lights were out. I sat in silence and I chilled with God, I prayed to my Creator
IT was hard to calm down because it was such a tiring day
I had soo much to say, So much on my heart
I just couldn't stop pouring out my stress my anxieties
but while I was praying I felt PEACE and Joy amidst my worries and trouble.
IT was something soo incredible I stopped talking and just RESTED in the peace and love abd joy that was indescribable
God was just telling me to chill to relax to take it one day at a time to stop doing, to take some time and BE
Even though I was TIRED and DRAINED and just at my limit
When I felt like I should give up and just drop math and bio
I was FILLED with strength to challenge the next day
Psalm 28:7 (New International Version)
The LORD is my strength and my shield;
my heart trusts in him, and I am helped.
My heart leaps for joy
and I will give thanks to him in song.
my heart trusts in him, and I am helped.
My heart leaps for joy
and I will give thanks to him in song.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Not what you Feel~
Sometimes when I pray
Sometimes when I worship
I get the thought that if I don't feel something supernatural then nothing is happening.
God isn't a bunch of emotions you feel
God is a LIVING BREATHING EXISTING BEING
When I am talking to someone I don't have to feel like I'm talking to that person
because I AM talking to that person. NO matter what I feel
Of course there are times when I can feel emotion when I'm talking to someone
but I don't have to feel emotion to converse with them.
I guess for people its hard to comprehend or even imagine anything that is beyond our senses.
So when we're presented with something thats not physical we automatically rely on what we "feel" because its the only thing left that can determine if something exists (in our world) or not.
But thats not true
God exists weather you feel him or not.
There comes a point when logic and reasoning fail
There comes a point where you have to look at everything in its entirety and judge for yourself
Sometimes you just need a little faith.
Sometimes when I worship
I get the thought that if I don't feel something supernatural then nothing is happening.
God isn't a bunch of emotions you feel
God is a LIVING BREATHING EXISTING BEING
When I am talking to someone I don't have to feel like I'm talking to that person
because I AM talking to that person. NO matter what I feel
Of course there are times when I can feel emotion when I'm talking to someone
but I don't have to feel emotion to converse with them.
I guess for people its hard to comprehend or even imagine anything that is beyond our senses.
So when we're presented with something thats not physical we automatically rely on what we "feel" because its the only thing left that can determine if something exists (in our world) or not.
But thats not true
God exists weather you feel him or not.
By Faith
Hebrews 11
1Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. 2This is what the ancients were commended for.
3By faith we understand that the universe was formed at God's command, so that what is seen was not made out of what was visible. 4By faith Abel offered God a better sacrifice than Cain did. By faith he was commended as a righteous man, when God spoke well of his offerings. And by faith he still speaks, even though he is dead.
5By faith Enoch was taken from this life, so that he did not experience death; he could not be found, because God had taken him away. For before he was taken, he was commended as one who pleased God. 6And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.
7By faith Noah, when warned about things not yet seen, in holy fear built an ark to save his family. By his faith he condemned the world and became heir of the righteousness that comes by faith.
8By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going. 9By faith he made his home in the promised land like a stranger in a foreign country; he lived in tents, as did Isaac and Jacob, who were heirs with him of the same promise. 10For he was looking forward to the city with foundations, whose architect and builder is God.
11By faith Abraham, even though he was past age—and Sarah herself was barren—was enabled to become a father because he[a]considered him faithful who had made the promise. 12And so from this one man, and he as good as dead, came descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and as countless as the sand on the seashore.
13All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth. 14People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. 15If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had opportunity to return. 16Instead, they were longing for a better country—a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them.
17By faith Abraham, when God tested him, offered Isaac as a sacrifice. He who had received the promises was about to sacrifice his one and only son, 18even though God had said to him, "It is through Isaac that your offspring[b] will be reckoned."[c] 19Abraham reasoned that God could raise the dead, and figuratively speaking, he did receive Isaac back from death.
20By faith Isaac blessed Jacob and Esau in regard to their future.
21By faith Jacob, when he was dying, blessed each of Joseph's sons, and worshiped as he leaned on the top of his staff.
22By faith Joseph, when his end was near, spoke about the exodus of the Israelites from Egypt and gave instructions about his bones.
23By faith Moses' parents hid him for three months after he was born, because they saw he was no ordinary child, and they were not afraid of the king's edict.
