I'm feeling very very sad right now. I really really want to be able to worship you and sing about how AWESOME You are but I feel like I can't. I just feel like there's huge barrier keeping us from you when we worship. It makes me want to cry because I want soo badly for people to experience Your presence, how good You really are to us cuz I know that if they could just get that glimpse, a taste of You then they wouldn't care so much about other things cuz all they would want is You and they'd be soo much happier cuz they'll see that Your really all that they needed and everything else is just extra and then they'll praise you even more. It hurts me to see the people I know not really seeking you wholeheartedly. They're missing out on soo much and.... they're hurting themselves. I don't want them to live in sin anymore. I want them to REALLY REALLY REALLY want to be GOOD and then see how GOOD it is to be good. I don't want them to think that they're good enough cuz there's soo much more. They're your children God so don't leave them like this. I ask that you would break them if it needed it. I ask that you smash this church and shake its foundations if it would truly bring us back to You. Don't let us die like this. I don't think I can take it much longer ='( I just want to be able to chill and suddenly start SHOUTING your praise and not be looked at weird. To have your Spirit fill us with Your Joy, peace and Love every time we hangout as your children. I want people to stop trying to "do church" and really BE the church. I want us to be so filled with your presence that we WANT to love those around us. I'm crying God please hear me. we don't deserve it but we NEED You so much. We need your LOVE. So I'm praying on behalf of my church, please please please come do something!
Forgive us of our sins. We don't want to do those things anymore. We're REALLY sorry we don't get how stupid we are.
God I feel alone so please give me some help. I don't know what to do.
In Jesus Name,
Amen
