its hard to leave it in God's Hands
when you seem to have a better plan
but I guess thats how God works
He does what He wants
and when you to trust in Him it turns out soo much more than you hoped for or could imagine
not "trust" but when you leave every aspect of w/e your doing to him
and all you do is what you can do... which is not much
but most of all pray for whats in your heart pray continually unceasingly and God will hear your prayer
Only God can change lives, only God can open eye
Worship night was a test a battle in my soul
it was soo hard to trust
when everything seemed to be going wrong
not according to my plan
I wanted a longer prayer time but everyone left
I want these songs to be played
I wanted the music to be played like this
I wanted to share this
I wanted God to work like this
but in the end I knew the truth that God had to be there or nothing would happen
even if the music was amazing or anything else it didn't matter
so I left it God.
at first I could sense a HUGE wall of harden hearts people unwilling to open themselves
People who didn't know GOD who had no clue what fellowship is about
there was a HUGE unseen battle of hearts of wills of soul
and I felt defeated I wanted to cower in fear hide behind the curtains
It seemed like God wasnt there
like he left us to die, to look stupid
but deep inside I knew that I trusted everything to him. The night was his
and if that is what he wanted then soo be it.
I started to pray and we started to pray and cry out to God to reach into the hearts of the lost, the hardened
and he answered, he moved and worked
THANK YOU GOD
I felt it when Evelyn rebuked the fellowship there was POWER in her words it was CRAZY it was so intense I started to cry at the GLORY AND POWER of the HOLY SPIRIT.
and the CONSUMING FIRE SPREAD
still some hearts stayed hard unscathed by the flames.
and I pray for those hearts.
others were broken down and renewed, revived
and I pray for those hearts
and yet others started to see the light to feel the heat
and I pray for those hearts
and of course there were those who just sat and looked in from the outside
and I pray for those hearts
I don't know why God didn't break everyone because he can
but i trust in him