24By faith Moses, when he had grown up, refused to be known as the son of Pharaoh's daughter. 25He chose to be mistreated along with the people of God rather than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a short time. 26He regarded disgrace for the sake of Christ as of greater value than the treasures of Egypt, because he was looking ahead to his reward. 27By faith he left Egypt, not fearing the king's anger; he persevered because he saw him who is invisible. 28By faith he kept the Passover and the sprinkling of blood, so that the destroyer of the firstborn would not touch the firstborn of Israel.
29By faith the people passed through the Red Sea[d] as on dry land; but when the Egyptians tried to do so, they were drowned.
30By faith the walls of Jericho fell, after the people had marched around them for seven days.
31By faith the prostitute Rahab, because she welcomed the spies, was not killed with those who were disobedient.[e]
32And what more shall I say? I do not have time to tell about Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jephthah, David, Samuel and the prophets, 33who through faith conquered kingdoms, administered justice, and gained what was promised; who shut the mouths of lions, 34quenched the fury of the flames, and escaped the edge of the sword; whose weakness was turned to strength; and who became powerful in battle and routed foreign armies. 35Women received back their dead, raised to life again. Others were tortured and refused to be released, so that they might gain a better resurrection. 36Some faced jeers and flogging, while still others were chained and put in prison. 37They were stoned[f]; they were sawed in two; they were put to death by the sword. They went about in sheepskins and goatskins, destitute, persecuted and mistreated— 38the world was not worthy of them. They wandered in deserts and mountains, and in caves and holes in the ground.
39These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised. 40God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------There comes a point when logic and reasoning fail
There comes a point where you have to look at everything in its entirety and judge for yourself
Sometimes you just need a little faith.
Monday, September 15, 2008
Praise
when I feel far and distant praise your name
when I'm lost and confused praise your name
When it seems like nothing is going right in my life
When I am in the darkest hour
When life seems to choke the "life" out of me
When I am weary, angry, sad, happy, joyful
PRAISE YOUR NAME
When troubles come
When war erupts
when tragedies occur
when disaster strikes
PRAISE YOUR NAME
When I am eating
When I am learning
When I am alone
When I am with friends
PRAISE YOUR NAME
When You feel far
When your are near
In the morning
In the evening
Hallelujah
HOSANNA (he saves)
because you are our creator
because you love us
because you are in control
because you are holy
because you are our GOD
when I'm lost and confused praise your name
When it seems like nothing is going right in my life
When I am in the darkest hour
When life seems to choke the "life" out of me
When I am weary, angry, sad, happy, joyful
PRAISE YOUR NAME
When troubles come
When war erupts
when tragedies occur
when disaster strikes
PRAISE YOUR NAME
When I am eating
When I am learning
When I am alone
When I am with friends
PRAISE YOUR NAME
When You feel far
When your are near
In the morning
In the evening
Hallelujah
HOSANNA (he saves)
because you are our creator
because you love us
because you are in control
because you are holy
because you are our GOD
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Noise
CALM yourself in silence
turn off your music
turn off your TV
turn off your thoughts
get off the phone
sign off msn
Just stop.....
and listen to the silence
in the world we live in, there never seems to be a moment where we can rest
we're constantly surround by soo many distractions soo many "noises"
we seem to be entertained every second of our lives
We get home we:
turn on the computer
turn on the TV
turn on the Radio
Call someone up
Read a book
We never just sit in silence I mean that seems stupid doesn't it? or is it?
we can't seem to survive without having our attention fixated on SOMETHING
and when were not entertained we're bored.... and being bored is negative? is it?
Sometimes its not just media
but other things like work
Homework, housework, work work, volunteer work, church work, hobby work
we seem to work work work study study study
we never take time to STOP
among all this "busyness" have you even stopped to think even for a moment what the point of it is? i mean we all seem to work soo hard for something.... only to get even more work and be twice as busy
Doesn't it seem a bit wrong? a bit unnatural? I mean how did people in the past SURVIVE with out our technological advances we have today?
A lot of times we complain about how we can't seem to "feel God" or "hear him speak"
We say that we've tried and tried but nothing seems to happen he's not "there"
Could it be that there's just soo much noise that his voice is lost amidst all distractions?
When was the last time you sat in silence
Not just silence but "silence" with no distractions?
