Day to Day Life in the Lord

This week I have been increasing my prayer time and found more strength to do God's work. I can see how the Spirit that is within is me is indeed more powerful than he that is in the World. The religious people both fear, respect and hate me for these various reasons. The other day I was praying and a Muslim told me to quiet down. I apologized to him and he said no need to apologized that we are the same. It is very disheartening to see how great a veil is over his eyes that he cannot see the difference between his god and my God.

Everyday Friday the belivers at York go out to evangelize. The Lord has been giving many people open hearts and it is always an encouragement to see people so receptive to the gospel. One persone we talked to however, had no faith at all and grew up in the church but later on left. His view was that all religions are one and the same. I got very frustrated at him and lost my self-control. I was very bold in telling him the word of truth "there is no peace for the wicked." I then I made a very offensive remark to him and quickly left. I was immediately convicted for not showing love the way I was supposed to.

I am very thankful for MANY strong believers who love the Lord at York!
In my times of trouble if I just pray with ONE of them immediately my spirit is strengthened in the Lord!

After evangelism, we walked to the religious center where we found 2 believers worshiping the Lord with all their heart in the middle of public area!
Immediately we were unified as the body and joined in worship! The Spirit descended so strongly that as we were worshiping the Muslims were shaken in spirit and scared to ask us to stop praying so they could continue with their prayer ritual! Praise the Lord! We all left with joy in our hearts that day!

Another time as we were worshiping and the sanctuary was filled with a joyful noise unto the Lord, I looked and there was a Muslim man seeking God in desperation outside. I went out, sat down and suddenly felt such a great love and sorrow for this man. He was so close to God yet so far........

He lifted his eyes up to the sky shaking his fists while holding a rosary and going through the beads. I had talked to him before. He had a strange belief that mixed both Muslim and Christianity together.
I had to say something

"Sir I have a message from God for you! You need to stop trying so hard and just believe that God did everything for you through Jesus already!"

I explained the problem of the pharisees and left with peace in my heart.

The theme for that night was religion vs faith.
In the joyful assembly of worshipers, some church christians walked in and stared like a group dead bodies. A brother told me his burden. We knew a part of them wanted to join in but couldn't...
They quickly left a little shocked.

The other day
I walked into the CCF office and found an old asian man there. I was confused as to why he was there and how he got in. He told me he was looking for people to pray with and that this was the only avaiable time he had to do so.
Immediately I knew the Lord had drawn him there.
I could sense a the spirit of unity in that place so I quickly told him that we could pray together next week at the same time!

Monday's, I do bible studies. I usually text the same people to come out to them and keep getting rejected time and time again. Usually only two people come. This particular Monday, I decided to take a break and make up an excuse that I had to much school work to try to get people to come. I mean why bother people who don't want the word of the Lord? As I sit down to do work I get texts from people who suddenly decided to come that day! As I was teaching, a Muslim girl who shares the office with CCF whom I had talked to before (she caught me while I was praying), stayed to hear the words!

I am more spiritually sensitive. On, Friday I could sense a deceiving spirit within another believer. We were going to evangelize together, but it felt off. He suddenly interrupted me as I was explaining the gospel because he didn't agree with something I said. I talked to him afterwards and foundout he was in serious doubt about the divinity of Jesus and the trinity.....very close to Jehova's witness.
I knew something was wrong because when I talked to him the night before he said that he didn't "feel led by the Spirit to be praying" He started to misquote all these verses from scripture. If this was me a few weeks ago I would've left. But somehow I stay and was able to rebuke from scripture. I tried to call another believer who was strong in the Word and faith to help and of course the other believer started to feel uncomfortable. The spirit in him knew that it was no match for the Spirit of Truth! Nonetheless we sat down and talked it out.

In KNA, the councilors are more unified! We actually prayed together for the FIRST TIME on Friday. The theme was living water right out of John chapter 4. As Chung started to share I suddenly felt a huge spirit of oppression and deceit. The religious one that makes you feel good but doesn't bring about repentence and gives a false illusion of faith in Christ by replacing it with emotion.
I kept praying that God would sweep over the refudge of lies and floodover all the hiding places. Then something broke in the spirit of some of the youth. I was really skeptical at first as to if this was TRULY the work of the Spirit and now some other Spirit, but the youth started to share their burdens, everybody was unified and free to talk to one another and we all felt drawn to prayer. I remembered "where the Spirit if the Lord is there is freedom"

I am also very happy that some believers I have been praying for are starting to seek the Lord more in their life by praying more. I can see the change in their hearts in the way that they pray already!

