I have no clue if ground was taken today.
I actually sense like more problems came up.
We'll more like ground was taken but then a bunch of things we're thrown in to make things even harder to progress.
We just all need to stop judging and REALLY love with the love of God
sigh* myself included.
AHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHH
I`m actually feeling so alone and distraught basically I feel like I can`t trust anyone. I need to die to my right to be hurt so that I can love.
So a friend sent these two devos too me by Oswald Chambers
its like exactly what I am going through ATM
June 27: THE OVERSHADOWING PERSONAL DELIVERANCE
"I am with thee to deliver thee, saith the Lord."
Jeremiah 1:8
God promised Jeremiah that He would deliver him personally - "They life will I give unto thee for a prey." That is all God promises His children. Wherever God sends us, He will guard our lives. Our personal property and possessions are a matter of indifference, we have to sit loosely to all those things; if we do not, there will be panic and heartbreak and distress. That is the inwardness of the overshadowing of personal deliverance.
The Sermon on the Mount indicates that when we are on Jesus Christ's errands, there is no time to stand up for ourselves. Jesus says, in effect, Do not be bothered with whether you are being justly dealt with or not. To look for justice is a sign of deflection from devotion to Him. Never look for justice in this world, but never cease to give it. If we look for justice, we will begin to grouse and to indulge in the discontent of self-pity - Why should I be treated like this? If we are devoted to Jesus Christ we have nothing to do with what we meet, whether it is just or unjust. Jesus says - Go steadily on with what I have tld you to do and I will guard your life. If you try to guard it yourself, you remove yourself from My deliverance. The most devout among us become atheistic in this connection; we do not believe God, we enthrone common sense and tack the name of God on to it. We do lean to our own understanding, instead of trusting God with all our hearts.
June 28: APPREHENDED BY GOD
"If that I may apprehend that for which also I am apprehended."
Philippians 3:12
Never choose to be a worker; but when once God has put His call on you, wor be to you if you turn tot he right hand or to the left. We are not here to work for God because we have chosen to do so, but because God has apprehended us. There is never any thought of - "Oh, well, I am not fitted for this." What you are to preach is determined by God, not be your own natural inclinations. Keep your soul steadfastly related to God, and remember that you are called not to bear testimony only, but to preach the gospel, Every Christian must testify, but when it comes to the call to preach, there must be the agonizing grip of God's hand on you, your life is in the grip of God for that one thing. How many of us are held like that?
Never water down the word of God, preach it in its undiluted sternness; there must be unflinching loyalty to the word of God; but when you come to personal dealing with your fellow men, remember who you are - not a special being made up in heaven, but a sinner saved by grace.
"I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do. . . ."