Just sat in the MOMENT NOT thinking about the past or the future but being in the present
where GOD is
where ETERNITY meets TIME
in the bible it says:
Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the LORD, but the LORD was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake. 12 After the earthquake came a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper. 13 When Elijah heard it, he pulled his cloak over his face and went out and stood at the mouth of the cave.
Then a voice said to him, "What are you doing here, Elijah?
See God wasn't in the POWERFUL WIND or the EARTHQUAKE or even the fire
God came in a gentle whisper.............
SO take time right NOW to be in SILENCE
WE were not beings created to just work we were also created to rest and be in the company of God.
NOT just 5 minutes
NOT just 10 minutes
NOt just 20 minutes
BUT take enough time to CALM yourself be in the MOMENT and LISTEN to GOD
maybe you don't know his voice because you've never heard it........
and when you've calmed down from all the stress of life
start to think about things that really matter
don't focus on just the short term BUT REALLY THINK REFLECT on this life
why are we here? whats the point of everything I'm doing now?
ASK GOD and talk to him and he will answer
SEEK and you will find
Matthew 7:6-11
7"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. 9"Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him
FOR Christians we have the AMAZING ability to connect with GOD
because Jesus died for our sins we can come to GOd the father personally.
Even if you don't know what you believe or what to think still take time TO THINK to really ask
questions.....sometimes its hard to think when all we do is DO.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WinhYMtZjMA
turn off your music
turn off your TV
turn off your thoughts
get off the phone
sign off msn
Just stop.....
and listen to the silence
in the world we live in, there never seems to be a moment where we can rest
we're constantly surround by soo many distractions soo many "noises"
we seem to be entertained every second of our lives
We get home we:
turn on the computer
turn on the TV
turn on the Radio
Call someone up
Read a book
We never just sit in silence I mean that seems stupid doesn't it? or is it?
we can't seem to survive without having our attention fixated on SOMETHING
and when were not entertained we're bored.... and being bored is negative? is it?
Sometimes its not just media
but other things like work
Homework, housework, work work, volunteer work, church work, hobby work
we seem to work work work study study study
we never take time to STOP
among all this "busyness" have you even stopped to think even for a moment what the point of it is? i mean we all seem to work soo hard for something.... only to get even more work and be twice as busy
Doesn't it seem a bit wrong? a bit unnatural? I mean how did people in the past SURVIVE with out our technological advances we have today?
A lot of times we complain about how we can't seem to "feel God" or "hear him speak"
We say that we've tried and tried but nothing seems to happen he's not "there"
Could it be that there's just soo much noise that his voice is lost amidst all distractions?
When was the last time you sat in silence
Not just silence but "silence" with no distractions?
Just sat in the MOMENT NOT thinking about the past or the future but being in the present
where GOD is
where ETERNITY meets TIME
in the bible it says:
1 Kings 19:11-14 (New International Version)
11 The LORD said, "Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the LORD, for the LORD is about to pass by."
Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the LORD, but the LORD was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake. 12 After the earthquake came a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper. 13 When Elijah heard it, he pulled his cloak over his face and went out and stood at the mouth of the cave.
Then a voice said to him, "What are you doing here, Elijah?
See God wasn't in the POWERFUL WIND or the EARTHQUAKE or even the fire
God came in a gentle whisper.............
SO take time right NOW to be in SILENCE
WE were not beings created to just work we were also created to rest and be in the company of God.
NOT just 5 minutes
NOT just 10 minutes
NOt just 20 minutes
BUT take enough time to CALM yourself be in the MOMENT and LISTEN to GOD
maybe you don't know his voice because you've never heard it........
and when you've calmed down from all the stress of life
start to think about things that really matter
don't focus on just the short term BUT REALLY THINK REFLECT on this life
why are we here? whats the point of everything I'm doing now?
ASK GOD and talk to him and he will answer
SEEK and you will find
Matthew 7:6-11
7"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. 9"Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him
FOR Christians we have the AMAZING ability to connect with GOD
because Jesus died for our sins we can come to GOd the father personally.
Even if you don't know what you believe or what to think still take time TO THINK to really ask
questions.....sometimes its hard to think when all we do is DO.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WinhYMtZjMA
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Loneliness
We, humans are relational beings
I mean relationships are extremely important to us.
