UHS coffeehouse was tonight and I really felt God working. He definitely gave people OPEN HEARTS which is what we were praying for so PTL. I was also able to speak with boldness and conviction =)
A girl who I was evangelizing to the other day came and yeah shes hugged me afterward so that was encouraging.
The one thing that is sorta driving me nuts is the fact that I didn't do an "altar call" or give a chance to respond. The reason for it was I didn't want it to be "I stand up" and now I'm saved type thing but I wanted it to be a true conversion from the heart. So I laid everything out and told the audience that if they wanted to know God they had to go to Him themselves and repent. Then the thought came into my head "Evangel maybe you didn't have enough faith" and because of that you didn't do the altar call and God could've worked but He didn't cuz you didn't give Him the chance
On the other hand I know that God works when He wants and it doesn't matter what I do or say so pretty prideful to say that God didn't work because I didn't do something but still I feel guilty for not having enough courage or faith (which is the reason why) and so BLAH over the idea that potentially people's lives could've of been changed.
I think I'm just more distressed over the fact that people's hearts are so hardened and I so desperately want to so see them come to the point where they let God into their lives and it kills me there are like 94049 barriers and I can sense them all so sometimes it makes me want to systematically rebuke each one and say JESUS
except I don't that would really work.
ok that's my rant
I'm just gonna pray more. sigh*
It bothers me how life can get so busy and that I can't just spend my time in prayer and reading the bible.
