FIGHT!

Meditating on scripture is key to a victorious Christian life!
I have recently started really filling up myself with scripture and going it over in my head throughout the day. When I start to feel fear or defeated or whatever else. I meditate on it and really try to dig deep down into the meaning of the passage. Today the line that struck out to me was "one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all." Ephesians 4:6

I kept thinking about it trying to wrap my head around the idea that God is overall, through all and in all and what that meant. As I was doing it, suddenly I was filled with the Spirit and was given boldness and courage so I started praying and my prayers had POWER.

We have the Holy Spirit but the gateway that the allows the Holy Spirit to work is through the WORD it all works TOGETHER. The Word is your sword!! So if your unequipped you will be powerless on the battlefield. Satan is so much stronger than us. He has strongholds in our life that we're not even aware of. Thats why we need to FILL our life up with TRUTH and not things of the world. ex. TV shows , music (most of it), etc. Its all NOT of God because we live in a fallen world. A pagan society that worships everything BUT God. GET RID OF IT! STOP KILLING YOUR SOUL.

17"Therefore come out from them
and be separate, says the Lord.
Touch no unclean thing,
and I will receive you."
-2 Corinthians 6:17

15But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; 16for it is written: "Be holy, because I am holy."
1 Peter 1:15-16

I had two dreams last night both about people in my life who I knew.
One was an agnostic girl who I'm really good friends with. She goes to my church sometimes but doesn't really believe. In my dream I was sitting in a club with her facing a bar. She asked me "why don't you go get some drinks?" I started explaining to her how I wasn't into that stuff. She was listening to what I had to say and then suddenly she broke down in my arms and started confessing her brokenness to me.(don't want to go into details)

This really opened my eyes up to the people around me. I knew of her family situation before but whenever we talked about it she would always be so cool about it. I've been praying for her for A LONG time and I guess I never saw her as a broken person ...just a person who had a hardened heart against God and wanted to party all the time. I knew she was broken but I didn't understand or feel it. As fallen people one of our greatest sins is apathy.

The next dream I had was about a girl in my church who is a Christian. In the dream were talking and the Spirit started to move in her heart. She was starting to talk about her brokenness in her relationship with her father and how he abandoned her and all the hate and resentment she had towards him. I was probing her, encouraging her to keep going to fight through it and give in all to The Lord but something was holding her back spiritually. Justin To was beside me the Spirit moved in his heart and he started to pray in tongues interceding for her.

Within the church there are so many brothers and sisters CRYING for support. The evil one wants to suppress them to keep them in a state of infant faith so they don't grow strong and start doing WORK for the Kingdom. There are so few within my own church that have a solid group. Its our job to be an example to lead others in the direction of open fellowship and vulnerability before God. We can't do everything but we do what we can. We need courage to stand and the courage can only come if you immerse yourself in the Word or else your useless, a fallen soldier or noob soldier.

This is a battlefield. Its no game. When you pray you pray for the Kingdom and whatever will bring the most Glory to God. You see the dire situations around you. You see people falling left, right and center and you PRAY for help your PRAY your heart out and then you GO in POWER to be salt and light. (easier said than done, its definitely a long process that we all go through)

Something that God has really convicted me of is my prayer life. To REALLY start praying and not to just give MY daily itinerary and problems and ask God to fix them for me. To cry out on behalf of those who have no voice in front of the Throne of Grace.

As I continue to mature in the Lord I am slowly being filled with more courage and boldness, but I also have times when I'm paralyzed by fear unable to move forward.

I hope you know I say ALL these things in love because I want you to see more clearly and through the lies of the god of this age. Don't feel discouraged! We are all growing and God is working in us to grow. However, DON'T use that as an excuse to be complacent. NO you MUST take up your cross DAILY and have faith. Its a two way thing.

Keeping praying for me please!
God is turning up the heat.........always hotter no rest. T_T"

Love,
Evangel

Some Cares

My heart is full of fear
Soo scared
Too many burdens to share
The heart of my Father I hear
Do I dare to care?
Or will I pretend to be unaware
Father this more than I can bear
There's so many people out there....
and I fear that they won't be able to hear
so please OPEN they're ears.