We have like a bajillion different names for types of different relationships with ppl
friends, best friends, acquaintances, enemies, mother, father, aunt, uncle, grandma, grandpa, brother, sister, sibling, boss, employer, coach, teammate, classmate, peer , teacher, sensei, soul mate, band mate, workout buddy, wife, husband, lover, boyfriend, girlfriend, captain, cousin, mistress, son, daughter, student, Elder, pastor, councilor, employee,
ETC, I think you get the point
When you get into Chinese relationships it gets even more specific you have specific names for each of your aunts and uncles and your grandparents on each side of your family.
It gets pretty confusing
its OBVIOUS relationships are important to us BUILT into us
THEY EFFECT EVERY ASPECT of our lives.
When a relationship is not going well it effects other aspects of our lives
School, Health, performance etc.
Soo why out of all the lifeforms out there do we humans have this other thing called relationships? and why is it s0o important to us?
I mean it doesn't make sense according to survival of the fittest having a relationsip is BAD it should get you killed. looking out for others? plz... in this world to survive you have to look after yourself
Could there be something more?
WHY DO WE HAVE SUCH A HUGE URGE TO CONNECT?
WHAT IS IT IN US?
But even with the huge amount of relationships we have.. we still have a feeling called loneliness
Loneliness- alone; solitary; without company; companionless.
why do we still feel lonely when were constantly surrounded by other ppl?
why do we keep searching for a better deeper relationship?
Clearly its not enough, theres something else
If this was just all there was wouldn't we be satisfied with what we see? the reality we live in now?
How can we want something more if this is all there is?
Then there MUST be something more than what we see and that something is the thing we are searching for.
We, as humans are relational beings we were created to have relationships with other ppl
but most importantly we were created to have a RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD
and in finding that relationship is when were finally satisfied because thats what we we're created for
When we have that relationship with GOD our relationship with other ppl get better and we understand ourselves better and can be more like ourselves not having to pretend to be something were not. ITS FREEDOM TRUE FREEEDOM
ITS HAPPINESS, ITS JOY
I can't express how amazing it is, amazing can't even describe it
I can testify to this truth. GOd wants to know you no matter who you are or what you've done.
JUST TALK TO HIM SEEK HIM
ASk questions
I mean relationships are extremely important to us.
We have like a bajillion different names for types of different relationships with ppl
friends, best friends, acquaintances, enemies, mother, father, aunt, uncle, grandma, grandpa, brother, sister, sibling, boss, employer, coach, teammate, classmate, peer , teacher, sensei, soul mate, band mate, workout buddy, wife, husband, lover, boyfriend, girlfriend, captain, cousin, mistress, son, daughter, student, Elder, pastor, councilor, employee,
ETC, I think you get the point
When you get into Chinese relationships it gets even more specific you have specific names for each of your aunts and uncles and your grandparents on each side of your family.
It gets pretty confusing
its OBVIOUS relationships are important to us BUILT into us
THEY EFFECT EVERY ASPECT of our lives.
When a relationship is not going well it effects other aspects of our lives
School, Health, performance etc.
Soo why out of all the lifeforms out there do we humans have this other thing called relationships? and why is it s0o important to us?
I mean it doesn't make sense according to survival of the fittest having a relationsip is BAD it should get you killed. looking out for others? plz... in this world to survive you have to look after yourself
Could there be something more?
WHY DO WE HAVE SUCH A HUGE URGE TO CONNECT?
WHAT IS IT IN US?
But even with the huge amount of relationships we have.. we still have a feeling called loneliness
Loneliness- alone; solitary; without company; companionless.
why do we still feel lonely when were constantly surrounded by other ppl?
why do we keep searching for a better deeper relationship?
Clearly its not enough, theres something else
If this was just all there was wouldn't we be satisfied with what we see? the reality we live in now?
How can we want something more if this is all there is?
Then there MUST be something more than what we see and that something is the thing we are searching for.
We, as humans are relational beings we were created to have relationships with other ppl
but most importantly we were created to have a RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD
and in finding that relationship is when were finally satisfied because thats what we we're created for
When we have that relationship with GOD our relationship with other ppl get better and we understand ourselves better and can be more like ourselves not having to pretend to be something were not. ITS FREEDOM TRUE FREEEDOM
ITS HAPPINESS, ITS JOY
I can't express how amazing it is, amazing can't even describe it
I can testify to this truth. GOd wants to know you no matter who you are or what you've done.
JUST TALK TO HIM SEEK HIM
ASk questions
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