It seems I'm always sooo burdened by a lot of things
worship in Koinonia isn't WORSHIP
Charis can't find a teacher supervisor
Koinonia doesn't have enough cell group leaders
PEOPLE ARE DYING everyday without knowing God
People are living everyday not knowing how their lives are meant for sooo much MORE
People are HURTING, CRYING OUT and desperately seeking GOD
but PEOPLE are too blinded, TRAPPED in stupid things that DON'T matter to see .....
PEOPLE ARE LIVING IN LIES, IN ILLUSIONS THAT ARE NOT TRUe that don't bring true satisfaction that only let them down ...
PEOPLE DON'T KNOW THAT GOD LOVES not "God loves" he LOVES them and that the one thing they seek is Him
My heart breaks every time I see another person let down and hurt because of a breakup
My heart hurts every time I see someone put their hope in one PERSON
because i know that their gona be hurt again and because i know that people can't satisfy people
MY heart just stops when I see these things happening to my friends because I LOVE these people SO much.
MY heart cries to hear them neglecting and rejecting the one thing that can FREE them
I worry and I stress day and night
but today I learned something
Lately I've been soo drained by life....
I seem to be empty at the end of each day in fact i seem to be going backward on the meter
I've also been sick (which makes it worse)
and I've also been struggling with my own SINS and my own battles (which we all have)
and I've been praying desperately for all the above. (everyday)
and it seemed like nothing was changing
but somehow SOMETHING inside me would give up something inside me wouldn't lose FAITH so I kept going
I would be reminded that God answers prayers (Matthew 7)
and as i kept praying God spoke to me
He was like telling me why was I so worried and stressed about all these things
What can I possibly do about it?
I CAN'T I'm just a man I dont have the power to change hearts I don't have the power to heal hurts.
LEAVE IT TO HIM he said he didn't ask me to save the nations
1 Peter 5:6-8
6Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
I shouldn't worry about things that I can't DO instead I should focus on the things I CAN do.(the present) When I worry about it it takes my focus away on IMPORTANT things ON REALITY
THE bible says dont worry about tomorrow cuz how is worrying gona change anything? (Matthew 6:25-34)
God was like do your best Its all I ask cuz your only human
Everything else leave it to me and trust theres some things your not gona see right way
and if you need help of course I'm there.
Proverbs 3:4-6
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.
The only thing that I can do is love each person in my life the way Jesus did.
The rest is up to God