Its awesome having a relationship with God
but His heart is just soo big its overwhelming.
It makes me feel so helpless. All I can do is pray.
I want to do more but I know that in the end I can't do anything.
Which is comforting and unsettling at the same time.

Words

So I'm here laying in bed
Trying to get these rhymes out of my head
Suddenly inspired by the Holy fire
Got a few things that I feel convicted to say
Not gonna get rest till He has His way
Never thought words could come this
Maybe It'll only be heard like this.

stop trying to save face
just look to his amazing grace
no more pride
stop trying to hide
cuz deep inside
We're all deprived
The steeple is place for broken people
To come cry to the Living God
To turn away from all the idol frauds
To worship the great Physician
But now we worship the music and musicians
The church is spinning out of control
Our faith thrown to and fro

In debt we're spending more than we can get
The market temple that He drove out
We raised back up because of doubt
Twisting the will of our Heavenly Father
The way we are going our souls will be slaughtered

In the congregational worship
It ain't no worship
Dead souls sitting in pews
Live souls barely getting through
We're getting abused
Using comfort as an excuse
We could so much more if we actually KNEW
Who we were living for!

The banner in our hall says it all
a house of prayer for all the nations
Except we only got one nation in here
Don't even get me started on prayer
is it cuz we fear too much?
We're Markham Chinese Baptist Church
But I don't see Jesus discriminating
So why are we so hating?

Back in the day all the believers did was meet together to pray
Every single day
What happened to that?
Where did things go whack?
Prayer meetings keep getting reduced
There is no excuse

This ain't no church
Its a social convention
Disguised in the name of Heaven
As a church we're a disgrace
before God we should have no face
But thank Him for His amazing grace.

So I pray that you change these heart of stone to hearts of flesh
hearts of stone to hearts of flesh
hearts of stone to hearts of flesh
hearts of stone to hearts of flesh
YES YES YES

Only you can change
Rearrange a revival in Jesus' name
We have no rights
but He's given us the right
so come stand up and fight
Take back the temple that is rightfully yours
Bought by the blood of Jesus our Lord
WORSHIP UNASHAMED
FOR THE GLORY OF JESUS NAME!
FOR HE ALREADY REIGNS!

and please don't get me wrong I'm doing this in love
Cuz I want you to truly experience HIS love

(Just some thoughts that have been on my head for while. Tell me what you think. It wasn't divinely given or anything just to clear that up. It sorta just worked with the whole rhyming thing that I had going >.<)

Evangelizing

Yesterday I felt really convicted to evangelize in public. So I decided to go to the high school near my house. I was actually scared as hell. A million scenarios popped into my head. One of them went something like this:

I'm preaching the gospel. Suddenly a gang of guys come up to me and say "Stop preaching Jesus" In an malicious angry tone. I don't stop, instead I continue to preach the gospel because I want them to know God. They surround me and beat me to a pulp. They decide to kidnap me and see if they can make me renounce my faith. I'm tied up to a chair they tell me "Do you believe in Jesus?" I answer In a a quiet voice "yes" They slowly cut one of my fingers off. I start begging for mercy maybe these men will show some kindness......

Lets stop there shall we?

Fear traps me, paralyzes me.
I fear the price I might have to pay one day for my faith
I also fear falling short of the expectations of being a follower of Christ.

At home I decided to rehearse what I would say to people, as if I were open air preaching on the streets. I rehearsed a quick 1-2 minute mini sermon that encapsulates the core of the Gospel. I never ended up evangelizing openly in public though. Instead I prayed over the school and decided to sit down by the back of the school and tell everyone who passed by me "Hey Did you know that God loves you?"

I got a smirks, laughs, people ignoring me, dirty looks, talking to me like I was crazy, angry atheists telling me there is no God, others yelling at me telling me that there business with God is between them and God and that I should stay out of it.

What I saw were broken people with hardened hearts.
It hurt me when I was insulted but what hurt me more was that these people rejected this truth so easily and didn't even think twice about HOW AWESOME THAT IS! It drove me crazy that they're lives could be changed in an INSTANT that there was something so much better if they just believed! Its something so SIMPLE yet SO HARD.

There were a few who were accepting, some who actually took everything to heart and some who had a different view of God yet listened to mine. You scatter seed and can literally tell what kind of soil it lands on and all you can do is pray to God that He makes it grow. That He takes out the weeds and protects it.

