The best part of my day is when I take time to be still before God.
I love it. I learn so much and I feel energized just being able to be in His presence.
Today I was getting really worried about the bible studies I had to prepare: I didn't feel like they were that good, that they were too complicated, the youth wouldn't get it, it wasn't based on the bible enough. So I decided to pray and go for a walk.
The thing is I couldn't hear God. I knew I had to be silent but the thoughts kept coming and coming. It took me a long time to able to hear His voice. Finally I was able to calm down and sit and enjoy God.
It was then I realized a few things.
1. I was so focused on performance that the youth would GET IT and hear God speak that I forgot that it wasn't up too me how things turned out. It was up to God. My job was just to do it to the best of my ability.
2. Why do I have to wait for devo time to connect with God? Shouldn't I be constantly connected and talking to Him throughout the day? It's easy to be still when your intentional, but so much harder to be still when your doing your day to day activities.
I finished reading "The Beautiful Disappointment"
The last chapters talked about "the idol of busyness"
How our society is addicted to it. We are important when we have a full schedule and have things to DO. We're always texting or checking emails on our PDA's, listening to our ipod's, on the computer etc. We're doing a lot of ....nothing. We need to chill.
I want to be able to find God amidst the noise of life. Cuz when I'm not life isn't as awesome.
