We had a party today for one for of the interns and the topic of conversation that came up was marriage.
So here all the interns were talking about when they want to get married, how long they want to date for, what type of person they want to marry and where they want to go for their honeymoon.
I felt very out of place because I have no plans for the future. I'm just living life day to day trusting in God and where he takes me. It seems really pointless to me to make ANY sorta of plans, to even expect to get married or even live long enough to get to that stage in my life.
Do I want to get married? of course.
I want to experience the awesome thing God has created called marriage.
I want to love my hypothetical wife (LOL) so much that everyone is able to see the image of Christ's love for the church so that His name is glorified.
I want my "wife" to be the most loved woman on the face of the planet~
but this life is not mine.
I never thought that I would be blogging these words because a part of me wants to do a lot of things like get married and live a comfortable life.
But honestly I would rather have God and than anything else and if that means giving up good things than I guess I will have to do that although it will be hard.
"Without Him nothing is made that has been made"
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Learning soo much its hard to take it all in. Its like an explosion of candy and I'm trying to grab and hold on to as much as I can.
"give me the grace to do what you want me to do just when I need it"
I think this weekend back is going to be a huge challenge, the real test of my faith.
Can I rock what I got? or will I crash and burn?
I know that whatever happens one or the other God is going to be there.