So yes these are all very small things when it comes to the work of the Lord! But to me they are VERY BIG!

Observer+Partakers

Isn't God amazing? He created people to observe and parttake in creation!
To understand AND experience.

Its perfect.
As we understand we worship as we worship we experience
Never ending for all eternity

In day to day life I find myself marveling at how simple people are. I tend to sit and watch people socialize and eat and wonder at how good it is. Then I realize that I am exactly like that and not any different.

Its funny how we all know innately these simple rules of life. Most of the time unspoken
A gift.
Its funny because we all observe the same things.
We see ourselves in each other, especially our sin and insecurties
and we all know how it should be.

I look to another man and realize im the same.
no different.
then I have a hard time getting over the fact of grace
and can't helped but be overwhelmed
with thankfulness and sorrow
when I realize that I really I'm no different

I used to think that my insights were better than others
that my observations were better
but they're really all the same.
but writing it down really helps!

MuD PeOpLe

Mud people
cursed to work the earth
Cain and Abel
the first victims of this curse
no peace for the wicked

day after day toiling away
What does it mean for whom do I work?
In a sun scorched land.
no peace for the wicked

Jealous anger and ones dead
murder, blood that screams retribution
the other restless wander of the earth
no peace for the wicked

few generations wickedness spreads
Lamech strikes many dead
no lament
montrous blood lust
scares wives to submission
no peace for the wicked

Same story here today
Mud people
under the same curse
go go go mud people go
here to there restless wanders on the earth
no peace for the wicked

No more than beasts
little more than apes
carnal minded
flesh
no peace for the wicked

from vainity to vainity
from flesh to flesh

bound to lusts
food, sleep, sex, work, relationships
no freedom from the curse
unsatisfied
not willing to admit
no peace for the wicked

animals uncontrolled
its a zoo with the cages broken
untamed, insane
lawless spirit
drunken wine stupor
no peace for the wicked

vainity comes out
of our eyes, nose, mouth
oozing out a putrid stench
that only the the flames of hell can quench
yet we still fill our soul with more
and it comes out twice as loathesome as before
no peace for the wicked

o Mud people
can't you see?
thinking we own the world
caught up in pride
soon there will be no place to hide
no peace for the wicked

though made a little lower than the angels
by grace
still reflect
the soul of understanding
yet cut off from life
no peace for the wicked

1040: One Hour

Could you not keep watch for even one hour?
Keep watch so that you will not fall into temptation
-Jesus Christ
(Matthew 26:40-41)

If everyone who went to 1040 seriously prayed for only ONE hour everyday
Revival would started to happen.

Its really alarming how little believers pray on a regular basis and because we don't pray we rely too much on our own wisdom and knowledge to do God's work. In the end it doesn't do anything because we're not remaining in Him (John 15)

Then he said to me, "This is the word of the LORD to Zerubbabel saying, ' Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit,' says the LORD of hosts.
Zechariah 4:6

Join together in following my example, brothers and sisters, and just as you have us as a model, keep your eyes on those who live as we do.
-Apostle Paul
(Philipians 3:17)

So we're supposed to follow the example of Paul or those that live like Paul.
I want to be like..... who? Jesus.
Who reminds me of Jesus?

Jason Ma says he prays 4 hours a day and the Chinese pastors told him that it wasn't enough, that he had to pray 6 hours.

So I'm going to try to pray 4 hours a day from now on!

I am sooo tired right now.
I also have no voice left. I am going to sleep NOW
and then work like mad tomorrow.

When will the Lord awaken the sleeping people?
When will He stir up their spirits?

time is ticking......

At all Times.

I will extol the LORD at all times; his praise will continually be on my lips.
Psalm 34:1

I think David was serious when he said continually.....
There are times when I need to sing praise to God or I feel my soul dying.
Everywhere I go........... its like a massive ball of spiritual power wanting to explode till the point where I HAVE TO LET IT OUT

Wether it be in praise or preaching, teaching, exhorting.

When John Piper says missions exist because worship doesn't ---> so true.
Everywhere I go its getting to the point where I can barely keep myself from wanting to TELL people.