Suddenly everyone walking around me was in need of God. Every person who passed by me was trapped and crying out but didn't want to be saved or maybe they did but there was no one to TELL them.

I went to church and had to try soo frigging hard not to cry.
At the end of the day its only God who can change hearts
and its makes me wonder why did he choose to save me?
I'm no different than any of those people out there......

J.O.Y.

Jesus owns you (literally)
So I was reading my bible yesterday (John 4:43-54, John 5:16-30) and today and that is what the Spirit taught me.

Except I actually felt Him owning me at the same time
I felt His presence inside of me commanding my obedience
I felt the sinful part of me fighting not wanting to listen.
and I felt my heart wanting to be obedient.

The truth is God owns our lives.
His very presence commands our obedience.
When Jesus exercises His divine authority over creation, everything/one will bow down before Him and worship Him. Period. The end.

There is no escape.

For the unbeliever they will do this out of fear and because they're being forced too
For the believer they will do it out of love, gratitude and the healthy fear we should all have towards God.

As sinful people we're uncomfortable with this truth.
But as God works in our hearts He'll take us to a place where we're ok with it.
Jesus was completely submissive to the Father. Just like we should be!

Fellowship of Believers

OK so praying together as a body helps boost your Spiritual walk with God so0oo0o much
especially if your stuck.
Its almost impossible to do it alone without a solid group of believers. The more the better each can help you so much in the unique way that God created them
Which is COOL.

Ok so this concept got brought up today during small group sharing in our discipleship class. Bringing any decision you make to the body of believers to be lifted up in prayer A lot of the time God can and will use others to help confirm His will instead of you trying to figure it out on your own.

At first I was like
"Hmm sound a little cult like"
but when I really thought about it, it made so much sense.
We are the body so any life decision we make will influence the spiritual condition of the rest of the body in one way or another. Now as a whole body we are all connected to the head (Christ) so we work together to discern what the will of the head is for each other.

A lot of the time God can and will use others to help confirm His will instead of you trying to figure it out on your own. Which lets admit is blah.
Just bringing things up to others can open up your eyes to so many more perspectives that helps you get a better understanding of the bigger picture. There should always be a general direction and confirmation among fellow believers.

Wouldn't God be able to do so much more for the Glory of His name if we lifted up all our decisions to Him? Things like:

What university should I go to?
Where should I work?
Do you even want me to go to university?
What ministries should I be a part of?
Should I buy a new car?
Should I buy a house?
Should I start a relationship with this person?

Sound a bit to out there?
hmm I dunno if were suppoed to give our WHOLE lives to God
Then Hey makes a lot of sense to me.

I believe that God works with what we give Him
So if we give Him that much more He will WORK that much more!
What do you guys think?

Last thought:
God is able to smash through so much more when believers gather
and really cry out to God in prayer and seek Him out together!

Struggles

I'm starting to get a little of how Elijah felt.
I'm probably nowhere even close.
How the heck did he do it?
Man I wish I could love God more to really be able to give everything up and live for Him 100%
God really does use the broken imperfect vessel.
Dang God is one big mystery I try not to think about how BIG He is except I can't help it.

What else can I do but worship Him and accept that He owns everything?
A part of me really hates that truth, but another part of me loves it and finds peace in it.

WOAH sanctification yooo heavy stuff. I'm caught in this weird inbetween the world of death and eternal life not really belonging to either well except I am going toward the latter somehow by the power of the Spirit.

Praise God for choosing me and keeping me for Himself, Cuz if I was left to fight for myself there would be hope of me entering His Kingdom.

ok I'm feeling soo disconnected right now
like cloud of darkness hovering over my soul.
I feel like I'm holding too many things back
I'm scared
I wish I could let it go
What is it?
I'm scared of.... having no one left but myself, of being hated by people in my church who aren't really Christian

A Prophet is a speaker of the truth of God, of the light of God
No one has every liked a prophet
No one likes the truth.
There's only one way.....

a Man of God can take nothing with him
He leaves it all behind
All for God
Father help me now
I'm dying.

Uphold me in your righteous right hand.
"Because he loves me says the Lord I will rescue him"

some prayers please.