Sometimes it seems like God has no place is some parts of life.
Its hard to see how God is part of those things. Its hard to follow intangible commands.
Love your neighbor
but really HOW can we love
how do we love?
Little acts of kindness?
What makes God's love sooo much more than humanistic love?
Really there's a fine line?
or is there?
Sometimes people can be caring and understanding
and other times soo cruel.
Today was piano solo day................ and I didn't really do too well on mine.
I was really upset and sad. It seems like something so stupid to be sad over but I am human.
I guess I practiced so hard and my performance fell short of my expectations. I am quite the perfectionist when it comes to art that matters to me.
I don't know what happened i was just really emo and yea it sort of made me mad that I couldn't help being sad acting sad. ( I didn't want to look weak)
But one thing that stuck out to me was the way my friends really showed that they cared for me. They clearly knew I was upset and they actually tried to and managed to make me feel better.
The weird thing is it never occurred that they cared about how I felt 0.o
(damn i sound like a girl)
At the same time my friends are also the people who sit around and make fun of this one kid in my piano class. They say some really nasty things. Things that make me sad LOL.
I think in my mind I sort of create a false image of what people who don't know God are like.
I always think of ME giving giving giving God's Love. I forget that in essence humans were created to love. Its something that is supposed to be natural. I mean we're always looking to find our "true love" "soul mate" We want to start a family so we can love and share our love. We hear expressions like having a kid is the greatest joy in life and then we hear the parents complaining about the whining kid. But even through that there is this JOY in loving a child.
I was watching gossip girl and I think it was really able to portray what the love of family SHOULD be like.
So we do have this knowledge, expectation of what love is. Yet so many of us fall short of that ideal.
As I was thinking about the question of "Where is God in all of this?"
I sort of realized: God is in all creation. God shows himself through the wonders of the world. We take for granted the smallest things which actually are soo complicated it just blows me away. PEOPLE were created in the IMAGE of GOD.
I'm not saying that we are God but we can see a little but of God through us.
BUT the problem is SIN.
SIN is what taints who were created to be its what clouds the "Godliness in us"
Its what covers up what God wanted us to see.
Something that was once soo simple to see is now covered in dirt. It becomes hard to make out what it originally was.
Like painting covered in dirt.
The more we sin the more we get covered in dirt. The harder it is to see good things. The things God had in store for us.
In the world today we can see soo many GOOD things and we can see soo many BAD things.
Some of the things the artist had in mind can still be seen CLEARLY
some of those things are a little clouded.
Some of those things are covered in black altogether.
Let me use LOVE as an example:
Love exists but some of the love is twisted in ways that well make it a little disturbing
Unrequited Love (Love is supposed to go both ways but sometimes.... well its sad)
Conditional Love (I'll only love you as long as......) of course we say we love them forever but please the amount of couples who actually last 10 years like less and less
Animal love (you know what i mean not like having a pet but like those people who marry animals and have sex with them)
Gay Love ( a hard issue to explain in this blog maybe i will later or i could do another blog on it)
Love that was once good turned bad
Fathers rapping their daughter while the mother does nothing (saw it on House)
Children stealing for their parents
Parents loving one child more than the other (happens a lot it really does screw up a kids self image)
Kids killing their parents
HATE is love but messed up to the worst level
because really you can't hate if you haven't loved because you simply wouldn't care about a person enough to hate them if you haven't love. (i stole it from Rachel Hon what a smart girl)
I can go on all day. not just with love but with other things like The environment, Music, sports, Fear, science, EVERYTHING
But hopefully you get the point of
God is EVERYWHERE
but SIN is what clouds Him from being seen.....
SIN= UNNATURAL, messes up life.
as Christians we are the ones who show "The light"
The way it supposed to be.
LOVE in the way that God wanted
and the idea is that people will sorta of see that the way its supposed to be is really the way they want it to be because its whats supposed to be natural.
