I did not think cuz I always thought that this was the way it was gonna be.
Still a part of me hoped that maybe.
I guess I didn't realize until it was too late
But really would I have done anything different?
NO
Because I know that there are greater things; I made my choice
Right now it hurts after all I am only human I have feelings too.
So many times I debated and questioned myself is it REAL?
And now I know the answer: IT IS REAL.
I think I understand just a little of how God feels.
and i know that he is GOOD
but it hurts
Two parts of myself.
One screams YES LORD
the other screams in AGONY
yet another is waiting patiently
and the other is questioning why this is happening.
TRUST and FAITH are put to the test.
I really care about you and so I leave you in God's hands
because he knows better.
I also leave myself in God's hands because really I have nothing if I don't keep going.
If I give up.....but no I won't
Even though I am weak He gives me strength to Love.
I SCREAM in PAIN
YET I am at peace.