21 Days

Today is the end of a 21 day fast I was involved in with a group of passionate believers at York. We're contending for Revival! No meat or sweets, media. I decided to cut dairy and eggs too. So my diet consisted mostly of hummus, rice, choi, rasins and nuts. It has been AWESOME getting together to pray everyday and to cry out to the Lord all night on Fridays. The Spirit has really poured out His blessings on us.

I don't even miss the food I gave up, God is SO MUCH BETTER! In fact, I feel so much more energetic and meat sorta seems gross to me now XD.

The Lord has really helped me grow in these past few weeks. He has given me so more revelation as well as strength to witness and serve in His name. When I look back on a few weeks ago compared to now, the fruits of the Spirit have increased quite a lot and it makes me so happy that I am being changed to be more like Him! It was such a struggle to love other belivers and to be humble. In one of our meetings it was prophesied that I needed to humble myself and that God want to do great things through me. This was actually prophesied twice by two different people and I have been getting that prompting in my heart. I still struggle to be humble but now I find that my love has truly increased for them, this is reflected in the fact that I no longer "give up" on them but I'm able to bear with them more. When spiritual attacks come or when sin starts to creep up with extreme feelings of envy, hate or lust, He protects me from them and I can feel Him surrounding my soul so that I don't have to be trapped by all these feelings and spirits from hell.

The Spirit is so much stronger in my life now, The way it manifests in my being is more frequent and for longer periods. I am still confused as to what to do in these times though. I also find that I am naturally praying more and more everywhere I go.
A part of me is actually really scared because I know that I'm going to end up doing something crazy things for the Lord and that is going to lead to persecution.

The truth is I'm SCARED. I'm scared of the jealous feelings other believers will have when they see the amount of grace the Lord has given to me.(I know this because I get like that too and I hate it) I'm scared of being alone, of losing friends that are not walking with the Lord. I'm scared of belivers who just think I'm out of it. I'm just scared of what people think and thats the truth. But what scares me the most isn't what people think. I'm scared that they won't ever be able to understand and experience God in the way that God wants them too! I'm scared for them, that when they die and truly see God they would regret their whole life for the rest of eternity.

I'm so thankful that God has placed me at York where there are believers who understand me and accept me and are like me.

There are many things I don't understand. For example, why not everyone who believes? How come the Lord brought me so far and not others? God's grace is the same for EVERYONE! I haven't done ANYTHING. So one of the conclusions that I have come to is that people have just settled and are MISSING OUT on THE FULLNESS OF GOD. This makes me really sad. They are THORWING AWAY THE GREATEST TREASURE EVER FOR VAINITY. The world is so DECEITFUL.

Father in Heaven,
Hallowed be that name. May your name truly be revered and KNOWN, Not just tossed around.
May you be gracious to us let the light of Your face shine on us.
Let my generation catch a TRUE GLIMPSE of YOUR GLORY.

Spiritual Warfare: Be Equipped

The Devil, the roaring lion is on the loose you gotta beware of the things he's trying to do. Because his lair is everywhere thats not been sanctified through and through by the Spirit of truth.The principalities of the world desecarte God's holy temple as in all the people of the world filling their mind, heart souls with countless ideologies mythologies and philosophies. Even what that call scientific fact is most of the time whack, illusions and delusions made up by our fallen mind. I walk through the halls and enter a Spiritual relm where it seems like the light is way to dim to be found because all around are people promoting their gods: from parties, charities, politics, hobbies, concerts to down right frauds. Just the other day walking round York, I saw a huge sign telling people that Christ didn't die, that it was all a lie. People started crowding around, angry especially those that didn't believe because even at the mention of His Name it causes people's souls to feel displeased. Yelling came from a man whos god was liberalism telling off the Muslims to stop stepping on other people's religion.

Spiritual warefare is all around you need to stay awake, be sober minded or you'll drown in the dissipations and day to day tribulations of the world's passions. Many are sleeping and its time to awake, the hour of our salvation is closer than when we first believed. Don't be deceived! Awake O sleeper and Christ will live in you and through you to transform you.

Stand watch on the towers of Zion don't rest until the Lord sends His powerful legions in to the dark regions where spiritual forces are holding the people up and locking down their souls. Call on His name until the Warrior arises and pushes back the forces of darkness with the sword of righteousness.

