I am who other people think I am
I am who I portray myself as to those around me
What I wear
How I talk
Who I'm friends with
Who I'm important to
Who knows me
Who I know
What I have
What I can do
What I do
How I look
How smart I am
I am only worth as much as what I can DO
I am only worth as much as the VALUE PEOPLE PLACE ON ME
THAT is TRUTH in the world we live in.
and its degrading our souls.
There is such a high importance in being accepted by others
We go to GREAT lengths to be accepted by people.
In fact its SOOO damn important that we are willing to compromise our beliefs our values
and we are even ready to step on others to hurt others to BE accepted. We are ready to sacrifice our DIGNITY our pride in fact sometimes our life.
We hear stories of people who commit suicide because they weren't accepted .........
In math class I sit with a bunch of acquaintances that I guess would be the more "popular" group of kidz. And of course we all sit at the back not really paying attention to what the teacher is saying, talking about meaningless stuff. In front of us there are the nerdy Asian guys...you know the classic quiet guys who are so smart they just play DS in class or sleep. Except... theres one guy in the middle that sits right in front of us who looks like a nerdy Asian but...he's not that smart. This one guy is the guy that ALWAYS gets hate, a lot of hate from everyone. Everyday the "acquintainces" "play" with him: they will be nice to him and then somehow be REALLY nasty to him at the same time in a sorta mocking way. Then they'll start laughing in his face and talk crap in front of his face. And you know what? This guy makes a complete fool of himself. He doesn't sit quietly or even try to defend himself. He just LAUGHS along with them. He starts cracking jokes at himself.......and does things that are just humiliating for a normal person to do and say.
and as all these people are laughing I sorta just sit quietly in the back....... and as i see that guy making a fool of himself and laughing. I hear his silent scream: "accept me, love me"
it breaks my heart.
I was watching friends tonight. Basically, the plot revolved around the problem that Monica baked candy for the neighbours and neighbours kept coming back for more and more because it was soo good. At first Monica was flattered soo she kept baking for the neighbours. Eventually it came to a point where it was out of control and the neighbours didn't even care about her they just wanted the candy. And thats when Chandler said something like "The like the neighbours have for the candy is not the the same as the like they have for you" Implying that Monica was of course was confusing how much the neighbours liked her candy to how much they liked her as a person. In response, Monica said something like "you don't know how hard it is to get people to like you."
I guess we all put much of our identity in our RELATIONSHIPS
I know I did and still do
There was a point in my life where I was really down
It seemed like no one cared about me
I felt like TRASH.
I would get JEALOUS, ANGRY, ENVIOUS of the relationships other people were having with each other
I was selfish I wanted them all for MYSELF only me (aren't we all selfish?)
but someone reminded me: My relationships DO NOT define who I am
My identity lies in GOD in Jesus Christ.
What defines YOU? I mean if the above defines you then its sorta a weak foundation to place our identity in. It seems like it could fall apart at any minute second.
Relationships between humans are FRAGILE and soooo restricted.
Don't put your trust in things that are gona fail.
CUz only a relationship with GOD will last forever.
LIFE is short. People die....unexpectedly.
Sometimes I still get a little jealous............
but I think as I get to know God more, the less I become jealous and the more his LOVE for HUMANITY is placed in my heart.
LOVE
