Went to staff worship again today.
The message: To be there, to mourn and to listen
A lot of times when we go on missions trips or ministry we think that we are the "saviours" going in to heal the broken people. We go in with arrogance and sometimes do more damage than good. In order to help hurting people we need to understand them to listen to them and to be able to have compassion towards them. Compassion can only be gained when we realize our own brokenness. In the end we don't do the saving we just point to the One who can save.
After service we had a prayer time. I didn't pray I just prayed with the people in my group.
One of the supervisors brought a friend that was visiting from Edmonton, Candy.(they haven't seen each other in 6 years)
Short hair with streaks of blue pieced nose and under lip stud. SOO COOL!
Candy was leaving today, so Duane being the unique guy he is wanted to know a little about her before she left. He started asking random questions and we started talking.
We found out that she was 23 years old, divorced 3 years ago and was a security guard.
Shes a good fighter (something she picked up while being married to her ex-husband)
Her family is Jehovah's Witness and She was kicked out of her house at 17 after leaving the faith. Her dad will not speak to her but her mother still does.
She wants to learn guitar(she has three but doesn't play) and work on a cruise ship.
She loves it in Toronto and is moving down in January.
She told us that seeing Urban Promise opened her eyes to a world of "religion" she never knew about. Growing up in as a Jehovah's Witness she was skeptical because of the hypocrisy she saw. I could tell that seeing the love of God in UP really touched her. It was awesome seeing the seeds that God is sowing in her life.
Did some planning with my supervisor. I feel like planning for KNA all over again. Except with younger kids. We got a good foundation going.
Starting by focusing on "Relationships."
Shawn decided to let me prepare the first bible study. He usually does it for a month before turning it to the intern but he thought that I could handle it and He asked soo....I guess I'm doing this.
"Relationship with God"
YO that's a big topic pray for this.
Cuz I mean I don't even get it :S How am I going to teach on what having a relationship with God when I'm still figuring out what that means? (aren't we all?)
Another question:
Who am I?
I'm still reading "The Beautiful Disappointment"
One of the points: How much of you is shaped by the world? Shaped by the "idols" in your life? Pride, self ambition, need for acceptance?
and How much by God?
I want to be the person that God made me
but that can only happen with suffering, trials, pain
To get rid of the things that keep me from knowing God more and what He has to say to me.
____________________________________________________________________________
After one long week of isolation I finally felt it was ok to go visit a friend.
Especially since it was on my way home and my meeting ended early.
Right when I walked in she happened to have left class and had nothing to do.
I feel like that was God saying "OK you deserve a break"
Each friend I have is a blessing
I want to see people the way God does
To see each Christians as my brothers and sisters in Christ first; ABOVE all else.
and to see the people who don't know God as lost brothers and sisters who need to know Him.
"OOO We need need each other"
- Sanctus Real
We were created for relationships
God created the world in 6 days and after each day it was GOOD
but after God created man He said "it is not good for man to be alone"
(another point in the message today)
Pray that I can keep Christ as the centre of my life.
Sometimes you THINK He is but really He's not its soo easy to lose focus.
