Strong

I am STRONG
strong like a leaf blowing in the wind
strong like a butterfly caught in a net

I am soo strong I can pretend everything is alright
I am soo strong there's nothing wrong with me

I am soo strong I can keep others from seeing my problems
I am soo strong everyone thinks I'm strong

I AM STRONG

Are you strong?

I am weak
weak like ..........
weak like a crippled solider held up by his commander

I am weak I know its not alright theres soo many things that are just going wrong.....
I am weak but I know that I can persevere because God holds me up

I am weak but I am not ashamed to say that I got problems, hurts, struggles
I am weak but I am not weak

Are you weak?

Relationships

yesterday, today, tomorrow
the same?
different?

TIME
IS A FUNNY thing

its always moving, every second something is happening......changing

We all have our different paths. We don't know what the future will bring.
We meet new people
Forget others
Forge new friendships
Lose Others
Some people don't stay in your life for too long.
Others stay a little longer....

But the fact is: eventually those relationships will end.
and yet we all want to keep those who are dear to us forever.
do we fear death? or really is it LONELINESS that we fear?

"Till death do us part, As long as we both shall live"
.......a line that has lost its meaning in today's society
Its sad........ its not supposed to be like this.
We say we love but really do we love? What is love?
Love is supposed to be FOREVER
But most of the time it doesn't last for even 50 years. and theres always SOMETHING wrong messed about the relationship: he's controlling, she expects me to do everything, he doesn't do enough for me (i can go on all day)

How can it last forever if we die?
I mean when we're dead do we still love? What do you believe?

There are SO many people out there each one DIFFERENT, distinctive
Every person you meet has their own ideas, opinions, personality, body, humor, you name it
Every person you meet impacts your life...
Some in a big way
Others in very little way.....

Its actually AMAZING
Every person is different, in every group of people (ANY) there is a different VYBE of interactions
Each individual brings something new to the group.
Removing just one person will totally change the chemistry.

NOW THINK of all the people in the world and think of the possible combinations
you can have groups of 2,3,10,13,100,100000 and with different ppl well the combinations are ENDLESS

its ART. its CRAZY, It blows my, minddd
it can't just end with DEATH

there has to be more.

Where is God in this?
God is the one being that we can have an eternal relationship with, he created us.
We were created for relationships!
First with GOd
Than with other people
GOD understands who we are 100% at our core
We all want to get closer to ppl but it seems like there isnt a person who is able to understand us completely.

We were created to live forever
ISN't that why we all want to NOT DIE .....we want to keep going

but theres something that messes all that up.
SIN

we all know what it is:
we know whats right, whats wrong
How things are supposed to be.
and we see that its NOT

Killing=bad
rape= bad
stealing= bad

Sin is what HURTS us and yet we still pursue sin
its what screws up our relationships
WITH PEOPLE and WITH GOD
but the problem is were chained by our sin we cant stop and even if we could the damage is done. its too late........

But GOD wants us to have relationships the way its SUPPOSED to be
HE LOVES us
he sent his Son to save us from our sins
so that we can have that restored relationship with him.

BEcause GOD conquered death and sin
we can too if we repent of our sins and turn to GOD
sooooooo we can finally Have the relationship we NEED

Waiting

Waiting.
patiently
knowing

that Greater things are coming
all the struggles, tears and prayers

Will be answered,
have not been in vain.

Already I see signs of LIFE RENEWED REVIVED
its coming
Don't know when.
but SOON

this is just the start
its the time, the generation
where God will reveal himself to the nations

Acts 2:16-18
16No, this is what was spoken by the prophet Joel:
17" 'In the last days, God says,
I will pour out my Spirit on all people.
Your sons and daughters will prophesy,
your young men will see visions,
your old men will dream dreams.
18Even on my servants, both men and women,
I will pour out my Spirit in those days,
and they will prophesy

The beginning of the end....
The great finale to the greatest story in existence...

I'm ready to see MIRACLES
too be part of the story.....
To see God heal the broken

To see his name be glorified

Amen

a World

where people are equal
where people do not judge
where people are real

no lies
no masks
a place where people are who they were created to be like
where they see don't see there uniqueness as "weird" but they see it as something special that only they posses

where no one is trying to be like anyone else
where people put others before themselves

no messed up relationships
no unnecessary hurts

where people accept others as people not as nerds, geeks, ugly, pretty.......
where people see that there isn't a huge difference between us at all

WHERE PEOPLE CAN LOVE UNSELFISHLY

can such a world exist?
we can all picture the "ideal" world
but we can't seem to make it a reality

IF we know what the world SHOULD be like....
AND if we know that the way things in the world are now isn't the way it should be..

or is it? What part of us inside can tell that something is desperately messed up?
rape, stealing, murder? according to science shouldn't these be good things?
Well I mean survival of the fittest, evolution. Theoretically looking after yourself seems to be the thing that keeps you ALIVE, hence the organisms that only looked after themselves and i guess didn't care about the well being of others survived and hence that "gene" got passed on continued to exist

or thats what I learned in biology (someone correct me if I'm wrong).
and yet humans are pretty selfish ppl soo that does make sense

but the thing that doesn't add up is this concept of right and wrong.
the issue of how love can exist
why are we soo damn different?

I mean you don't see the Animal police arresting lions cuz they just killed a deer
If animals eat each other of the same species what makes it soo bad for people to eat each other?

aren't we only several DNA's different from animals?
why don't animals have relationships? do they?

Humans seem to be separated into two parts that contradict each other

Whats the answer to this mystery?

