I went on vacation after gospel night so to say.
I focused so much on the Lord up till that point because well I had a goal, a reason.
SO I grew a lot and then I was sorta disappointed because I expected so much more. So in my head I gave up because I started to compare myself to everyone
I told myself "well no one is even close to where I am" so why should should I feel left out?
So even though in my opinion gospel night ok but not amazing spiritually anyways but to everyone else it was awesome. I decided heck I should celebrate and start undisciplining myself which is what I ended up doing for the past 3 days and hence the blatant spiritual attacks of doom or actually less attacks cuz I got owned.
However amidst all of my unfaithfulness God has been faithfully yelling at me to start praying because I just stopped because theres just SO MUCH its ridiculous I think that someone is growing and they're actually not so it is very frustrating.
I'm a very get it done fast effectively type person tell people what they need to do and how they're not doing it and then take it or leave it.
Something that I have learned is that I could care for them and speak the words they need to hear or I could just say it cutting the extra stuff
(still out of love)
and it won't make a difference unless they take that step in they're own heart.
or the Spirit seriously works some mad conviction in them.
now some people say that if you have the relationship people will listen to you which is true but will they do it? nope.
because its easy to just end up "baby sitting" people when they need to grow up
and take up they're own cross instead of someone having to tell them to take it up and that is what I want to see.
hmmm what else?
we'll I will be completely honest
I see wrong and I get angry especially when someone has the wrong theology and is leading other people astray and are buying into it while living a godless life style. I have the hateful urge to tear them apart until they know they're place and stop trying to be teachers when they don't know jack.
of course the above is me on many points so I have no right.
except it really bugs me when someone tells other people wrong things. Its one thing to have a messed up view but another to cause people to fall with it.
Especially when all they do is talk but have no biblical backbone to support it so 99% of it is they're own opinion or experience which is flawed and then they pull out one little verse out of context to support they're belief and they may have completely good intention but its just wow there is still no excuse those who teach will be judged more strictly.
so example of this the last softball devo. It
went something like this:
1. God helps us
2. Hes the one who lifts us up so we can keep going
3. Sometimes He carries us through when we're stuck
4. God got me into university
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11
Yeah God helps us but no where does He promise for us to have a good family, get into a good school or help you get things in fact He says give up everything and follow me die to yourself.
The only thing God promises Christians is deliverance from sin.
Why didn't the apostles get a good job? they got beaten and persecuted.
so what God are these people serving?
