I think that I'm allergic to the secular culture... more like its death to my soul.
what I have learned is God's grace and faithfulness
13if we are faithless,
he will remain faithful,
for he cannot disown himself.
2 Timothy 2:13
so many times during the day I had to worship and call upon the name of the Lord. I wish I could've sung louder but I was in the middle of the most randomest places
7and if he rescued Lot, a righteous man, who was distressed by the filthy lives of lawless men 8(for that righteous man, living among them day after day, was tormented in his righteous soul by the lawless deeds he saw and heard)—
2 Peter 2:7-8
that is the story of my life everywhere I go.
My lack of prayer has killed my discernment and I have done some stupid things which I regret.
so today I lied in order to get a girls number for frosh bucks ....I have absolutely no excuse, it really scared me that I compromised so much.
and so many other things that I would only know because they are in my heart ......
My lack of prayer has been due mostly to fear and apathy
The more I pray the more I am changed and the more I am changed the more alone I feel. It also hurts like hell to pray, because when I do I am faced with the harsh spiritual realities that I would like to ignore. The problem is that I can't because I see it everywhere I ago. I see it just as much as I see physically. So what usually happens is that I try to ignore it until I get extremely overwhelmed and cry to the Lord.
Lord have mercy.
My only hope is in You
My soul find rest in You alone