God?
Karma? Life force?
SOMETHING ELSE?

is there a scientific explaination? if there is i would like to know.

More

Live in the moment, In this time
Its all the same old rhyme
Just waiting for a moment of relief that doesn't last

more than all the fake
more than all these lies
the meaningless cycle of our lives, the emptiness inside

The thirst for greater things
The urge to be the best
Only realizing you can't make reality fantasy

Love that doesn't last
Peace that never stays
Never Satisfied with what we got so far

None of it ever stays
It all will pass away
tell whats the one thing that can last through death?

Something deep inside me can't stand the thought of this truth.
IF this was all there is then why even go on?.................
Because:

Theres gotta be MORE!
More than all the countless let downs
This can't be all there is
I'm dying here

Falling out of place
My life ,This world is
spinning out of control
Just click the TV on .
and tell me its alright

Cuz everything that I feel
screams theres something more
Beyond the broken hearts
that are burning in the morgue

Just.
OPEN YOUR EYES

Sight

22Be merciful to those who doubt; 23snatch others from the fire and save them; to others show mercy, mixed with fear—hating even the clothing stained by corrupted flesh.
Jude 1:22-23 NIV


Easily said
HARD to do
Where is the line?

How did Jesus do it?
He chilled with prostitutes went and visited people who were "sketch"
He loved them like God loves ALL people
But at the same time he sorta "opened" their hearts to the sin they were living in, to the chains that were holding them down.
and he freed them
and changed their lives

When I see how Jesus changed the life of soo many people personally
When I see how my life has changed

I want to tell people to show them Jesus

but I guess its hard for people to see Jesus in the "crowd"
Zacchaeus wanted to meet Jesus but he couldn't get to him...with the crowd in the way
SO he climbed the tree...

I think everyone secretly wants to meet Jesus. They've been waiting for him their whole lives. They just can't see him
but when they do meet him or even catch a glimpse of him .........
They will want to know him more and know THATS the person they've been looking for....

The problem is finding a tree they can climb to see Him.

I think that thats our job we are "trees" LOL
I wanna be a goood tree
THe question is how do we be trees that can be relied on?

Go easy on those who hesitate in the faith. Go after those who take the wrong way. Be tender with sinners, but not soft to sin. The sin itself stinks to high heaven.
Jude 1:22-23 -The Message



(analogy heard from Tim Woo)

Defined

I am who other people think I am
I am who I portray myself as to those around me
What I wear
How I talk
Who I'm friends with
Who I'm important to
Who knows me
Who I know
What I have
What I can do
What I do
How I look
How smart I am
I am only worth as much as what I can DO
I am only worth as much as the VALUE PEOPLE PLACE ON ME

THAT is TRUTH in the world we live in.
and its degrading our souls.

There is such a high importance in being accepted by others
We go to GREAT lengths to be accepted by people.

In fact its SOOO damn important that we are willing to compromise our beliefs our values
and we are even ready to step on others to hurt others to BE accepted. We are ready to sacrifice our DIGNITY our pride in fact sometimes our life.
We hear stories of people who commit suicide because they weren't accepted .........

In math class I sit with a bunch of acquaintances that I guess would be the more "popular" group of kidz. And of course we all sit at the back not really paying attention to what the teacher is saying, talking about meaningless stuff. In front of us there are the nerdy Asian guys...you know the classic quiet guys who are so smart they just play DS in class or sleep. Except... theres one guy in the middle that sits right in front of us who looks like a nerdy Asian but...he's not that smart. This one guy is the guy that ALWAYS gets hate, a lot of hate from everyone. Everyday the "acquintainces" "play" with him: they will be nice to him and then somehow be REALLY nasty to him at the same time in a sorta mocking way. Then they'll start laughing in his face and talk crap in front of his face. And you know what? This guy makes a complete fool of himself. He doesn't sit quietly or even try to defend himself. He just LAUGHS along with them. He starts cracking jokes at himself.......and does things that are just humiliating for a normal person to do and say.

and as all these people are laughing I sorta just sit quietly in the back....... and as i see that guy making a fool of himself and laughing. I hear his silent scream: "accept me, love me"

it breaks my heart.

I was watching friends tonight. Basically, the plot revolved around the problem that Monica baked candy for the neighbours and neighbours kept coming back for more and more because it was soo good. At first Monica was flattered soo she kept baking for the neighbours. Eventually it came to a point where it was out of control and the neighbours didn't even care about her they just wanted the candy. And thats when Chandler said something like "The like the neighbours have for the candy is not the the same as the like they have for you" Implying that Monica was of course was confusing how much the neighbours liked her candy to how much they liked her as a person. In response, Monica said something like "you don't know how hard it is to get people to like you."

I guess we all put much of our identity in our RELATIONSHIPS
I know I did and still do
There was a point in my life where I was really down
It seemed like no one cared about me
I felt like TRASH.
I would get JEALOUS, ANGRY, ENVIOUS of the relationships other people were having with each other
I was selfish I wanted them all for MYSELF only me (aren't we all selfish?)

but someone reminded me: My relationships DO NOT define who I am

My identity lies in GOD in Jesus Christ.

What defines YOU? I mean if the above defines you then its sorta a weak foundation to place our identity in. It seems like it could fall apart at any minute second.
Relationships between humans are FRAGILE and soooo restricted.
Don't put your trust in things that are gona fail.
CUz only a relationship with GOD will last forever.
LIFE is short. People die....unexpectedly.

Sometimes I still get a little jealous............
but I think as I get to know God more, the less I become jealous and the more his LOVE for HUMANITY is placed in my heart.

LOVE