So like always before I go into a new missionfield God owns me.
I was owned, and I feel really sad, confused, hurt, frustrated with myself and unsatisfied. But at the same time the Peace of Christ is within me.
God calls us to reconcile and to be at harmony with our brothers and sisters, before we come to His altar.
23"Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, 24leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift.
Matthew 5:23-24
I have taken the first step but the hard part is just beginning. I know that God is on my side for this one though, so I know that it will work out by His grace, love and goodness.
The owning comes after that, with what I expected and wanted after and what the other reconcile-ee wanted. They were different.
BUT in the end I realized that it was NOT about what I or what the reconcile-ee wanted. It was about God, His plan and what He wanted. HIS GOOD AND PERFECT PLAN for all of us; His Will.
With that I was able to give up on my dreams and plans because I knew that there's was nothing I can do about what has already happened. What I can do is trust in God that His way is perfect and to move on to keep striving to be more Christ-like in every aspect of my life.
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11
God wants to PROSPER ME!
WOW he wants to PROSPER YOU
ITS IN HIS PLAN!
GOD IS GOOD
You are good, and what you do is good;
teach me your decrees.
Psalm 119:68
I know that whatever He's got in store for me its WAY better than what I have planned x839580258059 and beyond.
Right now it might not be great but I KNOW it will be beyond what my small mind can fathom or grasp.
