Sunday, March 21, 2010

The Voices

In my head are driving me crazy.
Which one is the right one?

I have been charged to be the voice of God in a godless world
There is so much weight, a burden but also freedom and joy in knowing the truth.
I will be held accountable for what I say and do not say.
Either way I'm screwed

Father forgive me because I know that I cannot do this. I will fall short of your expectations.

Strengthen me, help me let me be able to discern your still small Voice amidst the chaos. For it is only by your grace alone that I can do this.

Let me find rest in Your presence.

The voice of the evil one seems SOO RIGHT
darkness masquerading as light
I walk a very fine line.

The spiritual world is SOO real. I thought that it was only a temporary thing but everywhere I go now. I sense things almost see but not really. I dunno its confusing.

At church today I wanted to cry because there was such oppression in the congregation. A barrier preventing them from worshiping. My heart wished that they would truly be able to SEE with unveiled eyes and give PRAISE to God for what He has done for us.

Much prayers are needed please. It is by them that God has brought me this far.
I want to be an instrument of God not the devil.
Thank- you.

May I be humble and do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit.
Father forgive for the times that I do.

I'm starting to feel and see that wherever I go God has already prepared work for me to do and really I don't have to do anything but be there.

God is working
We must be diligent in prayer.
Laboring in it
Struggling in it.

Praise be to His Name
Forever and ever

Amen