Due to a lot of safety regulations and rules Urban Promise had to let me go as an Intern. I have a week to move out of the apartment. So its been pretty crazy trying to figure out how to say good-bye to my kids and the Urban Promise family. I sorta felt it coming definitely a divine intervention. I just knew that it was going to happen. A problem I was facing was balancing TC Media and UP. Two big ministry events overlapped for both of them: Retreat and The actually TC. So I was praying about it I knew UP was my first commitment so I gave media a heads up about not being there the weekend before and the first morning of TC. I knew that it was in God's hands, so things worked out in that way.... short term anyways.
So what am I going to do for the long term, the next phase of my life? No clue.
I love the uncertainty though. I thought God was close to me before but now its like crazy.
I realized as I was praying that I always expected to go to university but I never really asked God if that was where He wanted me to go to serve Him. So for now its just intense fast and pray.
A question I have always asked myself:
Does God have a specific will for my life?
or
Does He give me a lot of freedom to choose? Maybe he gives us freedom but He actually has a specific will for you if you choose to seek it out enough. A lot of people just assume or only limit God and leave things up to Him within social rules set up by the culture.
ex.You have to go to university, which university should I go to?
that sounds wrong to me I mean if we really have given our lives to Him that means everything.
Well w/e I'm gonna pray and see what happens. Making choices is scary but that's the beauty of being human. Its a gift. I make the choice to give God the choice and then to obey it.
I want more
I want to see the faith I read about in the word come to life right here right now.
I want to see God bring my city back to Him
I want the glory and majesty of the King to be made manifest for all to see.
I want to declare His Name to the Earth.
Let all the nations worship Him.