So soldier you need to be equipped lets go through the basics of what makes a Christian click.....

First things first don't involved in civilian affairs. If you are, then you gotta beware. The devils going to take your double minded heart and weight it down with troubles so that you can't even start.To be clearer, it means that everything else comes secondary to your primary objective. In fact you're so caught up in the work of Christ that you don't even notice or care too much about whats going on in the drama and problems of everyday life. When your not weighed down by the world's strifes then you can start to shine your light.

Lets talk about your basic battle gear. The Lord has a hosts of weapons that He wants to give if you can bear. You see armour is heavy to put on so you need the strength to wear it and the strength comes through PRAYER. Its like training for a long distance race, when you first start off you can barely pace, you quicky burn out and become a disgrace. But as you develop your body to persevere, your lungs start working better, your body more efficiently and soon you can run hard and fast without having to struggle and gasp every step you take.

The breast plate of righteousness covers most of your body, most importantly your heart which is where the enemy wants to pierce so dearly. So its important that you're living a life that is HOLY. If your not living a life separate for God, as soon as you take a step on the field your quickly picked off.But if you got your breast plate on, you can walk boldly and shamelessly out on the field. You don't have to be afriad of anything the enemy has to wield. A righteousness life is what convicts and guards your rep from the devils tricks.

Don't leave your house without you're shield of faith. Its the very thing that will keep you safe. With your shield you can push the enemy back as well as repell his evil attacks. You see, the firey darts of doubt and fear can maime you and if you don't have your shield the flames are going to burn you. With just a little faith you can go a long way breaking through the ranks that can't seemed to be swayed.

Remember to put on your belt of truth. Without it, everything else will fall through the roof. It holds your armour together making everything stick without it, your faith will grow horribly SICK! Holding on to truth is what we need to do because a misplaced faith are like holes in the shield, letting arrows pass through causing us to yield. For example, just the otherday a sister in the faith made a horrible mistake. A part of her faith wasn't on proper doctrine, the devil took the chance to try to take her out, placed some serious doubts. It got to the point where she broke down starting crying "God doesn't exist so why I'm I even trying?" But by the grace of God she got back up because of faithful soldiers who were there to back her up. While we're on that point its extremely important that we don't give up meeting, a cord of three strands is not easily beaten. Praying and worshiping together regularly is the very thing that gives us Spiritual vitality. Petitioning for the each other will keep the devil off our shoulders so that we can grow bolder and not be smoldered by falling into sin.

The next thing we need is feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace.As we come to understand the full extent of the gospel from the glory of God, judgement, our depravity, the flames of hell to His tender love, grace and mercy, ours hearts are melted and molded in humilty. The pride that we hold burned away through His Words of purity. The change character is what will allow us to use our feet to speak, work and move effectively and with urgency.

We can't forget the helmet of Salvation we receive this through Christ's propitiation. It protects us from the fatal blows to our heads that are meant strike us dead! Salvation is forever, because of the cross nothing can ever separate us from the love of God. We can be struck down but not destroyed persecuted not abandoned. We can get back up and keep fighting again no matter how many times we get beat up.

The Sword of the Spirit, the Word of God is what we have to rebuke the other false gods. For it to be effective you have to let it do its work. Remember its double edged, it needs to pierce through you and change you before it can use you to shine into the hearts of the lost. Then when the enemy attacks with his sword of lies then bang bang bang you can meet them stroke for stroke you can fend them off clag clang clang and slice through and expose the illusions and strongholds of their soul.

The last thing that needs to be addressed is how to pray in the SPIRIT... well the truth is that it comes with living in holiness. Remember the body is the temple of God, so the Spirit dwells in our heart, mind and soul. But you see we can easily quench the Spirits flame if we decide to fill the temple with things that descrate His Name. Remember God dwelled with His people in the desert? The people could be seen with the glory of God with them, but they had to stay CLEAN!

