So today was the first official "day off"
didn't do much
slept in a bit went downtown and hung out
Parents wanted to visit tomorrow but I had to ask them not too
YES its mean I know, but I feel that God wants me to go 100% in the new life he put me in. So that means treating it as if I'm on missions far away.
MAYBE later on after I get used to things I can start to visit a little bit.
but for now only during Thanksgiving and Christmas will I come home.
Also started reading "The Beautiful Disappointment" by Colin McCartney (the Founder of UP Toronto) It is really relevant to what I am going through and also what I will need to know for the future. I thought I was going through I hard time, but he makes it look like its nothing >.<
Did a lot of thinking today: You know how sometimes you look back a few years and you realize "wow God has really changed me a lot since then"
I want God to change me so much that I don't even notice that He has changed me.
That way I can't get cocky about how much I have grown and God gets all the glory.
I think I'm going crazy getting very paranoid about things 0.o I need to calm down.
