So today I came up with a sharing well basically sermon
and I prayed and read my bible
and then went to fellowship
I want to do so much more but I can`t
I want people to have the light of Christ shine in them to be filled with joy
and to worship freely!!!!
but I can`t do anything
It makes me frustrated
and one part of me really wants it but the other wants to stay where I am
I had a strong urge to just talk to a guy at the bus stop today and share the gospel with him but I didn`t I kept putting it off and so it didn`t happen
and then the whole time I was regretting it so much cuz if I`m not spreading the gospel than I`m wasting time and my life away. For serious sigh*
Revelation 20
The Thousand Years
1And I saw an angel coming down out of heaven, having the key to the Abyss and holding in his hand a great chain. 2He seized the dragon, that ancient serpent, who is the devil, or Satan, and bound him for a thousand years. 3He threw him into the Abyss, and locked and sealed it over him, to keep him from deceiving the nations anymore until the thousand years were ended. After that, he must be set free for a short time.
4I saw thrones on which were seated those who had been given authority to judge. And I saw the souls of those who had been beheaded because of their testimony for Jesus and because of the word of God. They had not worshiped the beast or his image and had not received his mark on their foreheads or their hands. They came to life and reigned with Christ a thousand years. 5(The rest of the dead did not come to life until the thousand years were ended.) This is the first resurrection. 6Blessed and holy are those who have part in the first resurrection. The second death has no power over them, but they will be priests of God and of Christ and will reign with him for a thousand years.
So I guess right now I`m not gonna be reigning with Christ and be part of the first resurrection. Is it that bad to not be.... well only when I get there and realize that I won`t be reigning will I be like efff should`ve done more for Christ.
Its not that I don`t love God, I do I dunno I just sigh*
Aren`t we all in that boat except for the few blessed who went all out and are now with Christ and honored above everything save God Himself.
getting shot in the head....hmmm hey they wouldn`t be that bad no pain and martyrdom pretty good deal I would probably take that if it ever came down to that
but please not the stomach or the lungs (shiver)
I don`t think its healthy to be thinking like this 0.o
but lets be honest we all do.