In the same way the biblical concept still applies today! The things that you watch, to what you do with your time, to the friends that you have you gotta be careful. cuz honestly 99% of the stuff on TV belongs in the trash. Its easy to tune out the voice of truth amidst the many temptations of youth. As we get rid of the other voices outside then we can start to hear the one voice that lives inside that will counsel and teach us how pray in truth.

are you ready to fight the fight to run the race? Its not easy it will take all your might and you'll lose all your rights but its worth it because its for Jesus Christ~
(Ephesians 6)

O God

my depravity is becoming greater and greater in my conscious reality.
it reaches the heavens like a stench in the sky.
im amazed and dumbfounded that I haven't been squashed like a fly.
So I looked around and start to see that we are all like dust on a scale.
and honestly our pride is bigger than that of a whale.
All of us put together is like a single breathe
but when asked to give thanks to the Creator, we won't even confess
When we compare ourselves to the eternal God who doesn't need to rest
We always get tired, thirsty and hungry its clear that were a mess
Our life is like a vapour thats quicky blown away
but to God 1000 years is like a second, even less than a day
Yet we go on with our lives we say to the potter that we are not the clay
but that everything happened without a Creator's say.

I eat the dust like a worm on the ground.
Even though I know I was once lost and I'm now found
When I think about these facts its hard to get my mind around it
cuz most of the time I'm still confounded
that I'm still so blinded to the glorious God who saved me and is all around me.
but that a part of me still doesn't want to give Him the glory.
I am poor and needy I got nothing good on my own.
The things that I have, I have from crying before His gracious throne
Im amazed that He is so generous every time I ask, He gives charging no interest and responds super fast!
He is faithful to the end, even when I'm not. Its clear that without His love my thirsty soul would rot.

My knees hit the floor before the King of Glory, My heart jumps for joy, thrilled to be a part of His story. My soul longs for more as I gaze at His beauty. He's the one treasure that I've been looking for.

Random Updates.

I needed a place to pray, except the Muslims took over all the rooms so I decided to sit on a bench and pray behind a Muslim booth trying to convert people. I was there praying and singing for one hour. When your in the spirit nothing really seems to matter to you anymore so I was sorta surprised when I Muslim guy asked me what I was doing and I happily told him the gospel. Except the pharisaical spirit blocked it from true understanding...its the same when talking to all Muslims. If your not equiped the spirit seriously causes you to feel weak and doubt A LOT. My friend told me thats her experience whenever she talks to them (my friend is still new in the faith). The theological points she gets right but its just serious spiritual attack cuz they always throw the same arugment from man's wisdom which is:

1. How can Jesus be God and man?
2. The bible is distorted and altered how can you know its 100% true?

What sorta scared me is that the spirit of the Muslims is rampant in the Chinese Church.

What else?

hmmm well here are a few verses that have been speaking to me:

From Jeremiah:

10 To whom can I speak and give warning?
Who will listen to me?
Their ears are closed[a]
so they cannot hear.
The word of the LORD is offensive to them;
they find no pleasure in it.
Chapter 6.

11"They heal the brokenness of the daughter of My people superficially,
Saying, 'Peace, peace,'
But there is no peace.

20"Harvest is past, summer is ended,
And we are not saved."
Chapter 8

From Isaiah

13But the word of the LORD was unto them precept upon precept, precept upon precept; line upon line, line upon line; here a little, and there a little; that they might go, and fall backward, and be broken, and snared, and taken.

17Judgment also will I lay to the line, and righteousness to the plummet: and the hail shall sweep away the refuge of lies, and the waters shall overflow the hiding place.
Chapter 28

9For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.
Chapter 55

1Behold, the LORD's hand is not shortened, that it cannot save; neither his ear heavy, that it cannot hear: 2But your iniquities have separated between you and your God, and your sins have hid his face from you, that he will not hear.
Chapter 59

19The sun shall be no more thy light by day; neither for brightness shall the moon give light unto thee: but the LORD shall be unto thee an everlasting light, and thy God thy glory.20Thy sun shall no more go down; neither shall thy moon withdraw itself: for the LORD shall be thine everlasting light, and the days of thy mourning shall be ended.
Chapter 60

6On your walls, O Jerusalem, I have appointed watchmen;
All day and all night they will never keep silent
You who remind the LORD, take no rest for yourselves;
7And give Him no rest until He establishes
And makes Jerusalem a praise in the earth.
Chapter 62

7Before she travailed, she brought forth; before her pain came, she was delivered of a man child.8Who hath heard such a thing? who hath seen such things? Shall the earth be made to bring forth in one day? or shall a nation be born at once? for as soon as Zion travailed, she brought forth her children.9Shall I bring to the birth, and not cause to bring forth? saith the LORD: shall I cause to bring forth, and shut the womb? saith thy God.
Chapter 66